I'm desperately looking for you... 🥀🫀❄️ @meltymidwinter.bsky.social

happy mafu day~ i had lots of fun and got lots of fun things :) 🫀👁️🐦‍⬛🌒💜❄️🎀

if anyone wants to draw me anything for bday btw... 🥺 first ref is most recent but not finished so i included all her refs lol. the eyenomaly (last pic) is not optional!

me and the bestie... ;)

for my 27th rotation on this spinning death rock, im starting a project ive wanted to create for a very long time. this dream will be realized soon... this lil wip teaser is all you get for now... so if youd like to join me in this new chapter, check out my first cover below. 💜

birtday 🎈

"I am aware of the concept of homestuck" -someone in my gf's archery team

Ideal conditions for starting your passion project will never come. You will never feel skilled enough to make it. There will never be a moment where you stop being scared to start. Do it anyway. Do it badly. Do it scared. Just make that thing that’s clawing at the door of your soul; It wants out.

❄️ inside of the snow, melting, disappearing... 🌑 inside the warm pocket i was placed into, the painful trembling is lulling me to sleep. ꒦꒷🧿꒷꒦ the frost is sure to come, yet You cheerfully accepted Winter in the nude... 🌒 so we'll embrace forever at the bottom of the universe~ ❄️

mizu5 eyenomaly claws... 👁️🎀❄️🌸

its all over..... t1298 👁️🫀🥀🎀

my chest is completely filled with “abnormality...” im becoming a me that isnt normal. from the ruins of a warped love, it was created... 🦋🌘👁️🩸 the "im sorry" that echoes from my monstrous, deceiving heart... from my chrysalis, ill become a butterfly.... i cant go back to being a bud anymore.

such a confidence booster to be asked for help by multiple other students in my chem class and actually know pretty well what im talking about. i just like math... i guess i really am Mafuyu irl 👁️

coming to the conclusion that i might be tgirl bait? 😳 the number of them who have complimented my outfits/fuwas/makeup/etc while on campus is kind of ridiculous actually lol i am not immune to being clocked

im trying to treat myself for my birthday so thats why these slots are date limited btw :) help this bunnykittypuppy celebrate by thowing it some bonez pwease~ examples dont show it but i can do any different species. been wanting to draw more farm animals lately 💜

looking to take 2-3 $50 c𖦹mms, 1 character only. includes a bg and shading if youd like. if youre interested, dm a ref and a prompt OR a description of your oc. fcfs, slots will be unavailable past oct 19th. i dont usually price so low so take the opportunity while its here!

gf just told me im so cute that it makes her want to rape and murder me... 😵‍💫🥵😍🤤

❄️ i wish to turn the images ive found of your world, unknown to me, and the ever-blooming shattered fragments, into song... this sweet 💘&💖 sour melody... looking at each other, the sound's bounding vibrantly... if you hear it, will you be shocked? here... let me dance with you~ 🌀

hm. i wanna do mukbangs, but the goal of the streams are to make me gain weight with regular gain check ins... ideally a pretty girl is ordering me to eat more and more, past fullness.... and if i cant do it, she force feeds me herself 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

can i have the Nitrus today

I GOT HER I GOT HER I GOT HER ON MY THIRD PULL AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!!! 🔔🔔🔔🔔

🩸 dont look... its not like youd understand, right? this warmth, my punishment for having been born... its so painful. 🥀👁️🌸 its as if this flower of transformation has finally gone and bloomed... your well intentioned love fills me with a cold pain... ahhh, ive had enough! 🎀

yknow for a day thats supposed to have been super important and celebratory its kind of fucking sucked lol #justmafuthings

💉 o starved Dancer, inhaled and played with to excess… flowers have rotted away, even after being given Love. 💜 still tinged with blue eyes, an unknown shade of color... 🐦‍⬛ the Real Me, stuck in throat, is Empurpling. maybe... blooming, growing up... it might not be so bad. 🌸

