to be frank no one can tell if you use 3d model or not in your art. what the hell are they going to, bust down my front door and question my art process ?

My biggest conspiracy theory is that telling working class people that engagement in the arts is a middle / upper class thing and to do so makes you a class traitor is a psyop to make them disengaged with themselves and the world and the beauty of being human, so that they accept worse treatment.

transitioning from “im so full of shit” to “im so full of shit but i can still learn to be a better human”

it will be okay. i dont have any other option at all

i’m certain that if i obsess about a fictional character enough again that will Fix Me

stagnating. it’s not fun. im trying but when will this end

they did a rerun of interstellar back a while ago at where i was living but i ended up not watching it in theater cuz im way too depressed to get out and do something. i still think about it too much. idk.

After a while of remaining silent, I had truly regressed to the point of losing my ability to speak, as in i remeber the meaning, but couldn't recall the corresponding words. Maybe if i pretend i dont exist long enough one day i will eventually forget about my own existence too.

none of my fucking business, really idc

everything have gone to shit, again.

working under a deadline is ass cuz my nervous system will get so fried in the end of the day and unconsiously i started doomscrolling again. fuck my stupid baka life

living is kind of nice. i like it here. i wanna learn how to make a pizza this year.

honestly i got in motorsports rather late so everytime people talking about technical stuff i just sat there and nod along. it’s a bit embrassing haha

a bit jealous over seeing other getting help. maybe im just so detached nothing feel real anymore.

just because i didnt talk about it doesnt mean it doesnt exist nor happened.

motion sick so bad i feel like im gonna throw up half of my guts or smt

"he's so friend shaped" OKAY, PHRENOLOGIST

Conceptualization success #art | #discoelysium

im going to gouge every single fucking ai art poster i saw on my newfeed’s eye with a spoon then crush them over with a bicycle.

Work in progress

falling out with friends is weird.

maybe scp fanart soon but will try to have it post on the wikidot idk reading is my only way of coping these days

what am i even reading

wonder if other people regards me as a secretive person or not. if not, then im not doing enough.

me when i became the very thing i sworn against (japanese artist that delete their entire account when they moved on from a fandom)

the witch of decay

every road is pointing to “you are good but your effort will not be appreciated enough at least for now”

thinking about deleting every of my single twt account up to this point i have left too many trace on internet

funeral and patriarchalism are the worst fucking combination in the world

i think i deleted my old tumblr. cant say for sure im not bother enough to check

cant understand why people find it surprise that channel is korean. their artstyle is already very korean to me. the sona miku comparison is not just limited to korean internet culture tho, bet you can find it in anyone that was exposed to league at a young age.

personal exhibition….

life so bad i started watching formula e

Overture #whitepine #whitepinefanart #ivorycellofanart #illustration

egret doodle

the funny gig of bsky is that this site is utter dogshit when it comes to algo so i guess i can talk more about my intention in drawing without having anyone seeing it at all

oh hey im 20. not sure what to do now.

there is never enough

cant kill myself yet too many banger art ideas

>be dead for months >come back >see no new fandom art except mine are you fucking serious. where the hell is everybody.

does playing league counts as self harm

wait i cant see people’s like now ???