my stomach has hurt all day and now i have a headache and i’m dizzy… release me

to be productive or to take a day and just rot..

it's insane that i get my shift covered instead of just calling out and these mfs still complain

i'm actually starting to hate my job

i'm actually dreading the rest of the week. like pure bone aching dread

off work.. made lots of money in just three hours.. now i will eat taco bell.

mikasa keyboard and mikasa skin.. i’m unstoppable 🙏🏼

i’ve had such a shitty last couple weeks i am so exhausted

i wanna preface this by saying that i'm sorry. i hadn't realized in the time that mika and i became friends, i only ever told her about a handful of my characters. i have over 35 ocs and recently i've been writing russian plot lines with kay, and my characters have been white. kay and i write in +

if ur gna call me a shit killer cuz u bagged me and u got killed first because ur actually bad and not nearly skilled enough to bm, that’s not my problem

back to five days next week… it was a nice break 😣

i feel so exhausted today for no reason

my new desk comes tuesday .. yaaay

i found out my dads out of jail and nobody told me.. shits crazy

woke up at 11:15-ish today. i call this success

i actually read my schedule wrong and it was only 2 days LMAOO but idc it was a good two days off.

i really need to fix my sleep for my mental health, but i’m struggling so hard. i’ve been trying for weeks, but breaking this cycle of staying up all night that i’ve always known is hard

just snuck chips at 2am my greed is insatiable

everything feels so out of place and i don’t know why

i love having bpd because right now i feel so hopeful and full of life but earlier i wanted to kill myself so bad it hurt! and tomorrow i will probably feel an abundance of dread for no reason and then sudden euphoria! everyday is like a gamble! i love being sick!

i will get better even if i have to rip my nails off as i claw myself out of this pit i’ve always known. i will find comfort in something new and healthier even if i have to rip myself apart and build anew to get there

sybau

i always get super insane and then i realize my period is about to start and it all makes sense

rules in my radically christian right winged house that would send people into psychosis (i’m people) - food/drinks locked in a closet until it’s deemed okay for us to have - we aren’t allowed to wash our own sheet, towels, blankets, etc - we have two showers but we’re only allowed to use the one+

i need to move out of this house like yesterday bro i hate it here

i love my new binder so bad

all i have to do is get through tomorrow and then i’ll have 3 consecutive days off for the first time in weeks. all i have to do is get through tomorrow. all i have to do is get through tomorrow. all i have to do is get through tomorrow. all i have to do is get through tomorrow. all i have to do is

MY NEW BINDER IS HEREEEEE

i’ve actually never been so miserable in my life

it’s crazy cuz everyone in this house will act like i don’t exist all day, yet the moment i close my eyes for a nap everyone wants to talk to me. it happens without a doubt every single time

it's one of Those days unfortunetly

what the fuck man

i like coming on alt at night and yapping to myself.

new binder comes tuesday. (:

i forgot to get on genshin today fuck my idiot life

i take my test for serving today at my job and i’m sooo nervous even tho i know i know what im doing

so exhausted lately

clean sheets 🙏🏼 made my bed 🙏🏼 ate two meals today 🙏🏼 updated my planner 🙏🏼 went outside 🙏🏼

dreaming of coming out to my family and top surgery

wow i really do feel better mentally after eating good food and going outside for a bit LOLLLL

need 2 listen to the anniversary mixes tmr.. to sleepy

i’m out .

i’ve been at work for two and a half hours doing basically nothing.

it’s so gloomy today

i’ve came so far

migraine ..

i have a headache