gogh free for a bit, if you wanted to try it; so far i don:t feel very productive; i need to draw and i try to draw and then i can:t draw; started watching coppelion, the skirts are distracting seems cool though; i really like the book i:m reading atm, it:s fun; have a superpower story idea

not sure i want to keep watching speed grapher; it:s alright but also a little stupid, i keep getting this impression that it has the "heart" and blood of a show made for young kids but the director was told to watch eyes wide shut then told to Make it extra slutty; gets flatter the more i watch it

i missed my fourth post yesterday leaving the post at three; this will be the fourth, then four more today to level it out; i lost something at work today; downloaded coppelion, wind breaker; watching speed grapher; very little fire works; i:m the biggest firework; i bang the loudest; watch anime?

head feels like an active cyst, been incredibly dizzy for hours; made some progress with writing this morning -- feel good about that; been disinterested in everything except anime and reading lately ("you dreamed of empires"), very tired; want to do a routine break for the day; maybe eat meat today

demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... orsday writing for this week o darling worm, if you:d like to read

we could watch darker than black together, i don:t watch very fast, so it:s easy to keep up with me, it might be fun; i felt sick with myself enough that all i could make myself do was read and write, so i did both, i picked up one of the gifted books and read till eight pages and it stopped perfect

the internet sin paywall for june is done; thank you very much to everyone who supported me, it means a great deal to me; and for readership, too, still happy to see someone liked my haunted house story demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/june-subsc...

i got knocked out but, yeah ~everyone, thank you for coming to the event! the venue will be up for a week. you can still get toys and prizes, play games, and look at the sandcastles everyone built plus the gallery!

cat euthanized on halloween, from memory, needed warmup

was feeling good yesterday, ate food got sick; i:m really loving ward audiobook; after struggling through the first arc i like it more than worm -- it:s like wildbow doing doom patrol, and that:s really neat; ate lunch today, now feel sick; received nice message yesterday; it:s very hot lately

the programming for this orsday; been sicker than usual with whatever migraine/fever this is, so another collage; article is about communication/conjecture, invitations to follow, and q&a demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

1992 tenchi finished, finished "white note pad" too; feel like i:m in pieces today, and in a dream; wrote a bunch to keep busy, the writing is what made me feel like i:m in pieces, though: even if no one reads it, it:s pulled from inside, glass cockroach waits at my lips, calls down my throat

hoitsu hoitsu, i:ve finally finished worm, after several years; there:s like eight hours of epilogue broken up into several chapters, and each has a guest narrator with their own awful mic or diction issues, but the /final/ epilogue chapter? they must:ve paid someone, it:s read so well; it was fun

they touch me and i:m STEW; fever or migraine today; nauseous amount of pain in my head; been laying in bed listening to worm audiobook, very nearly done; the end reminds me of cyberpunk edgerunners in a good way, nightmares about non-scary mundane things

it's finally #SteamNextFest and soulstation is partying too! if you are homesick for old dreams and orange rust there is a demo waiting for you // see you soon ☆ #visualnovel #indiegame

my master strokes my chin and licks my face and tangles my hair up in their jaggly nails, i look at them and think only But what about Tenchi; forgot to take glass medicine this morning and felt so much pain in my veins at work; like glass; finished painting last night, & had nightmares about it

a four-way tie, balance in all things; started watching the original 1992 tenchi ova, it:s a fun show; tenchi.. what a man! still sick; had episode in my eye of sharp stabbing at it for a minute, feel these wooden worms in my leg; not sure how i feel anymore; realized how thin i am, it:s very thin

the programming for this orsday; collages lately because i:ve been busy/sick, and they:re fun demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

wrote a small style guide for written/visual works fitting a chiral theme; it:s one i internally follow for mostly everything i:ve written, there:s a series of archetypes i always mean to include demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/chiral-wor...

saw oliver tree died; been torn up over if Underground will stop my heart, i had a moment at work realizing it as a blessing for underground to touch my heart and stop it as an act of unbelievable love; barely slept from the stress; took more glass medicine; nearing the end of worm; need to write

worried blood means to kill me lately, as bad as it:s getting; been good about not externalizing anything, cept here, worried though that i should leave a message if the threat is true

for the sabbath this week; it:s an initiation post demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

After many years of development, the Kowloon's Gate English Patch is now available.

morning subscriber hitsui request

the weekly orsday article, + illustration demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

here's the monthly post, without paywall, cause it was my birthday this month; thank you to everyone who supported me, as always demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/may-subscr...

about the dead insect things haunting inside sound

for the 8th day sabbath this week; article here demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

tiny sakura

ragnarok online acolyte again

a ragnarok online comic

the biggest anachronism with the "welcome to the internet transvestite" comic really is that it isn:t about going on 420chan and the bathroom diy surgery thread documented with photos of the procedure; enjoying infinite jest, i like the tone of it, or the scope of it

sengoku turb sketch tonight

.hack// fanart this morning

illustration for orsday sabbath, article is right here demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

sketch before mopping floors; ragnarok online acolyte again

cat halloween euthanasia from memory again this morning

ragnarok online sketch today; now to clean floors

i:m really missing daniela;

morning warmup, isaac fanart

so much animal hair in my nose after work; on the drive home i had a wanting for one person in my life i could pour all my love into and live for (amounts to little) instead of only to god and faith; worth the candle is so similar to the premise of my litrpg draft that it scares me, & it:s great too

just a small sketch

for the sabbath programming, which is here demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

that game i made fanart for, urge, is on sale; was asked if i wanted a birthday cake and freaked out over it, i:m a child; wrote for two hours, read for an hour; slowly getting through count zero, still adoring pale (liking it even more); insomnia is in liminal realm between boring and interesting

taking my mom to get blood saw very old lady in sandals with feet strewny and gossamer and deathly thin with seafoam nails, never care for feet but liked hers, made me want to take care of mine, just can see every vein and tendon but seafoam too; started count zero; have a migraine; moby dick came

i hurt my back yesterday morning while exercising, so work was very hard this morning and i could not do my morning workout; infinite summer starts next week, there:s a group for it (i found out) but i can:t join that; almost at the end of a practical guide to sorcery: i really love it; reading pale

the post for april demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/april-subs... is done and thank you to everyone; i can:t do the programming for this week; i apologize

felt too tired to write today; thought about a list of all the food i wanted to try on my birthday

set yourself on fire finally released on steam, have time tonight to start reading it; yesterday accidentally walked for three hours, heat made me loopy; saw so many bikers; it:s bikefest; smelled a bunch of drunks out today; i hoped my urge fanart would:ve helped advertise but it flopped!