I've hit that point in Silksong where I know there's not much left and I don't want it to end but also in doing all these side things, I've fully lost momentum on the main plot too.

Sometimes I'll finish a ttrpg session and some part of me wants to ask, "Was I good today? Was I fun to play with?" Thankfully it is a very small part and I don't do it or actually need the reassurance, but the little voice is there.

I've reached Act 3 in Silksong and gotten pretty far into it to the point that I don't think I have any map left to uncover (though there's a bit in the Sands of Sarak that I've not reached yet) and now I'm like... should I. Do other things. So it lasts longer.

There's a part of me that briefly considers numbering the buttons/buttonholes of my flannel shirts almost every time I wear one, because I always button them up wrong. Thankfully I usually only do up one or two buttons and check the length and fix it.

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Checking out next year's Kokonote planners and wondering who thought it was a good idea to put the very weekly spread design I go out of my way to avoid into one of these. Like the cute cover doesn't make up for that? (It's not even that cute. None of these are.)

I woke up at 11 am today, went back to sleep at 1 pm without getting up, and finally went to shower at 4:30 pm, which is... not ideal. But at least I got up as soon as I woke up the second time, and also it was the second time, I didn't just oversleep completely. So tired.

The First Sinner is such a good miniboss. I do keep dying over and over, but it's so much fun! And it's so easy to reach that I could just leave and come back whenever! What a blast.

I fucking love the music in the Cogwork Core in Silksong and wish it would play in more places. It cheers me up so much.

I finally found bats in a store! They're like, somewhat flexible plastic accessories, and it literally says that, accessory, like I'm supposed to know what the fuck to do with it? They have a hole in the belly? What do people do with these things? (Can you tell I don't really do Halloween.)

This is one of my favorite stories I've ever read, and I'm pretty neutral on kidfic. I feel compelled to recommend it even though that's not even something I normally do? archiveofourown.org/works/70990041 It's Buck/Eddie, and Buck comes into custody of a twelve-year-old. It's so beautifully done.

I've been trying to break in the sneakers I got for my birthday last year for in-between weather like this, so I don't have to go straight to combat boots and fluffy house shoes. It was going so-so, but last night I stuffed a whole clean lint roller in one of them and I think it's genuinely helped?

I haven't even booted up my PS4 and I'm already thinking about plans B through F if I get really frustrated in Sinner's Road. (Plan B: do it without a working bench. Plan C: go farm rosaries. Plan G at best: go back to the Last Judge.) Woke up at 12:20 pm after nightmares. Should have had a blanket.

Doing the On The Record quiz (I know the WaPo sucks, shut up) is a mindfuck sometimes. Coming at this Texas A&M story from a quiz with a random quote is a mindfuck. This is... a conservative win, right? Not that he resigned after backlash against him firing the professor who taught gender stuff?

I only started using rest mode on my PS4 earlier this year because I didn't know that was a thing, and yesterday it gave me a huge scare trying to get out of it, so I guess I'm never using it again. Thanks for the like five months I got out of it, I guess.

Had my game, kicked ass (not even in combat! also Chyrium has slept with as many people as there have been sessions in this mini campaign), folded and put away my laundry, fixed up my nails, and vacuumed my bedroom.

Well, looks like I'm gonna have to start Silksong over from the beginning because my ps4 is not booting up and asked me for a reinstall file on a USB. Which. Hopefully works somehow. I'm waiting for it to go into Safe Mode again. This sucks. I just hope it works after.

Do I know anyone in the SC area who knows someone (or *is* someone) who wants to adopt two cats? I desperately need to find a home for my parents' two cats. I already have three, so I can't take them. They are boarding at their vet while I look, and I have to go home to PA in less than a week.

Age verification: I had dial-up Internet as a teenager.

I think my sister was in a mood before the conversation she had with my mom that I understand could have put her in a bad mood, but regardless of reason, I didn't do anything to be on the receiving end of her abuse and yet here we are.

For a tiny bug (and a comparatively small file), Silksong is taking ages to download.

This game would be more fun if the players were less wishy-washy. I'm glad it's only a short campaign, I love the DM but I don't think I want to play with these guys again.

I hope the spoilering works, just in case, but I really like this picture I took earlier during last heist's recap in my (voice-only) game. Something about the light? And the jumpsuit, which I do love and should wear more often.

Wow, I actually put the fabric away. I didn't sort part of it and I still need to look at that other thing in my desk drawer but I did move some stuff around. Now I need to remember the new place I put my UK converters. Not that I even knew they were where they were in the first place lol

I liked the first episode of Crowd Control up until the 'torture the comic' part, which tortured me. Why... why. Bob's set was fine but Leah's was painful and Brennan could have used normal grammar there, come on. I liked the percentage thing Game Changer did so much more.

