Norman Lindsay (1879-1969), 'Pantera', ''Idyllia'' by Hugh McCrae, 1922

Kiwi Time

tapping the sign

Also, a note to myself, get oleander clippings from back home tomorrow night fjjsjssn I know I'm gonna forget......

If I go to LA again I'm going to go to the Korean home goods store I got my comforter at, get a new one for my bigger bed, and ship it back home to myself. That's how much I love this stupid comforter. Its unavailable anywhere online too and reddit confirmed that the store still carries the brand.

The fact that not enough people use this shit-ass technology that is always wrong and it costs too much to constantly maintain so it can't ever make any profit is, to me, very fucking funny.

Introduce yourself with five concerts you've seen War Baths Luis Cole Blue Öyster Cult The Aquabats!

Going on day 4 of upped dosage on my SSRIs and so far so good. I'm out of my depressive episode (I'm pretty sure) and so far not manic so 🤞🤞🤞 I feel funny and goofy again, at least a little bit, but also a little off kilter still admittedly

There is a thing happening that I am SO grateful for, which is I no longer feel all my sketches are precious and have been able to trash more of my sketchbooks/art to make room for new books 😂 I was incapable of throwing away drawings for the first 28 years of my life I am freeeee noooow

“Picture Sisyphus Happy” Man/boulder. Enemies-to-lovers.

A week and a half more to go before I am free of any huge obligations for a few months I am JONESING I've had shit I needed to do or was out of town for every weekend for like two months straight I'm so tired...

Tapping the sign.

Print is uh, not a GREAT industry as far as growth goes, but I know enough about it now that I know that at the very least I will be able to have a job in the industry wherever I go. Knowing design/prepress as well as having 7+ years in production experience is super valuable and kind of rare

Doc asked unprompted if I've ever been screened for bipolar (I haven't but when I first found a psych it was because my counselor thought I might have been) My brain stuff is bad but God I'm getting tired of trying stuff and it not working..

Did laundry. Cleaned a little. I want to get rid of a lot of my stuff cause I'm getting anxious about having too much stuff again

It's the first depressive episode of The Big Dark pray for me comrades

Without downloading new pictures, describe your gender

A new concept: Punzzle A pun so obscure that getting the joke is more a journey akin to riddle solving than anything remotely funny or mirthful NOT bad puns. Like someone says something and you're like "....wait....wait a minute there's something there isn't there"

Getting obsessed with jewelry and perfume was not on my bucket list but here we are... I spend an insane amount of time looking up perfumes and jewelry making techniques and just. Idk it's all so pretty and interesting ahh

I think I overloaded my nervous system. Like I hit a wall yesterday/today and the only thing I can really point to is that I spent a couple hours over the weekend on edge (dog barking at friends place) + two days of baseball nerves in a row + cramming to help a friend get art together for an event

I was...so productive tonight ......even though I am exhausted.......... Expires (/positive)

I'm making progress on commission stuff 😤 there's a ton of stuff I still need to do but I'm actually motivated to make things rnow thank fuck

One day...one day "it's not going to be as bad as you think it will" will work. It's almost always true. Do I believe it before hand? Nope. Never. Not once.

Having medication issues again. Not being able to sleep well as a side effect and at this point I want to just give up on this course 🥲 The benefits are so miniscule, my fuse is gone, I'm having memory problems, and the minute it wears off I feel 10x more stupid (it SUCKS MY ASS)

What if I got a part time job selling perfume

all discourse aside, there is one machine with consciousness. it's printers. they are alive and conscious and they hate you and they'd take your arm clean off if you let them. never trust a printer.

no point in being so shy when everyone can see what a good cow you are 💕 sketch comm for @/raymondkua_1 on twitt

ive been so gd busy i want to focus more on drawing ;w;

[ #FireEmblem | #Fe3h | #Sylvix | #SylvixWeek2025 ] Sylvix Week Day 1: Dancing 1/2

i am very normal rnow

Don't talk about it much because I am Coping(tm) but being an erotic artist who is also trans in the US rnow feels fucking bad man

I just realized I have a $250 rilakuma plush I bought new in bag from the thrift store for $15.... And I could have gotten two more at the time but didn't 🥲

Today's emotion is still depression but also spicy. Want to write a poem about my asshole ex best friend who threw me away after 10 years over a fucking mattress If I ever see him again I'm going to rip him a new asshole

There's nothing quite as satisfying as taking apart jewelry for its beads/chains I wanna do that to a leather purse too ngl. Reverse engineer that shit

Heal me, siopao....

Woof...night brain got me bad last night sorry NCKSJSK I feel better-ish today

I'm tired of suffering. I'm tired of feeling like I don't deserve to heal. Or that I wasn't wounded even in the first place. Or if I was, it was my own doing. I'm tired of feeling alone, and feeling irrational pain. I'm just so tired.

Extremely bad feels. It's like no matter what I do I will be plagued by this soul crushing loneliness occasionally. It is objectively not true. I am not alone. But I feel so alone sometimes. I have to distract myself or I'll just succumb

It's...a specific chip to have on my shoulder but. Being referred to as transmasc or any terms other than the ones I specifically use is so goddamn annoying I am just very over it. Idk why/when transmasc became the new community sanctioned way to say "afab but trans." I'm a trans man. I'm a man.

Dima needle play send twt

I hate randomly having mental health tanks. Please stop.

I have redeveloped a mental habit I thought I killed and I'm so pissed about it ngl. It's the "if someone doesn't respond to my message it's because they hate me" association. Wack. Ass. Stupid. Untrue.

this exists it is called thinking

start using "fanworks" again instead of "content" let's go people

Kinky people are amazing. I keep getting to do the most insane shit and I'm so grateful for it LOL

SCREAMING SCREAMING SCREAMING

felix: if it helps you avoid thinking yourself into a spiral then yeah go ahead and pretend to be a horse or whatever. idc sylvain: okay ❤️ neigh ❤️

Found a page while flipping thru my sketchbook that perfectly illustrates my artistic modes