HAPPY 1 YEAR E-VERSARY TO ME!!!! 💜🩷💜🩷

"dates have been adjusted." i told you. i fucking told you bitches. i may not have been right about the time, but they fucking changed the date. THE BELLS ARE TOLLING. #notdelusional 🔔🔔🔔🔔

tgirls and butches/mascs with deep resonant voices fr give me life and a reason to live. i LOVE low register voices and i love hearing them and fawning over them and im NEVER going to apologize for it :)

a ladybug blessed me by hitching a ride in my hair and accompanying me to my ethics class today because it could tell i am beautiful and pure of heart and deserve no bad things happening to me forever 🐞💜

🔔 the bells of parting toll... ⛈️ almost like an electric SHOCK, the fear mixes with the blood in your veins... 🩸 after we hold hands and love one another, i'll KILL the dreams i could never fulfill. ☄️ it CAN'T be real... this can't be REAL... this is UNBEARABLE... ❤️‍🔥

not to like. pompously stroke my own ego or anything... but im kinda killing it at archery today >:)

🌕 i want to live, but im told to die... i want to die, but im told to live. a love story that always fails, a thousand times & more! 🩸 i wish i could erase only memories i hate. 🧿 a slave to pleasure, the ghost of a highbrow smartass... even in another world, reality was just as lame. 🍎

whats the point in treating people the way you wish to be, or hesitantly giving hard news yourself instead of making it someone else's responsibility, when others will consistently disappoint you by not doing the same in return? do i not deserve to grieve properly, too?

PERFECT BLUE TONIGHT PERFECT BLUE TONIIIIIIIIIIGHT~ 👁️🔪🥀💙

💗 twitching, my dissected heart spasms... with the rising moon, my heart is complete. im your Angel...~ 🧿 hidden beneath the ice is the sin of swallowing up the sun... 🫀 ill surrender my body, which turns indigo. 🌀 the thump-thumping speeds up... youll always be my Idol...~ 💘

im so glad to have a partner who actually enthusiastically loves pampering me instead of just the concept of doing so ;///; and who doesnt get mad at me when i just need to sleep all day lol. i love my Mommy~ 💜💚💜💚

asked my friend if i could tism out at lunch today. they told me that i could, but if i did it too much theyd just beat me up. tell me why i, without thinking, near immediately responded "okay.... as if id have a problem with that :/" and they were like "yeah, i know :)" 😭

🌀🧠 stuck with a wildly fluctuating manic-depressive condition... 🌒 i'll keep playing the fool who answers with wild fantasies. ❤️‍🩹 your stupid face suddenly popped into my head... 🧿 i'm stuck in a feverish daze, thinking, "i'm not ready to die just yet..." 🥀🌡️

calling it now. girl who is not crazy.

to everyone who got to play co-op with Sato-san on stream.... i hope you get hit by a truck 😇 it shouldve been ME 💔💔💔💔

🌧️....entangled, addicted, so deeply that my brain will shrink...🪻...what kind of mask do you wear now, Rebecca in the vase..?...🌸...soaking wet, empurpled, wishing for your touch...🥀...come on and properly take my Spring away....🌧️

Cheer up, big guy!

i have lived my entire life being in the wrong... now, with the collar taken off my neck, just where am i supposed to go? in my desire to become loved, i threw myself away onto a stage without an audience... and now, it has finally dawned upon me that i no longer belong here... 🧿

well, this is embarrassing. (17 pages) CW: suicide, self harm, csa

i cant bear being only your sister....~🩷🐇🪽❤️

in the summer, i said that i dont want to live anymore... but i didnt mean it as "i want to die," until now... already imagining the final scene, from the bottom of my heart... "i need you." i am dyed with so many colors... i feel like i can go somewhere far away... it hurts...🪽

earned my first star pin for archery today!!!! not the most impressive, but still very special to me... 🏹🌟🎯💜

"i dont think i can stay here anymore, so im going somewhere far away to die..." and then we ran away from this small world. just you and me, together... abandoning our families, our classmates, anything and everything. lets die together in a far away place where there’s no one...

❄️ will you try to open my left paw and have a look? 🐰 its still embedded with blue Eyes, and a crimson Sky... 🌒 are you shocked? ☀️ the bloody Sky is so fervent, yet youll never know... 🌑 so bury me in memory, wrapped tight around your throat. 🦊 holding paws, i feel so Warm... 🎀

Proshipper lesboys

it would be such a power move to drop down and just piss in the grass on campus but i havent yet found an area here that is not busy enough for me to reasonably get away with it lol