trying to numb my overwhelming mental pain by attempting to do my previous stuff once again

the new united Fodlan flag

Monica uniting the three houses, as a gift for a friend! Artist: skeb.jp/@fusenryo2

if 3H gets a Definitive Edition with Monica and new (lesbian) supports for her, i'll forgive everything if the evil one wont ever appear in HSR and only the good March continues to live on, i'll forgive everything too i dont need much to be happy...

TIL Alexandra Kollontai (1872-1952): if Dorothea was hetero but became a communist feminist Minister of Foreign Affairs what an icon www.marxists.org/archive/koll...

my life is the fucking worst not only i've been ill and hospitalized for a week, still am ill and unstable, but also my "reward" is 3h sequel with VW ending canonized, which is dead-on-arrival for me i just cant have nice things in my life. i just have to suffer all the time. for what

i did not receive what i wanted, so im back to the hole i crawled from

Direct can have something good to singlehandedly return me from the other side

The girlies !!! Commission for @ciatokins.bsky.social 🥰 #FE3H

feeling dead inside no FEH as it went to shit with CYL and gooner fans no Monica edits as i felt like nobody cared for me even after i asked for support a lot of times no HSR after March turned evil and her "fans" turned into Evernight fans, shitting on ppl who didnt like the change i'm lost

this fanfic shit is easy - writes a few chapters - realizes all of them are shit - loses motivation and good self-esteem - deletes all of it from ao3 - gets a new cool idea this fanfic shit is easy - writes a few chapters

i stopped playing hsr ever since new march reveal whenever i see her or even think about how she's corrupted and evil now, i cry it affected me really bad, it hurts and i feel torment and suffering i really want to play hsr, i like it a lot, but i just cant, i just cant anymore

My friend @devotedlesbian.is-extremely.gay wrote a paired ending for Monica and Cornelia so I mocked up an "ingame" version of it :3

something happened

"i asked chatgpt" "i asked grok" "i asked gemini" so? i asked Hubert and he said "wouldn't you like to know, lesbian girl"

imagine being such a hater you come to the replies about the character you hate and shit on their preferred ship Lysithea fans make me hate Lysithea

i love to draw her lol

monica von ochs aka my favourite dress up doll for warmups

hope you had luck on your hyacine pulls, trailblazers! 🌈 #honkaistarrail #崩壊スターレイル #hsr

right now. always

Assorted Monicas #fe3h #monicavonochs

when i make a mistake, mother is rude to me. when i feel bad and don't hide it, she screams at me she has it worse and doesn't cry and nobody is comforting her. then doesn't talk with me for days as a trans woman, i can't get irl friends. i'm alone endless suffering. no escape. i wish you cared more

abstaining from my social media isn't enough for me. i see it everywhere. i hear it everywhere. the world, the people are bigoted and evil, and it becomes worse with each passing day as propaganda continues to brainwash people and remove their empathy, and then they spread evil themselves

bestie opened commissions, check it out she's a very skilled artist, i myself requested a few comms from her already. gay art made with gay hands and with gay soul

commissions are open! sharing is hugely appreciated!! dm if interested!! 💖

fuck Engage. genuinely, fuck it so much for what ammo it gave to the transphobes, trans-erasing crowd, and even to lesbophobic people. it will forever poison all future FE discussions about trans rep. it's irredeemable

Made this for a friend.

a mental episode hit me time to self-isolate because if i say everything on my mind people would hate me i've never affected anyone for longer than a few seconds they take to laugh at my edits my life is worthless physically enchained, i live amongst digital delusions and that's how i will die

a Monica fan came to a doctor something something life is depressing something something check these Monica edits they are funny said the doctor something something

the addition of CF Dedue to FEH gives us a chance of having AG Monica next year of course that wouldn't happen ever because nobody but me cares about Monica, and she'll never get any normal alts, bar special ones

my heart and soul hurt so much when i remember how little stuff Monica has in Hopes and, consequently, in fandom am i even doing anything worthwhile? does my life even have meaning?

world is still evil and i'm no better

Fire Emblem: "What if chess made you horny" Three Houses: "What if chess was gay" Three Hopes: "Actually, fuck chess, leave only the gay"

as you might know, in the original meme the third line is "type shit", but it's obvious it wouldn't fit with the two. overall, i feel it's better if the words are changed to fit the characters, which is what i usually do with my edits i believe it's funnier this way. might i be wrong? i don't know

they holding hands your honor...

new bootleg Monigard from Hazel

Happy May Day

today is Labour Day! Peace, Labour, May to every worker in the world! someday, we will be free from our chains

teen Monigard be like

how quickly Scarlet Blaze would end if Monica had a gun infiltrating the enemy territory and headshotting Dimitri and Rhea from a few hundred meters is totally in her abilities, though neither she nor Edelgard would want to do that

i'm never watching any marvel movie again. fucking misogynistic producers and fanbase. i'm ashamed of myself that i only realized it recently, i should have been better

Let me note, any adult involved in this show deserves their career ruined, straight up. If your in this show, no one should ever watch another TV show or movie your involved in, go work at a grocery store or something, your done having any kind of public cred and that's how we should treat um.

HSR stuff: annual (5 months for me lol) trailblaze report!

i wish

world is still evil and i'm unhappy

happy #LesbianVisibilityWeek ! i'm just a not normal girl with an unhealthy obsession with this fictional lesbian, who, in turn, has a not-so-healthy (definitely healthier than me though) obsession with her beloved Lady girlservant x girlboss my favorite romantic dynamics

that's my vision