So I've lost like... 30 pounds since spring and as I get energy back, I'll probably be able to lose the rest of what I want within the one year mark which is crazy. Even if I'm still a little chubby, I don't care. I'm just excited to take care of myself and get healthy! 🥹

Me: I wonder if there are beds that are in a box... Google: did you mean AUTISM bed? ... There are by the way. From medieval times, they're called box beds and I want one badly. I want my bed to have a door and a lock and lights and it's like a little house in my house. Okay yeah, autism bed.

It's 4 am and I made this and it's delicious. I used the less sugar cookie mix and also added some pumpkin pie seasoning. Maybe my oven is funky but it took more like 40 minutes to cook. Anyway, a delicious fall sweet treat that's not too bad for you and tastes great! 🤌🏻🤌🏻

Underrated/not talked enough about horror movie recs for spooky season: Clown Grave Encounters Session 9 Creep & Creep 2 The Descent Susperia (original) It Follows The Ritual Hush Pulse Hit me with your own recs! I'm crazy picky about horror 😭 my apologies in advance!

Weeks of insomnia. Tired all day. 2 xanax. 1 clonopin. 🧍‍♀️ why the fuck am I still alert af

What if I told you I have a three person collab cover coming out soon 👀

I had so much fun tonight 😭 Ty for all the warm welcomes back! 🥹🫂💙

Back from my month hiatus tonight! I was gonna play a game but I am big eepy so instead we are gonna color a commission and yap! Come catch up! 5pm PST ^^ 💙🫂

I ordered a shirt off Poshmark and the seller cutely sent me a keychain with a quote attached. I received it yesterday, shortly after my grandma passed away. The keychain was a butterfly with a skull. The #1 thing I associate with my grandma is butterflies. Kinda bizarre.

I checked my notes app and found this... Is exhausted me a genius? I'm doing this. If uncrustables puts something like this out, let it be known that I invented it.

Oliver passed in June, Ella in July... I am finally taking apart their cat perches and stuff 🥺this is hard. I'm trying to focus on what cool stuff I can use the space for but. I just wish it could be for my cats still. Some day.

Me: ah, it's 2:30 am, I'm so tired, can't wait to sleep Hormones: hey so about that Me: NO. ITS LATE. THAT MAKES US WAKE UP. Hormones: 😭 please! Me: ... >( *Scrolls thru porn angrily for over an hour* THIS SHIT IS A CHORE. Just like cooking or cleaning or whatever. I JUST WANNA SLEEP GO AWAY

Putting integrity above all else might not make me well liked. Being palatable broadens the net you cast for viewership and friends. I just never could do it - water myself down or let something important slide because it's "not that deep." 🤷🏻‍♀️ I like that about myself.

Figuring out health crap is so frustrating because everything depends on everything. I can start taking Ritalin but I need to hold off while we try to figure out what chronic bullshit is causing all the fatigue and pain 🤡 I see my GP next week but I wager there won't be answers.

I feel like James Gunn's Superman is the first time I've seen the character captured correctly. It is never about his strength or speed, it's about his empathy. THAT is the appeal of Superman. He does what he does not out of revenge or anger but because he values ALL life and does what's right.

Uhhh, finally listened to Rebecca Black's album 'Salvation' and every song is an absolute BANGER. plzzzz i need her and Charli to make stuff together 😭 Also, Ashnikko's new song 'Trinkets' is SO SOPHIE CODED I LOVE IT 🥹

I feel like if my 2.0 doesn't net me more views I'ma crash out and call it xD having less than 1k followers after 2 years makes me feel like a total failure. And I know that's such bullshit. I know that's not how to gauge success or FUN. But there's always gonna be that little voice in my head 💀

No horror movie has made me cry like 'Sinners'. Incredible.

I am a blue raspberry STAN but.. the grimace shake was better than the "Mt. Mcdonald" one. I think coz it was just straight up berry and when I have blue raspberry, I imagine it as candy, not... milk XD

I got over half way into Weapons before I started to enjoy it. Not what I expected at all and the pay off was pretty worth it. Perfect? Absolutely not XD fun and weird? Sure!

keeping up with even the bare minimum of news is causing sanity damage

All I wanna do is get stuff done but I'm exhausted 😭 so aggravating!

Does anyone know good accounts to follow for indie VA opportunities?

Played PEAK for SEVEN HOURS today with friends 😭 that was so fun. I haven't lost track of time gaming like that in so long! And I get to play it again tomorrow with other friends! XD let's go!!!

The one summer I sign up to do outdoor water stuff and it's barely getting over 70 during the day in AUGUST 💀 never thought I'd be mad at a cold summer...

