Anxiety is so funny, dude, like how does being thirsty, peeing a lot, and feeling like throwing up help me with this situation? LMFAO

This week on the Rally Point Khazan week. Finishing the game with all side stories (hopefully)

Have some vent art 🖤

Idk what to do with my hands: entire being edition

i have no much love for people but it doesn't fucking matter because i'm locked inside my own head haha don't mind me

i wish it wasn't taboo to go out for a walk in the sunshine when one's face is all red from crying lol

If I had a dollar for every time I was mistaken for a lesbian then I could probably buy a nice hamburger with those funds

do you think i could make it over there?

I skipped the HPV vaccine as a teen bc of my needle phobia but I did get it in my 30s. It's not too late! In the USA it's approved up to age 45 now. In Aotearoa it's free up to age 26! It's possible to be an asymptomatic carrier & there's NO effective cancer screening for HPV-related cancers in men

Recovering people pleaser thought: if I can't say "no" then my "yes" has no value

Oh, uh, if you say so lmao

I can't commit to a date but I am tenatively planning to return to streaming in February. It will depend on how my next doctor's appointment goes late this month. I miss streaming. I plan to continue BG3 & Fallout: New Vegas + start Mass Effect 2 when I return 💜

If anyone is looking for a goal for 2026 I would recommend finding a way to use your body that you enjoy. Walking, running, yoga, dancing, or basically anything at all which works for your situation. It's so good for connecting back to ourselves + helps mental & physical health

If you still wear a face mask in public indoor spaces: I love you! Thank you for protecting yourself and those around you. If you don't wear a face mask in public indoor spaces: I love you! Please consider masking to protect yourself and those around you ❤️‍🩹

Neighbours are playing loud music and I was wondering why because it's a Wednesday. Then I realised it's New Year's eve LMFAO

❌ A/I can’t replace real skills ❌ A/I can’t stop crime before it happens ❌ A/I can’t have real feelings or thought ❌ A/I isn’t therapy ✅ A/I is hurting the environment ✅ A/I is plagiaring creatives ✅ A/I is moderated by underpaid traumatized workers ✅ A/I can give you psychosis 🚫SAY NO TO GEN A/I🚫

People are giving LLMs their genomes

hi

Abusers really cope with denial. Estranged parents are told in detail the issues but make up their own reasons for why they were cut off. It's somehow never the abusers' fault bc they harm others to self regulate. Life is unbearable when they're forced to face it so delusion wins

As a kid, I got along with straight girls by being the "boy" in make believe - Michaelangelo to her April and Mulder to her Scully. What's the adult equivalent of that? Don't say cosplay bc that sounds expensive and like I'd have to leave my house...

My goal for 2026: go to the beach. It's 22 minutes away by foot or 5 by car (I don't drive due to my medical cannabis prescription and draconian driving laws about THC here). This might not seem like a big goal to others but it is for me due to chronic illness ❤️‍🩹

twitch.tv/bakawater Come hang out! It's WWE time!

"Best thing since sliced bread." I've always felt that bread tasted better when torn, actually, so was slicing an improvement?

When I was going through my divorce I had a boss who was also divorced but with 2 kids. Our supervisory tête-à-têtes turned into emotional support sessions for her & eventually she told me that she decided to stop managing people bc she realised it doesn't suit her personality

"You'll understand when you're older." Boring, patronising, potentially untrue "You'll discover the truth." Exciting, encouraging, evokes a sense of agency

I did a gentle neck and shoulder yoga routine just now and I am reminded why I was dissociating while ignoring my body for so long lol but it will get easier as I keep at it ❤️‍🩹

I did some stretches and it reminded me I have to strengthen my core because I still have a slight abdominal split lol good start, tho! 💜

Magelings, let's try this. I'm gonna stretch tomorrow. Get out my yoga mat & stretch. I don't have to do a yoga routine or anything but at least some casual stretching. I'll update if I manage to or not. Giving myself some extrinsic motivation to nudge myself despite the pain ❤️‍🩹

Seeing people say: "OMG, aging is a mindset!" When I've had worsening chronic pain since my teens due to chronic inflammation from my severe lifelong trauma LMFAOOOOOOOOOO

I will be taking down my merch store at the end of 2025. All proceeds still go to the Trevor Project. Thank you to all the magelings who have supported this effort 💜

Did we get another influx of users or is this place just struggling in general? Lol

A neighbour across the road from me has flashing fairy lights and they mostly appear like as a red or blue smudge through my bathroom window so I keep thinking the cops are out lmfao

people melting down over the wordle of today when it's the name of one of my OCs lmfaooooooo

I'm hoping that I can get my doctor to understand my health & advocate for me to have more stable support that doesn't have to be justified every 3 months. Once that's handled I should be able to stabilise & come back to streaming. I miss you all. I appreciate your support so much ❤️‍🩹

This is all the seasonal cheer you'll get from me. Happy summer solstice 💜 youtu.be/17gKw_j6Qq0?...

Being bounced around mental health services is not great for my mental health, gotta say

Powerful tool for Twitch Partners seeing those Twitch-sanctioned sponsorship offers... Let PUBG, WhereWindsMeet, Capcom, and most of all Twitch, know that you know your value and won't be taken advantage of.

My toxic trait is I love a good listicle

It's not possible to be too aware of social issues and inequality but I do understand why people defensively say "Maybe I'm too woke but..." because it feels like the denial of how capitalism requires all types of bigotry is so rampant that it's isolating which is exactly what it's designed to do

I fuckin' hate asexual erasure. It's actually part of why I was especially vulnerable to sexual coercion in the past. They made me feel that I was deficient somehow. I didn't know I was demisexual until I was an adult & already married! I want young people to know. Erasure harms

anti ai, pro hag

Living in the USA was a nightmare. It was a nightmare in 2012 under Obama, in 2017 under Trump, and in January 2024 under Biden when I left - not just because of my abuser but because of the entire system that relies on every type of bigotry to prop itself up and maintain power

I was listening to this while gardening yesterday, alone in my garden w/o headphones, my neighbour walked past me coming home from work. I said hi & he just looked annoyed. I think he might not have liked Caelan's (hilarious) descriptions of men's lust for homoerotic activities. Anyway, recommend 💯

ko-fi.com/mamaremedy/g... Thank you all. I'm super close to securing at least one ticket so at least one of us can surely attend our dad's funeral. All your help so far is greatly appreciated.

I live alone. My timezones are such that my partners are working or sleeping during most of my waking hours. I like talking, yes talking not arguing, with ppl on Twitter but I can't tolerate their LLM running my algo. I haven't been able to find ppl I like talking to here. Anyone been through this?

Follow this cool artist. I wanna see the cool mouse model she makes 💜

bringing heliolatry back in 2025 as i pray to the sun for a solar flare to obliterate AI data center

As a streamer when you ask me if I remember you after not talking in chat for weeks or months that's actually pretty insensitive because I have daily migraines that cause brainfog & also dissociative amnesia from trauma lmfao please be considerate as you don't know people that way❤️‍🩹

I know I haven't streamed much at all for the second half of the year but I still want to express my appreciation. I'm doing my best to get my health stable enough to come back to streaming but I won't rush myself because I can't after a lifetime of pushing myself. Take care 💜