yknow this "passive suicidality" is starting to feel a lot less passive

i think on some level i will never be a real person. i simply cant fully exist in the world because it means ill have to admit to myself that im forever stuck like this. i will always be this tall. this wide. this... big

i think genetics are one of the universe's cruelest inventions

honestly its not even that i dont think im *pretty* per se. even i can recognize that i dont look that bad, and i can even see what ppl mean when they call me pretty on occasion. its just that i really would rather not look like this at all.

i just want 2 feel pretty

explaining why i use "transsexual" and not transgender to my sister and she's already got it in quite literally 3 seconds lol sorry, other cis people, but u have no excuse or cover to be like "this trans stuff is all so confusing ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"

"girls love"? i sure hope they do

i swear i think about this at least once a month youtu.be/bmFGbBmlyKQ?...

legendary hard drive salvage. so excited to replay xc3 later this year

morning nia (she uses mythra's old shirts for pajamas) #XenobladeChronicles2 #ゼノブレイド2

i just need a new body. let me start from scratch

made a video version based on this

daydreaming about getting multiple rib remodeling surgeries (will never happen)

sorry for all the vent posts lately yall. its been rough lately

i want a cis girl best friend but theyre intimidating and i probably have bad vibes

i bet nia xenoblade randomly headbutts her wives like a cat when she walks past

im tired of this body

i really hope that the 8-10 year hrt breast development is real because i dunno if i can handle this for the rest of my life

at my parents house for my bday party and i see a skinny woman on the tv and start dissociating so hard i go catatonic

i wish i were curvier

Curious pond visits the surface

i need to reply to artists with compliments more

swishes my big fluffy fucking tail

the only thing that sucks about soup is that i cant eat more of it

i want to be more curious

who up failing to recognize themself in the mirror

thinkin abt drifting soul

is it bad that im literally more excited for xc2 switch 2 edition than i am for xenoblade genesis 😭

just listenined to coelacanth on this old pair of IEMs that had been sitting in my dresser for a couple years and what the fuck i got chills???

i hope i can start to like myself someday

trying to voice train and it goes so badly that you go nonverbal

i have got to get pregnant

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holy fuck m y evening is so sorted

another corrin hug

oh yeah its my birthday

i just wanna wear off-the-shoulder tops without looking weird. is that really too much to ask

!!!

ive learned all of the helplessness. im very educated in helplessness.

depression!

inspecting every inch of my beautiful wife's body and soul, call that studying a broad

^ didnt sleep at all last night despite really trying and is barely holding it together

cars should be entirely superseded by various forms of multimodal mass transit and the concept of the car transforms into a kind of toy technology used only in sports races in order to settle city vs city political disputes and lesbian divorce situations

ぴょこぴょこニア ゼノブレイド2 より #xenobladechronicles2 #xenoblade #xenobladenia #nia

found this while looking for an old message

[xenoblade] melnia first facetime

i wanna be like a silly futch girl. is that a worthy goal