Stream was a bust 😞 I woke up late and practically ran to my PC to start; I was way too groggy to actually be entertaining. My voice was also not cooperating, so we got hit with dysphoria every time we spoke. Still gonna try for next week, maybe having a game or something will help?

I'm commiting to streaming once a week — specifically every Sunday at 12:00pm CST 💖 Feel free to join my discord to follow the event and get notifications (fair warning, it's dead AF in there as far as chatting goes), or just follow my twitch at www.twitch.tv/ArukanaVT discord.gg/pa6FqXKEY?ev...

Basically all my YouTube videos before 2023 are being claimed due to the music we used in the intros. Some of them are fair-use because the music is the intro song of the game we were playing, but a fair few of them are not. I may have to take them down and remaster them worst case.

You ever just realize that there's a reason why you always vibed so well with DID characters so much your whole life?

Tfw you have to use all of your energy to just do the bare minimum to take care of yourself and by the time you're done you're all out of energy and ready to sleep 😑 We don't even have a job, how is this happening. I mean, that's disability for you

Another endless war — brought to you by the "Anti-War President" What a joke

An unfortunate thing about basing your VTuber lore on your plurality is that new alters can wildly throw it off 😭 we're gonna have to rewrite things a bit again to be more flexible, as well as see which alters are even interested in streaming in the first place — many might not be.

Guess who was exposed to COVID 😞 Feeling sick, but it could also be placebo

*wakes up* [System status effect applied: Depressive cycle] All of us, unanimously: fuck.

Here's a WIP system portrait! It was drawn by our newest alter (obviously) who is the one on the left. There are 10 of us in here that we know about, so it's gonna be a bit crowded when it's done lol Also, fuck the backlash — we kind of gotta be public about it at this point

*sigh* Lina: SIX SEVEEEEEEN

Holy fucking shit, everyone I know really do be coming out as plural too 💖

I can't believe I'm gonna be 28 in a month... I very much do not feel any older than 22 and it actually distresses me a lot, so please do not make any "Aru is old" jokes. I know that jokes like that are sarcastic because 28 isn't that old, but it's more than just not wanting the number to go up.

Saw a big streamer say that most plural people were faking... I don't wanna get into drama, so I'm not gonna say who — especially since they seemingly changed their opinion — but damn this is making me think twice about being open about it on steam... If we do, we're gonna need constant moderation

✨🌸 VTuber vs Logo 🌸✨ I've had this logo for a minute — been thinking about touching it up because it's always felt unfinished to me, but it looks alright I think. #VSky

Here's the new alter's sketchbook after 3 weeks of fronting... That is 41 pages, with most pages having more than one drawing. I am honestly floored, I had no idea our brain had it in us lol. DID is kinda wild sometimes

Literally my THIRD time being sick in the new year... At least one alter here can still do stuff while sick.

I love sleeping 14 hours per day and then having to spend 6 hours on top of that in bed... That's like 4 usable hours per day? And then we need to split that up between 3-4 active alters. It's a miracle we get anything done.

Note to self: Girls kissing does numbers

Happy Valentine's everyone 💖 I wanted to draw something, but I've been bedridden all day. My new alter somehow pushed through and drew this for me anyway, even though our hands were literally shaking 🥺 It's my #OC Airyl kissing her girlfriend: [spoilers]! It was def rushed, but so sweet #yuri

Starting to get a bit of backlash anxiety about coming out as Plural — I tacitly came out here on bluesky, but when I wrote I community post on YouTube I had a panic attack and couldn't post it. I think I'll keep this to Bluesky and Tumblr for now...

Here's a character I made for an old PF2e game that never fully happened 😣 I really love her design, so I decided to post her art anyway — I believe this was drawn 2 years ago? #ttrpgart #smallartist

We need more popular anime where girls kiss... If I had 3 wishes... That probably wouldn't make the cut to be honest, but it's probably at least top 15

Imagine a sitcom, but the entire cast is just one plural person and all their headmates 😭 that's basically my life lol Also, kind of a great webcomic idea ngl...

