We need to read more Yuri ,=n=,

Joe Biden is funny as a concept

Honestly, I'm just anxious that people are just going to collectively forget how horrible he's made their lives.

Sometimes I get nostalgic for the 2020 era, but I think that's mostly because of how much worse the world has gotten since — mostly thanks to the current "president". Also, I had just figured out that I was trans, was not as disabled, and hadn't experienced as much trauma. Also stress was way lower

When I was high one time, I mistook Arnold Palmer for Joe Biden on a Half & Half Arizona tea can, so now we all call it Joe Biden Tea. Sometimes, I forget that's not what it's actually called and turn a few heads in Kwik Trip 😭

It's been almost 24 hours and I'm STILL high 😑 Its fun to get high, but only for a few hours. I'm pretty bored now and lonely, but I can't carry a conversation and my tummy is upset

Happy 4/20 💖 I forgot that i had a negative weed tolerance, time to go write another musical of nonsense agaaaaain

Had a lot of fun today, I should really talk to people more 😭

Six SEVEEEEN

Working on my webcomic again!

Our budget is gonna be tightening again soon-ish, so I'm gonna be reopening commissions again. I'll draft up a new commission sheet, but my rates are already available at www.arukanavt.com/commissions, for both art and music 💖 music is heavily discounted because I'm still a beginner.

Sooo, apparently Gemini can make music now.

Not me, realizing that my current magnum opus is a Pepsiman Rock Opera 😭

We're live with the Pepsiman Birthday stream, only 11 days late 😭 We're gonna be showing off something big at the start, I'm so excited 💖 watch at www.twitch.tv/ArukanaVT

Just finished mixing the Pepsiman cover that I've been working on for about a month now 💖 I got to work with @calistobezhig.bsky.social and @luisvasquezmusic.com as vocalists and it was so much fun! I'll be showing it off (and trying to speedrun Pepsiman) tomorrow (the 11th) on twitch at 2:00pm CST

I had a weird dream where everything was terrible, but also I randomly had the ability to sing in a perfect fem voice. It was unexpected too — I was just singing for fun and was shocked when it sounded good. I chalked it up to room acoustics and sang for a long time. Wish I could remember the songs

This shit is so fucking scary

I am much tinier that people think 😭

Pepsiman has been delayed until next week :c.my tummy is upset

I'm so anxious for the Pepsiman stream tomorrow and I don't even know why 😭

W...women pretty 👉👈 That is all

I'm really sorry for being so melodramatic yesterday, doing quite a bit better now. We're gonna do the Pepsiman stream on Saturday the 4th at 2:00pm CST, so hopefully that goes well 💖

I'm feeling a lot better after pain meds and food 💖 also, this would be the second birthday in a row where it snowed 😭 Minnesota moment

Sorry if I don't respond to birthday messages for a bit, it's been a rough one

I got sick for my birthday, yaaaay 🎉 because of that, we're pushing back the Pepsiman Birthday Stream until Saturday the 4th at 2:00pm CST because my brain is gooooooone 😭

1 min before my birthday* Nyeh I don't wanna be 28

Tomorrow is my birthday. I hate birthdays, they serve as a reminder of just how much worse everything has gotten every year. I mean, the same can be said for any annual event, but birthdays also make the bad number go up 😑 Still gonna try to enjoy it I guess, but all I feel rn is dread

This ended in a TPK btw 😣

hmmm, nah this isn't overdoing it right?

*Tries to write a simple Pepsiman cover* *Accidentally writes a 3 part multi-genre song that is definitely not about Pepsi* [Task failed successfully]

When will I learn to not depression-post on here and that people actually read my posts. At least we're catching ourselves and deleting them right after posting.

The latest TADC was wild 😨

Pepsiman song progress: I have 3 distinct parts, now I gotta figure out how to connect them After I get the vocal recordings (and maybe some background singing from me), then I have to learn how the fuck to mix a song like this Tbh it may not be done until next year, but there'll be a demo

Writing this Pepsiman cover is making me really want to write actual serious vocal music. Might release a single or two randomly

I'm in a very dark place right now, and I'm writing a vocal cover of Pepsiman... I wonder how this is gonna turn out? So far, we've gotten a pretty sick guitar solo out of it

New alter animated her #OC Akane with PENCIL AND PAPER 😭 💜: LOOK AT HER I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! I know I should use digital for animation but I like pencil and paper so much better >n< Also I wanted to prove the rest of the system wrong when they said it would be hard >:3 I'll do anything for Akane!

I both really want to do the annual Pepsiman birthday stream, but I also get so fucking depressed on my birthday and it made me feel even worse the past 2 times; not sure why. Ultimately, I'll probably still do it, maybe it will be different this time?

Ran an in-person PF2e session yesterday, it was a ton of fun — if a tad overwhelming. Gonna finish it up next week ideally. Also, sorry but no stream today

The ONE time I get to use my dice in person, they're all gone 🥺

Stream was a bust 😞 I woke up late and practically ran to my PC to start; I was way too groggy to actually be entertaining. My voice was also not cooperating, so we got hit with dysphoria every time we spoke. Still gonna try for next week, maybe having a game or something will help?

I'm commiting to streaming once a week — specifically every Sunday at 12:00pm CST 💖 Feel free to join my discord to follow the event and get notifications (fair warning, it's dead AF in there as far as chatting goes), or just follow my twitch at www.twitch.tv/ArukanaVT discord.gg/pa6FqXKEY?ev...

Basically all my YouTube videos before 2023 are being claimed due to the music we used in the intros. Some of them are fair-use because the music is the intro song of the game we were playing, but a fair few of them are not. I may have to take them down and remaster them worst case.

You ever just realize that there's a reason why you always vibed so well with DID characters so much your whole life?

Tfw you have to use all of your energy to just do the bare minimum to take care of yourself and by the time you're done you're all out of energy and ready to sleep 😑 We don't even have a job, how is this happening. I mean, that's disability for you

Another endless war — brought to you by the "Anti-War President" What a joke

An unfortunate thing about basing your VTuber lore on your plurality is that new alters can wildly throw it off 😭 we're gonna have to rewrite things a bit again to be more flexible, as well as see which alters are even interested in streaming in the first place — many might not be.

Guess who was exposed to COVID 😞 Feeling sick, but it could also be placebo

*wakes up* [System status effect applied: Depressive cycle] All of us, unanimously: fuck.

Here's a WIP system portrait! It was drawn by our newest alter (obviously) who is the one on the left. There are 10 of us in here that we know about, so it's gonna be a bit crowded when it's done lol Also, fuck the backlash — we kind of gotta be public about it at this point

*sigh* Lina: SIX SEVEEEEEEN