i fly a starship across the universe divide and when i reach the other side i'll find a place to rest my spirit if i can perhaps i may become a highwayman again or i may simply be a single drop of rain but i will remain, and i'll be back again www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMde...

There was a very evil tree in today's D&D game, and I just kept thinking of "Feed the Tree" by Belly. I had to mute for a while because I kept singing it under my breath. Take your hat off, boy, when you're talkin to me. www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQJj...

You know what I did miss in this performance? Jimin's shoulder. It was covered up the entire time. Where was his arm pit? Hidden. Why???

A thousand blessings on the head of the person who knew we wanted to see a close up of Tae and Jimin holding hands. That person is right and should feel right and should have the best day any person can ever have.

My babiest sibling just said, "Wait, who is THIS?" and of course it's Key and Killer.

Took the 12 yr old out to dinner. He says: "Bro, you probably haven't heard of this website called 4chan?" 😭

Me: I'm just so sad instead of excited. My sister: OFC you are! When was the last time you were excited about new music that didn't end up disappointing you? Me: ....November 1996. Sister: & before that? Me: ....May 1990.... Sister: It's ok to be sad.

I always end up signing my name lapslock even in professional emails, like cheers, cupcake Even though I proper case the rest of the email. One of my coworkers has started keeping my name in lapslock when she addresses me in her emails. Dear cupcake Totally unnecessary but it's rly charming.

The destruction of the Tumblr reblog system is just another in a long line of things companies are changing about the Internet in order to make it more difficult for people to communicate.

Problem no. 4 with Ellipsus is that you can't go through and accept changes one by one. Once your editor makes a change in a draft, if you don't like it, you have to change the document back in the draft before you merge the rest of the changes. What a weird fucking way to do it.

I am so tired of: We care about our fans until it interferes with us making even more money so we can have six times more than we can spend in six lifetimes instead of five times more than we can spend in five lifetimes. I get so sad when I like things, because it always ends up feeling shitty.

"No mom, I watched that movie as a kid and I'm a grown-up now." -- the 5 yr old. 😂

Trying to alleviate today's incredible grouchiness with many shots of espresso and Yoongi killing a guy with chopsticks. www.youtube.com/watch?v=iy9q...

I think if Wei Wuxian could have oshinko maki with tons of wasabi, he could learn to love radishes.

Literally nothing, including specifically the new BTS album, will get me back on Spotify or inside a Target. And the fact that this is happening? Makes me way less excited for this album. Money money money money. Completely uninteresting and disappointing, but in no way surprising.

My psych looked at my gene testing from a few (many) years ago and we discovered I am an ultra rapid metabolizer of my newest medication, which is why it turns off like a switch after six hours. Like bam it's gone. Good to know but exhausting.

Dead At 21. Oh and VR.5. I also really loved Kindred The Embraced, and no one I knew at the time watched it, even Internet buds, but once I started meeting sff nerds in person, it turned out a lot of people had seen that one 😂 I also liked Profit but I wouldn't call it a favorite, just fun.

Whenever I hear a Gym Class Heroes song, I always think... damn... I haven't listened to them in so long... Travie... i know i'm young but if i had to choose her or the sun i'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

I day dream so much about fried chicken but it never ever tastes right and I have no idea why. It doesn't matter whether it's homemade, artisanal, or fast food. Why doesn't it taste the right way? Sadly I cannot describe what "the right way" even is. I just know our modern reality is not it.

Today's D&D (we're finally back after a ~12 wk break): Other char: Vi, duck! My char (Vi): Where? I don't see one! Other char: No, YOU duck! Vi: ...no? I'm not a duck? Third char: *Yanks Vi down out of the range of the attack* Vi is not even reading, he's just looking around for the duck.

The fact that my local Dunkin now has banana syrup is the best thing to happen to me all week, beating out all BTS content (incl honey thighs) as well as the corned beef sandwich I ate yesterday. Only very slightly comes in ahead of the sour pickle, though. #food

I wish there was a way to see all the FTH offerings that have no bids yet. Is there? I haven't seen one, and I can't imagine anyone is actually keeping track -- are they? I would really prefer to bid on folks who have no bids yet :|

I'm doing a lot of accounting work today, so I'm also reading about tomb murals in Korea and non confrontational strategies to negotiate queer desire in traditional families in mainland China. And I have open a 73-page diss about "LGBTQ+" activism in post-2020 China. Stretching my brain.

I want one of those really good chewy salty NYC pretzels from the 80s and 90s, not this new super pretzel bullshit.

