Now that #crowdcontrol is officially out on @dropout.tv this is my official request to @samreich.bsky.social for my shirt back! Seriously Sam, I want my shirt. What evil genius scheme are you going to use them for? @vicmmic.bsky.social can you step in?

In case you weren't aware... www.instagram.com/p/DGuJC7BPvD... #mentalheath #shawareness

4 weeks done. There's been a weird mix of steps forward and some massive steps backward. I know progress isn't linear but damn I hate this feeling. #progess #mentalhealth #therapy

Insomnia roulette! Is it ADHD? Depression? Anxiety? Or my meds? The world will never know.

Anyone else get anxious over birthdays? For me it's the idea of getting older which I equate with getting sick and feeble. #anxiety #processing #birthdays #birthdayanxiety

I'm up to 15 mg Lexapro. I had been on 10 mg for 9 years. I was extremely hesitant about increasing my dose, but damn it's actually working. At this rate I'll definitely end up in a "wellness camp" #medication #ssri #lexapro #depression

When you learn there's a high correlation between female ADHD and self harm. 😬

Therapy prep

Things that sent me spiraling today. #spiraling

Things that sent me into a spiral yesterday: trying to do my Linux homework. #spiraling

It's been 2 weeks of IOP. At least 4 more to go. My panic attacks have worsened as we do deep dives into my issues. I just keep telling myself #thisistemporary

Individual therapy today with my long term therapist. Lots of tears. Did some deep breathing with my Finch and then went on a very long walk for a coffee. #therapy

Starting IOP on Tuesday. I'm thinking of making a couple of videos about the process. Probably will post to TikTok and then reupload here. #therapy

Something that will always help chase the sads away: the beach and a crispy diet Coke.

Things said during therapy, "It's not like they make a Hallmark card for that." (Referencing how to tell my parents I'm entering IOP)

No stream tonight. Managed to get over Grapevine before 5 closed, & are now home w/Beans. Take care of yourself & each other. We'll be donating & would encourage you if you can. Difficult, true, stories are impactful, important, & offer incredible lessons. Thanks for letting us share ours w/you.

Things I say in therapy: "peeing is boring"

First post! Just to say reminder to self: don't take cold meds and then try to go shopping at Target. I felt like I was walking thru a dream. Probably shouldn't drive either.