On top of everything else, I think we have Bipolar‽ Gonna check with our psychiatrist, but we've always kinda had a cycle going; 1-2 weeks of extreme confidence and productivity, followed by 4-8 weeks of depression and hopelessness. All alters experience this. Really speed running the DSM5 here 😔

Not sure why I haven't posted any of these, but here's a few pages from my sketchbook over the past month 💖 Most of these characters are just doodles and not actual OCs, though that could change because I really like some of these designs! #Sketchbook #SmallArtist

Also, yes, this is a confirmation that Airyl — the protagonist of my webcomic — is gay, and her discovering that will be a big part of her story. And I will also confirm that she will have a girlfriend at some point 💖 I think I'm gonna try to do a page today, spite has reignited the flame lol

Rant time — I'm so upset that there's literally no Yuri anime I can find where they don't end up in straight ships at the end — class S, as it's called. It's so frustrating because I can't find romance I fully relate to. I'm adopting a "fuck it I'll do it myself" attitude and making my webcomic 🤷‍♀️

This album is really fucking good, please give it a listen! I daydream/draw to it sometimes~

We have so many other issues, but I'm really happy I've finally gotten to the point where my room is pretty clean around 90% of the time. I think the biggest thing that's helped is giving every surface a purpose; any pointless surface gets turned into a dump, especially if I'm in focus mode.

It's gotten to the point where not being in any pain, even for a second, is literally euphoric. I'm not even 30 yet, this is ridiculous...

Just a reassurance — I have not given up on my webcomic, and I'm actually planning on slowly returning to working on it in the coming weeks. Our new alter has been working tirelessly on her OCs, but we do need to divide the system's time a little bit better so we all get to work on our projects lol

We just unexpectedly had to spend $300+ on tires... On a totally unrelated note, I'm gonna start advertising commissions again tomorrow

I would love for GenAI to go the way of NFTs

‪🎨 Share your OC boundaries 🖌️Fanart? P-pwease 🥺 👉👈 💞Shipping? Ask first please. 🖋️Fanfiction? Fine, but follow my other boundaries ♊️Draw their OCs with yours? It's ok, as long as there's no romance or NSFW 🔞NSFW? Never. 🤖AI? Don't even think about it.

I'm sorry for the influx of mental health related posts — especially the ones lacking proper context. I was breaking my rule of not discussing it because it was a positive development, but I'm not sure if this is the place for even that. I'll probably discuss more on my alt @arualter.bsky.social

Because the new alter has been drawing, writing, or daydreamimg every free second we have, I haven't touched my computer in 4 days lol. Also, we haven't watched a single YouTube short since — a VERY welcome change as that used to eat up like 50% of our day.

She's been busy the last 2 days... She made 4 OCs, drew a reference sheet for 3 of them, and wrote about 10 paragraphs of backstory — all without the ADHD meds we usually rely on to get anything done. Drawing her OCs is how she deals with stress too, so burnout is impossible for her.

Small break from not talking about current events — seeing fellow Minnesotans protesting and pushing back so much has made me really proud of my state. It further cemented this place as the one I want to spend the rest of my life in.

We rediscovered a part of ourselves, she's a time capsule of a better time, and needs to be protected at all costs. She's also a creative powerhouse, and can churn out characters in her sleep — literally!

Might need to take a break from the webcomic, but for good reasons instead of bad. Basically, we've finally unlocked the ability to get invested in our characters, and we're sort of in a "make a million OCs" space — something that does not lend itself as well to continuous storytelling lol

Quick character design for the webcomic! I love her already :3 Still need to finish the rest of the outfit, but I love the hairstyle ^u^

My brain is so jaded and tired — it's no environment for any of us to thrive in. No wonder creative ability is so unreliable.

For the record: fuck ICE. Sorry I haven't been very vocal on this, I live in Minnesota and it's been very harrowing watching all this unfold. I'm having to disengage from the news to survive, but I just wanted to say that at least.

Trying to find a good Yuri manga to read (for research purposes, like actually — my webcomic has romance in it) and I keep running into a problem; they keep getting too spicy for me 😣 Trying to find one that is PURELY romance, but have not yet been successful.

Several posts I've almost made in the past week — I'm getting better at telling lol 😭

Just wet a paper towel and threw it outside — it was frozen solid when I picked it up HAHAHAAAAAAAAA

I've noticed my posts have been getting more likes from non-followers lately‽ Nothing wrong with that, I'm just a little confused — is the algorithm pushing my account for some reason‽ If so, boom, have a highly unfinished page of my webcomic

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I am proud to be a self-taught artist & composer, but I do wish I could get lessons sometimes ngl. I will never not be broke though, so it's not happening. The only thing I think I truly cannot learn without lessons is singing — that one has some... truly horrifying challenges to overcome.