Im not ana enough i need to stop binging

Can my depression just kill me already

Pants that are meant to fit bigger that feel even slightly tight give me such raging body dysmorphia i just trashed like 3 pairs of sweats

Havent had therapy in a fucking month and ive been struggling so much worse since my cat died. Everythings in disarry, im completely unmotivated and going back into so many old bad habits and not addressing them. I don't even know what to do with my life now or in the near future

MY FINSTA WAS DELETED BY INSTAGRAM NO

Regretting eating ramen. Still under maintenance today tho

Lmfao i cant even do my job properly im gonna quit fuck this

Oh no i just realized i gotta make a new pinned soon (birthday in 2 days!!)

Folklore and evermore deserve every bit of praise they get. Been crying through the night with them on

Not saying it to my main ill say it here cause theres 0 connections on this acc but my god my one friend with her own discord server needs a fucking job so bad why are you @'ing everyone multiple times a day to re-tweet and defend your stupid twitter discourse. Get a job loser

Lost weight over my cat dying thats prob the only positive in my life (god help me)

Lifes been torture without my cat. My dad was sweet enough to come up and visit me to make sure I had company and have everything I need, but now im all alone again and its unbearable. I dont want to live in this apartment anymore and I hate my job i want to quit it next year for sure

My fucking cat died. I cant do this anymore

My bfs mom is disrespectful and abusive towards my bf but fuck forbid i say that to most people and they either try to justify it to the point of saying he deserves it or just flat out deny it's possible. Fucking sobbing over it how fucking dare all of these people

Bfs scent is still on his blanket and pillow i wrap myself in that shit

The fact it got cold so soon means im mostly fucked when it comes to walking kms

Ughhhh i want my bf here💔 halloween cant come soon enough

Yeah idk how to tell anyone irl about my ED lol

In her tomb by the sounding sea by alesana on loop past two days

Bf and I starting couples counselling tomorrow. Might finally open up about my ED cause that has affected our relationship possibly more than i think it has😞

As if this day couldnt get worse i hit a skunk on my way home

At the point where i think i should just cry on tiktok so that way i can have attention cause clearly nobody wants me around and lets me know how much of a nuisance i am

Geez im having a bit of body dysmorphia lately but snapchat memories immediately smacked me in the face with 2 years ago at my heaviest and just. Jesus christ how did i ever genuinely let myself get that fat

I just want to be with my parents more often. Why did i ever move out

Ate a big thai meal and had movie theater popcorn im allowed those cals today it was for taylor swifts new album

Just gotta hold out til friday i need to go to the taylor swift theater release🫠

Called my grandparents cause it was their 64th anniversary and my grandma randomly mentioned how "good and skinny" i looked when i visited last month. I really fuckin pray this weight gain is just muscle but i still want it GONE

Just had the most dogshit burnt waffles i really broke my fast for that...

Still way under maintenance cals but im over restriction cals.......

Gonna kms if i binge again tonight. I cant keep fucking doing this im so fat already

I HAVE GAINED ALMOST 20 FUCKING POUNDS THIS YEAR. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

Oh god. Between work and in the process of moving i am NOT locked in

Idk how i gained weight but my waist got smaller by half an inch wtf

Bf is back for a bit but i still want my mom💔 Too scared to dampen my parents current trip by calling them crying

So glad im following the right people on this acc omg

Me: gains weight Also me: gets a fucking large pizza

I FUCKING GAINED WEIGHT KMS

I fear im not showering tonight im about to cry all my makeup off anyway

Day 2 crying after my trip. Having soup isnt ideal this late but the campbells character soups were such a staple growing up and idk i just want my parents here. Theyre not dead im just physically missing them so much and its weird i havent felt this way since i was little like....

Sobbing my eyes out all alone here. I wish someone was available to call but bf seems busy and im scared of calling my parents thinking ill be stupid for crying

Idk why im so deeply emotional about leaving tomorrow morning. Im fighting back tears about to miss my family but I also want to get back to both my babies (bf and kitty) and not feel so suppressed

Ariana Grande looks immaculate in Fendi, styled by Law Roach.

YESSSSSSSSSS💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Havent been able to track most of my food here so im praying I haven't gained any weight please just maintain

Only reason I want to go home tomorrow is to be with my cat again and be in cooler weather where its easier to take walks. Otherwise i kind of want to cry lol

Surviving off just an alani so far today babeeeeeyyy

My super body shaming grandpa complimented how skinny and good i looked despite having a super bad body day. Idk how to feel but that at least boosted my ego a bit