I am taking a whole month off ... ON PURPOSE THIS TIME 🤣 I want time to grieve my kitties, do summer activities and just take care of myself better ^^ This will be a time to create, nurture my friendships and meditate. All of my streaming breaks have been from burn out xD time to actually recoup!

I hate when people are like "oh I bet you would LOVE this band" and then they recommend something terrible. HOW DARE YOU.

People who let their pets die naturally at home pmo. If you can't afford euthanasia, that's one thing. That sucks. But if you can? ... Wtf are you doing?

Don't let the news fool you with their wording and straight up lies. The woman targeted was a CEO. You're telling me he took the wrong elevator, shot random people and one of them just happened to be the CEO at a massive real estate firm? The rich are scared. :)

I'm really tired of hearing people call Trump and maga fascists🙄 Start calling them Nazis.

This is one of my favorite songs by my favorite band. Their lyrics are always impressive but something about this one hits me square in the chest. With the state of the world as it is, this song feels like a fitting share: youtu.be/SoNHw9BiBTM?...

I had to end stream early coz I feel icky but dangit, I MISSED YALL SO MUCH THAT WAS SO FUN TO JUST GAB AND HANG OUT 🥹 Im KO this nausea and be back full force on wednesday for date everything, damnit!!! I WANNA ROMANCE MY APPLIANCES

All said and done, I'm so stoked to get back to streaming this week!! 🥰 I've been gone for too long! I still have emotions to process and energy to regain, but I think being with my community will help a lot 🥹 and hopefully soon I can start reading my 2.0 a bit more hehehe!

Man, grief really does creep up on you

One of the best gifts I got this year was from the amazing @ReiSirena 🥺 she surprised me using vocals that I sent her a while back as well as recording the harmonies - she mixed, did the art, AND the video! I hope you all enjoy our first duet 🥹 youtu.be/I8kmijtc8_o?...

I had such an amazing birthday! Thank you to everyone for the sweet gifts, kind words, well wishes and coming to hang out on stream! 🥹 I am so lucky to know such lovely people! Thank you for making my day so special! (art by @reisirena.bsky.social @meron-pann.bsky.social & @haokamie.bsky.social)

Is birthday. Friends have already sent me amazing, hand crafted gifts and I've cried MULTIPLE TIMES 😭🫂💙 MY HEART IS SO FULL. I know the dearest people 🥹😭 I'm so lucky!!!

Boomers will do anything but undo their racist programming about Israel and the surrounding countries. 💀 Yes dad, Israel is just baby and everyone else hates Jews, they've never done anything wrong and their genociding of Palestine is TOTALLLYYY the same as what has been done to them...

I love Etsy.

July 22nd, 2025 This Sunday, I'm gonna do a walk you through making a simple lil Vtuber model on stream - you can join me for FREE!! ✨ All you need is an art program (Krita is free!) and Live2D (free trial, or free version!)

My birthday is Friday. I want Trisha Paytas and Schlatt to complete the casting ritual for my present. 🙏🏻 Amen

Ah, the depression finally caught up. I miss my cats. A lot.

If you still support Trump, knowing everything you know - you're a Nazi.

lububu's are fucking ugly and i'm sick of acting like they're not. im a full on hater

Awww, Oliver and Ella haven't cuddled since he was a baby!

I found Pink the perfect home today 🥹 I am so freaking happy!!! Taking care of her helped me a lot. 🥺Maybe some day if I have the funds/energy, I can foster more kitties! It is so rewarding!!

Hiii I have some YCHs now available on my #VGen! I have limited spots for the remainder of July and am excited to get them filled ☺️💕 All $35 and under! Check them out on my VGen here: vgen.co/FeralSutera #VGenComms #YCH #artist #VTuber #chibi #CommissionsOpen #LimitedSlots #VTArt #Art #cozy

*wakes up with sharp stomach pain that is painful to push on* Me: oh god I'm dying, this is it, my appendix burst or something. I'll try pooping! Maybe it's just gas! *Sits on toilet and immediately starts OCD googling symptoms* ... It was gas. And poop. I just took 2 Xanax. 💀

I decided that I can't keep Pink. I thought I was ready 😓 HOWEVER, that just means she is my foster baby! I'm getting her first vet visit done to give her a clean bill of health/get her used to people! She is healing my heart a bit 🥺 I can't wait to find her her forever home - she deserves the best!

July 14th, 2025 Late night traditional doodle WHY CAN'T I DRAW IN THIS STYLE DIGITALLY RAAAAAH