I have moved all the fabric piles to my desk so I can lie down. Good: they're not back in my closet. Bad: I have yet to sort any of it.

I changed my sheets, conditioned my hair, shaved. Lay out all my fabric piles on my bed. I'm gonna get this fucking fabric sorted if it's the last thing I do, it's so precarious where I had it in my closet.

It's been a week and a half now of my executive function being lost at sea and I am getting really frustrated. I'm half hoping someone getting me Silksong and getting to play that will reset something in my brain but in the meantime here I am, lying down with my phone because I can't do anything.

@annemari.bsky.social happy birthday, lovely!!!! I hope it's a good one. <333333

I went back to finish Spider-Man: Miles Morales because I'm a serial monogamist as a gamer and I want to play Silksong, and was immediately reminded that I actually have feelings about this character, and so many feelings about the friendly neighborhood Spider-Man and the NYC of it all. :'D

Okay, this took me a WHILE to find because I didn't know what to call it but: this thing is marketed as a pen/brush holder I guess, I got it from the disaster that is my local TEDi store. I was hoping finding it online would tell me what it was actually for given the pens *fall through the holes*

Started a mini campaign today with a DM from the Critical Role server I'm in and it was a blast, I'm so interested in this story and exploring the world. I even got up early enough to make it to a noon game, which is a first!

I have many feelings about the Friday Night Lights opening credit, not because it's innovative or anything but just because I was very impressionable when I saw it. More recently, Death Stranding basically sucked me in via opening credits.

I just found myself looking at the elevated shelf on my desk thinking, I have too much stuff here, and then I had a flash of my sister's desk and was like, no, okay, it's still too much for ME, even if it's not... that.

I am so sad today.

Something — probably my mom's alcoholism — seems to have kickstarted the Return of the Social Anxiety and I do not fucking appreciate it. It's not like it fully went away but it was so manageable until like four days ago. Shoo.

Hey, I slept long enough to have nightmares today! Yay! Yay?

Slept better last night. Well, actually slept until morning before having a coughing fit, which is an improvement all on its own. The weather is really nice and I went for a walk and my throat didn't complain, so hopefully it will just keep getting better. It's been like, three weeks of nonsense.

Maybe this explains literally everything. The fuck?

Really hope my meds kick in quick, because I have a session 0 for a mini campaign with people I've never played with before in two hours and I will not be flaking (my reliability is new and circumstantial and I don't want to give the impression that I'm 2022 me) but I'd like to enjoy it.

Despite taking cough drops last night my coughing was even worse overnight to the point of dry heaving. My head is killing me. My hands are so dry. Is this what happens when my sister isn't around to scare my mom into closing her door to keep the cig smoke in or am I reaching

So my mom is very much drinking this weekend but so far she's keeping it contained. The problem is it's still taking a toll on me emotionally and mentally. Apart from the fact that I barely slept, I ran the washer this morning and thought I needed to hang my laundry four times and forgot three.

My sister will be gone this weekend despite hurting her foot earlier this week (not too badly, I gather; she did go to the ER) and the main thing in my mind is I'm gonna have to keep an eye on my mom's door because like, I'm happy for her to air out the smoke in her room, but my throat is fucked.

So, because I watched all this stuff I'd been dragging on Wednesday instead of Clocktower, last night I was able to watch new streams from my two favorite Clocktower streamers back to back 😄 (VoDs obviously, I watch at 1.75x. I just wish Twitch had subs) (arif_a_ and pattersttv for anyone curious).

Yesterday I managed to watch almost everything I'd been dragging and I don't feel like I even watched that much stuff, I just...wasn't watching Clocktower streams. I finished KPop Demon Hunters, caught up on Game Changer and watched day 2 of US Nationals for senior women in gymnastics.

noooo this is serious :( they can’t make money unless they do a crime :( but they like money soooo much :( why can’t we just let them do a crime :(

I just realized my long threads of text get cut off into first and two last, so what I just wrote is probably gonna look confusing on feeds. Is there a way to get around that issue?

I haven't been keeping track of my sobriety count because *handwaves* whatever, but I realized the other day that I should be hitting 1000 days before the end of the year, so I just took the time to go through my planner marking how far ahead I was each Sunday of the year on the monthly calendars.

I watched the first day of the US Gymnastics National Championships yesterday and it feels like so much longer than a year since the last time I watched gymnastics. Like it was definitely a year, because Olympics. But it feels like three.

I know I'm probably tired because of my mom's bullshit last week, but every day since Sunday I've woken up with a sore throat that's gone away a couple hours after, and every time it's been different. All of last night it hurt to swallow?