It has been a while, but I have finally released a new video. The video helps viewers understand what they need to know about the upcoming @en.vket.com #VRChat event. youtu.be/mEGokC8piBI?...

The @en.vket.com world hop is always fun — a great way to meet friends, both old and new. Everyone is so kind and understanding. The amount of positive energy that radiates from these events could power a city.

I found myself signing, and thinking of new poems to write for the first time in over a year. I feel like I am getting better.

Went food shopping today, and I didn't have a panic attack \o/ #smallvictories

I hope that when I feel like I've improved enough, I can potentially look into helping others again, but in a reduced capacity (dedicating every waking minute to something is apparently not good for your health).

While I miss doing stuff in VRChat with RL, leaving was the best option. It was a lot of work and stress, and my therapist also recommended that I step away and focus on myself. RL are in some amazing hands, and I hope it continues.

Last night I dreamed my parents were alive, it felt so real, but I managed to know it was a dream because in the dream, my parents accepted me as trans and didn't try to abuse me.

Going out has become tough again in recent weeks. My anxiety around people, especially large crowds, has returned. Getting dizzy spells and an uneasy feeling.

I had a horrible nightmare last night. A white light was constantly appearing in front of me, and my body was being dragged to it. When I woke up, my heart rate (bpm) was in the 40s (according to my watch).

I had an amazing therapy session today. I need to focus more on myself and having an independent lifestyle. After all I can't help people if I can't help myself, honestly I wish I had realized this long ago before I caused unintentional pain to those around me (both virtual and IRL)

So it has been a month since I have had Utrogestan and a few weeks since my Estrogel, and it is driving me crazy. However, there is good news: my refill is finally in, and I can collect it tomorrow.

I and the Rainbow Library team are happy to announce that Rainbow Library has been nominated for two #VRCommunityAwards. Nominated - Social Impact (Rainbow Library) Community Leadership (Asheris, RL founder). Thank you @thevrcawards.bsky.social

Happy Birthday!

I'm so grateful to the @vrchat.com community. So many people wished me a happy birthday yesterday that I cried.

It might be getting cold outside, but it's nice in warm in the Rainbow Library as we enter the third and final day of the Winter Solstice Festival on #VRChat. Join us for the live music at vrch.at/3t94xpwb

The Rainbow Library #VRChat winter solstice festival continues as the stage has being defrosted for day 2. Join us in vrch.at/3t94xpwb

Day 1 of Rainbow Library's Winter Solstice Festival has begun in @vrchat.com. Head to vrch.at/3t94xpwb

Having fun making a little joke regarding a new Rainbow Library update.

#Vket really has me falling in love with @vrchat.com again. Thank you so much @vket.com

Thank you once again for showing up to Vket Cup 2 last night! When I started Vtubing stuff, I wanted to host a racing game tournament of some sort, and I've managed to pull it off twice now!

A huge thank you to everyone who attended the Rainbow Library meetup in #Vket #VketPhoto #VketFormula @vket.com

I just realised I had already posted about this 4 days ago. Honestly, everything is a blur for me.

So an ex-friend doxed me on @discord.com by sending multiple people my real life name. I have a strong fear that they could send people my real address. I made a ticket about this, and discord support just closed it with a copy-and-paste answer.

I managed to get 4 hours of sleep last night, and thankfully for my mental health, I had an occupational therapist appointment this morning, and I almost completely broke down during the appointment. I have my psychologist appointment tomorrow, where I will be talking about this again.

So last night, a person who I thought was a friend decided to dox me by sending my name to multiple users on Discord 😢. As you might imagine, this has left me shaken and led to multiple panic attacks.

I just spent the last month putting out fires, and I am honestly mentally and physically exhausted.

HEAR YE, HEAR YE: VRChat New Year's Eve is almost upon us! We're opening submissions for posters and music venue logos on MONDAY, Nov 17. Read our Community Content Creation Guides below to see what kind of content we're looking to showcase. Get cooking!

THE LIST GROWS We have a NEW legend on the website!! vrchatlegends.com/Index/player... @asheris.bsky.social #VRChat #VRChatWorld #VRC #VRC+ #VRChatLegends #NEW #Christmas #Christmas2025

Chiitan loves all transgender people. I've received a lot of criticism for expressing my support, but what's more important is that all transgender people live happy lives. Blue Sky cannot display long posts, so please read this post if you'd like. love you all 🤍 ↓ www.instagram.com/reel/C9qppva...

It was an honour to work with Skits ’n’ Bits to make this event possible.

The Rainbow Library #VRChat world just got bigger. The world is now an eye-watering 2.25km² is size and features a brand-new dock. Experience the new update for yourself at vrc.group/RAINBO.7059. #trans #LGBTQ+

🌈✨ In under 7 months, the Rainbow Library has grown to 1,000+ members on Discord! This isn’t just a milestone—it’s proof of what we can create together: a safe, affirming space for trans souls to connect, grow & shine. 💖 Thank you for being part of this journey! #lgbtq #trans #VRChat

Take to the skies in the Rainbow Library! 🌈 Players can now fly freely in our VRChat world or test their skills in our flight course. 🎥 Watch the update: youtu.be/XFMBe_z_0oI #VRChat #GamingCommunity #RainbowLibrary

I think I've found a spot at #Vket that resembles a place where I took a photo on my last trip to Tokyo. #VRChat @en.vket.com

I regret nothing about this post :)

I love the outfit I made for @projektcommunity.com If you see me running around, be sure to say hi.

I was at my city's pride parade today, and I am now home and exhausted. So much terrible dancing from me.

I started progesterone today \o/.

I have a booth at #PJKT2025 Come to the creator world on the bottom floor. You might catch me performing!

You can meet many kinds of people in many kinds of avatars. Even a... shark? 🦈 #PJKT #VRChat #PJKT2025

Rainbow Library is thrilled to announce that we will have a booth at PJKT Fest 2025 organized by @projektcommunity.com we can’t wait to see you all there. #pjkt #pjkfest2025 #vrchat youtube.com/shorts/J1E9s...

49 people that would be forever missed. More than 50 wounded. Almost 10 years since the Pulse tragedy. We remember, we will never forget. More on our OpenCollective: buff.ly/fkh2Y21

FUR/HELP x Rainbow Library 🌈 We are thrilled to announce a groundbreaking collaboration between FUR/HELP and Rainbow Library! This partnership aims to create a vibrant and inclusive space for the LGBTQIA community within the immersive world of VRChat. More on our OpenCollective: buff.ly/tWUvw1M

Pride Month is almost here, and the Rainbow Library is ready to celebrate! 🌈

Ssshhh!🤫 I know you're excited for @projektcommunity.com Fest but it's still a library. 🌈📔 @rainbowlibraryvr.bsky.social #pjkt #pjktfest2025 #vrchat

The animated poster was a lot of fun to make. It was a fun and challenging learning experience.

Library Chan makes sure everyone is heard in the Rainbow Library

It was so much fun dancing for @highscoreprojekt.bsky.social. I never thought I could dance for an hour straight. @transversewithru.com it was lovely dancing at your event for the first time 💜

Pride Month at Rainbow Library We have 4 weeks of fun, art and celebration as Rainbow Library will show the past, present and future of Pride. vrc.group/RAINBO.7059 discord.gg/rainbowlibrary

🌈 The Discussion Room is OPEN! 🗣️ A new space in the Rainbow Library for thoughtful, respectful conversations in a cozy, inclusive setting. Come chat, chill, and connect 💬✨ #VRChat #RainbowLibrary #LGBTQ youtube.com/shorts/gVX86...