i:m in love with helen dewitt! i hadn:t read in two days because i was too cold; i:m very cold today; i made a goat cheese quesadilla because my wraps fell apart; i made carrot potato curry; i:ve been very lazy lately; i:ve hated a lot lately; i:ve been desperate for others lately; i:ve had an idea

paravalence ~with my angel, the first visual novel from effigy.fyi, is coming soon. "𝑊𝑒'𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑐, 𝑜𝑓 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒." With contributions from @ccherias.bsky.social, @esper99.bsky.social, @8sumint.natu.moe and lots of little helps from others. effigy.fyi/en/paravalence

i prayed especially often lately about needing motivation to write and the dead thing vibrates and small tragedies happen and i am too upset to think of much except writing; there:s this excerpt (pic) from The Last Samurai about the hero accomplishing their quest leads to the dissolution of the Hero

the last samurai, what a lovely book; it reminds me a lot of iris and keffie -- i feel a little less lonely reading it; i:ve been very lonely lately and feeling aimless without the sabbath here and without my october rewrite to work on every morning; feels a tooled lever to make me TALK and POST

i was so in love with reading last night that i was surprised an hour passed, reading on this mothers obsession with a pianist describing an interview where the pianist wished to know the true form of percussion and explaining the notes a piano makes as only ever a dying or dead thing; i love dewitt

really have been loving the last samurai and feel myself falling in love with how helen dewitt writes; i tried making an effort of studying her prose yesterday with my writing, noticing how little she uses 'and' highlighted by choice to use bold outstanding '&'s instead; azarinth healer is fun too

here:s the programming for this weeks sabbath demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

from memory

finished a vollmann short story this morning to justify starting helen dewitt's last samurai while at the hospital this morning -- really enjoyed what i read and it reminded me what i love about books, and made me wish i stayed in college for sake of networking with researchers about this & that

i:m home; i was feeling very burnt out on audiobooks lately but today realized i just needed to return to the litrpg, and have been really enjoying azarinth healer, it:s made me look forward to monotonous labor again; i:m really happy with haunted house, that + warpship lamina i:m proud of

notes from church; went this morning -- was tempted by a church sister with food; felt a little odd about it, i was led by temptation to betray etiquette and write numbers for the church; the seed that falls to the thorns suffocates, etc; very cold

the october subscriber post is done, and here: demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/october-su... thank you everyone who supported me; it means a lot to me, always

i forced myself to illustrate something for the story, and posted it on my other socials; now: just to finish up the monthly post tomorrow and i can say goodbye to october

shamelessly advertising this again; i couldn:t sleep last night because i was excited to have finished it; i would like to do an illustration for it but i just can:t come up with anything lately; my thumbnails were all dead; if you read it, let me know!

demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/haunted-ho... i finished it; i couldn:t make an illustration that i was happy with, so i:m only posting it here until i decide if i like this picture for it or not -- but please read it, if you:d like; it:s a little more depraved, for me, than usual

just finished writing; i:ll be late; i realized yesterday i was exhausted and went to bed

hoping to have the writing for haunted house 2025 finished tonight, then some illustration for it done tomorrow, and posted then, coinciding with the 8th day sabbath; had no input on the draft because it:s basically too embarrassingly erotic for me to ask anyone to read; i:d feel weird about it

posting, two days in a row, because a rare occurrence: saw on /rsbookclub this article archive.ph/DV8z2 about angelicism01 and had a big "hey i knew angelicism, i remember that person" moment; was sad i wasn:t featured but i:m a footnote at the very height of whatever relevance; still just writing

i:ve been having a lot of fun with writing this years haunted house, it:s close to being finished; it:s maybe the most self-indulgent thing i:ve written, and is basically erotica -- in time for halloween

demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... here:s the programming for this week; busy with haunted house rewrite, so it:s very short this week

itagaki died; that moved me enough to want to post--just a strange person to see die; i:ve been watching oniisama e, and writing haunted house (3rd revision); i:ve been reading a lot

the programming for this week is done, and posted here: demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... it:s another short story, about a rainy day

the programming for this sabbath is done demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

here:s the subscriber post for september; thank you to everyone for supporting me demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/september-...