I am supposed to be working but instead I'm taking a break to read all 33 pages of bylaws for the Korean Bar Association. I need enrichment in my enclosure.

I forgot how annoying it is to import things to squidgeworld 😭

My FTH offering is podfic of up to 20k words for various kpop, mdzs/cql, and check please. fth2026offerings.dreamwidth.org/257005.html

I have no idea how people who write time travel fix it stories manage to figure out how the future cascades from the change point because I am freaking struggling. Possibly it's bc when I think about my own life, I don't see any. Where could I make a fix-it difference? I don't think anywhere.

"cupcake, thank god you're here. I need to talk to you. I need to tell you. Can I tell you? Ok, fuck peaceful protest!" Twelve is such an interesting age.

You know, Youngblood was the first 5 Seconds of Summer song I ever heard and saw a video for, and I'm watching it now and feeling betrayed all over again that actually it's a band of (mostly?) white guys who hate women, and NOT Johnny Daigo Yamashita.

Hmmm- NOT written by a close friend and handed to me on paper... Star Trek TNG in a zine, age 12 On the Internet: Star Trek TNG on a bbs, age 13. Or it might have been Pern, I don't remember where I clicked first.

Today's staff meeting, we had to go around and say what we are looking forward to about the weekend & our favorite sports teams. Me: watching the new episode of The Pitt -- Director of the dept: HAVE YOU WATCHED HEATED RIVALRY YET Me: ......

I am in fact going to fly across the country to see this band with one of my besties at the end of April.

I just got this comment on a lotrips fic from 2004. 😂

My favorite band from when I was a teenager (and my first RPS fandom lol) is touring, and they are here the same day as Jackson Wang, but technically since I am an adult I can get on an airplane and go see them anywhere I want. I'm seriously considering it. I haven't seen them live since... 1997?

The Gen X urge to wear sunglasses at night.

Unrelated to snow, I have 10,000 - 15,000 in five different WIPs, no idea where to go with any of them. I keep ending up lost in the logistics instead of letting myself go with fantasy. It's frustrating.

I would rather work all day tomorrow than have a snow day and get a foot of snow. We only just got the car out from the plow's 4 foot snowbank from the last storm! Literally yesterday! 😭

It's nice that Glen Phillips is still barefoot when he sings. Some things DON'T change.

I keep thinking about that meme about "What sentence do you say most often at work?" and I finally realized mine: Please don't sort the fucking spreadsheet yourself. Brought to you by a spreadsheet I worked on for hours in which half the columns were re-sorted so the numbers don't match anymore.

My mom is very concerned that people will watch Namjoon's "Come back to me" video and want a crib like the one the baby has. So this is your official announcement that the crib in that video is very dangerous and you shouldn't use it for a baby. Bars too wide. I suspect @cpsc.gov would agree.

Who would have thought a good little girl like you could destroy my beautiful wickedness.

While the baby watches Thomas, and I wait for everyone else to get ready to go to the museum, I'm having Yoongi killing a guy with chopsticks hours.

My sister this morning at 430 am: "Wait, wait, can I read your new fanfic? Because I still think about your MMC fanfic, I used to sneak into your room when you were give you read each installment in your notebooks. Your Emerald Cove fanfic was so much better than the show." My OG fan 😂🥰

You know, when I did a thirty page essay on the tibetan book of the dead (the Bardo Thodol), the cost of the book was so prohibitive that I had to borrow a copy from one of the TAs at Columbia (not a school I attended!!) who borrowed it from the author himself. And I just bought a copy for $10.89.

I'm with the kids today through Monday. I just say down on the couch and the give year old looked at me and said... "Cupcake, I want to watch movies without you." 😂 (I'll sit right here and won't talk to you or look at you, bud, okay? "I guess. Fine." -- then, sternly, "No talking!"

The one time I actually want to truly type duck and autocorrect gives me fuck. No I don't want to tell my dad to use "fuck fuck go" to search

I'm trying to write the most iddy stuff I can, and I find I keep editing myself, saying to myself, "no no that's not at all realistic" like... ?? It's fanfic?? Why should it be realistic?? That's nonsense??? & yet I woke up this morning wanting to discard yesterday's 10k words for being frivolous.

I see Dreamwidth is coming back as Discord leaves. I'm still there! Just not as often. Maybe more now? Who knows. dangercupcake.dreamwidth.org

Probably more I'm never going to write again after last week, I told myself, then woke up this morning and wrote 5,000 words before breakfast. I have no idea what's happening on my life right now but I'm not complaining.