off to bed

the programming for this sabbath demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... it:s a short story this time

i had a fun day at work today because i ended on a really fun audiobook, "the last days of jack sparks," it's like a really good found footage film, i:m really enjoying it; went to the farmers market, all the old staff at the butchers place was gone; a lady hugged me; ate meat today -- feel gross

sick yesterday and this morning; been without migraine for awhile, i was due; think i:ll read crow cillers this month, maybe, still loving megatokyo; escaflowne still great, the twins are bad characters but cool; watched 1 ep of canaan yesterday, it:s like a fusion of bacanno, madlax, and jormungand

i was so happy to wake up and be alive this morning; this morning episode of escaflowne was neat--put me in the mood to write the haunted house story for this year; the air is crisp lately, making me want to watch more anime; read more manga; read more in general; a bit sad, a bit happy

demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... the programming for this sabbath is done; was slow to finish the art, struggled with drawing today

the weather this morning fell again to be a sodden dark, muggy, flat, warm; i pray, grateful, & again the pit stand tall below at my feet, down to underground, there i spread my fate; am heard at my chest a sharp stabbing pain, centered to my breast-bone, acute with my breath, beets & milk for breft

Soundless is coming to Steam on September 29th! With full Steam support, achievements, and even DLC for the official artbook, this release will be COMPLETELY FREE! You can wishlist it now! Main Game: store.steampowered.com/app/3978150/... DLC: store.steampowered.com/app/4017800/...

today: there is a nice chill in the air and it is very pretty outside; for dinner i had boiled carrot, cabbage, turnip, beet, tato, & it was very good; this morning i had yogurt mixed with a puree of beet and cocoa and it was very good; i wrote more to chapter 3; i was so hungry i could barely sleep

befire i awike dinner becime vinegar in my stomich; each down from me shaved i offer to you as pillow, and to you my master i wish each plume left you shall pluck from my body dapple and my skin goose; do i glitter over you, my master; my heart is vinegar so i bend over you in the morning a sky sour

[Fan TL] Tsui no Sora is out One of the "Three Great Denpa Games" alongside Sayonara o Oshiete and Jisatsu no Tame no 101 no Houhou. It later served as the basis for Subarashiki Hibi A Ren'Py port of the original 1999 game

this morning i awake and pray and know that i am caim and my soul is wed away to angelus; trying to return to writing chapter 3 this morning, i:ve been eating more and have more energy; avoiding church today, i:m afraid to go; felt like writing escaflowne fic this morning so i did only just that

Short Stories muuuu.substack.com/p/the-human-... muuuu.substack.com/p/designate-... muuuu.substack.com/p/b93 muuuu.substack.com/p/night-on-v... muuuu.substack.com/p/a-meeting-... muuuu.substack.com/p/ziguan-hui... muuuu.substack.com/p/lady-jin-z...

back to reading megatokyo, because i just finished the first null-a book (i liked it a lot, though the conclusion just felt very much only in service to introduce the next book in the series); liked these two panels; robot chief is my favorite ultraman villain, he makes me think of null-a

four chapters from the end of null-a, if bester:s writing reminds me of crunchy sci-fi OVAs, vogt reminds me of daitarn and ultraman and sentai and etcetera, more silvery; so far part 3 is the least interesting of null-a but i really loved part 2, though the machine corpse was really neat

on the drakengard subreddit i saw that the ost was released on steam so i checked /v/ to see if there was news about a remaster of it (i was starting a playthrough of it last night, my poor wrist) -- i didn:t find out anything but this image of a caimster; kafka on the shore is alright, sorta horny

the orsday programming for this sabbath is done and posted here demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

writing for the orsday sabbath likely fairly late today; can:t seem to wake myself up today

wrote a short article about computer intelligences and artistic creativity demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/total-empt... this morning episode of escaflowne was great, it:s such a beautiful show, it still feels unreal to me 13 episodes in; watching uraboku at night, i like it

escaflowne made me misty, this morning; restless night; at work i was struggling to think of anything but rewriting chapter 2 -- i:m even more an idiot; almost done with the magus, 4 hours remaining and i:m surprised the plot is still going; was reading faerie queene and liked it a lot; knees hurt

"German is to death what Latin is to ritual religion – entirely appropriate." liked this quote while listening to The Magus at work this morning, did my best to remember it; my bad analogy for the book: "it:s like Catherine x Ex Machina!" still sick, ibuprofen is all i need though

fanart of healer from EGOBOO, favorite freeware game when i was really young

my notes from church this morning; i wrote a longer post on tumblr, mostly just: had a dream about joining an acting group; i:ve felt sick; i haven:t been sleeping much because of my blood; i like the magus audiobook; i:ve been drawing last night and this morning; i feel very longingly lately

difficulty with audiobooks lately; person made "raven scholar" sound exciting--thought it had zero flow, dropped; "golem and jinni" sounded promising and started good--became a dull smear, dropped; started "the magus" and really liking it; vogt i both love and at times think can:t write at all

might want another psx game to play instead of legend of legaia; sick tonight and tired of reading; legend of legaia is really nice but also unbearably slow at times--the animations in combat are glacial, and the encounter rate is sky high; maybe just play drakengard, it:s brainless