feels like the laser I got last year is starting to wear off around my chin and it is really making me dysphoric. will have to start looking around at prices for electrolysis and fix this permenantly

why am I caring about sports?! how has she done this to me??

having a low sensory day today I think. lights down, curtains closed, volume low

eating a big bowl of fruit loops at 1:30 in the afternoon which is usually not a great sign for my state of mind 🙃

adding some firepower to my Dogs of War with Bronzino's Galloper Guns. heads and horseman from the Empire Pistoliers kit, cannon is built using the mortar frame option to make it look shorter and easier to move. one more of these still to get assembled

Voland's Venators. nothing big to write home about here, just head/shield swaps. but progress is progressing. I still have six more knights left to build so those are probably getting melee weapons rather than lances just to mix it up.

slightly delayed challenge myself cooking this week as I was not feeling up to it yesterday. steak au poivre and hasselback potatoes. juggling some of the timings was a bit trick but still turned out delicious

sometimes my brain just decides to go 'you are an ugly, worthless, sack of shit, failure and everyone in the whole world hates you' and I just have to spend the day coming up with little task to distract myself until that goes away 🙃

Borgio the Besieger, first of the special characters for my Dogs of War. horse and legs from the Empire Command set, body from the Cities of Sigmar Arch-Knight, and a spare ball bearing for his signature cannonball mace. a little off scale with the horse, but I like him a bit bulky Radahn style.

tried this weird honey flavoured energy drink. not a huge fan

sometimes I cannot be bothered and decide to just boymode for a short errand only to catch sight of myself in a window or mirror and get reminded how much I now no longer look like who I used to be

after a short delay waiting on 3d printed heads to arrive the next DoW regiment of renown is completed, Pirazzo's Lost Legion. mostly just swapping in heads and pikes here and choosing the Empire state trooper bodies with the right style armour. Captain is a modified Engineer from the steamtank kit

My girlfriend chose the opposite team for the PWHL finals just so she could legally be mean to me 😭

hey Alexa how much icecream do I gotta eat to grow g-cups?

god I hate superglue so much for modelling. I miss you plastic glue my beloved 💕

feeling mega touch starved today and just wish my girlfriend was here to give me hugs and kisses and cuddles 😭😭

wandered down to the dairy and spotted the local P house has been put out of business and is currently completely boarded up from the outside 'don't dead open inside' style

dropped my bowl of butter chicken and felt the stressometer in my brain stack overflow right into pure zen calm 😑

know I am getting old when Something Awful threads I remember actively reading and commenting in start getting cited as deep internet lore

dreamed I was watching a supernatural mystery drama tv show about hunters in the Appalachian mountains that stared Walton Goggins and now I'm pissed because I woke up before the cliffhanger got resolved 😤

extremely eepy, but still hyped for day two of all day boardgames!

out for a whole weekend of boardgaming. going to be so much fun!

the mad lads not only revamped every endgame system, they doubled the amount of them AND added in-game psuedo POB and awakened trade HOLY SHIT!

new POE2 league announcement today. honestly GGG are so good and building and then delivering on the hype that being a POE fan is like getting 3-4 extra christmases every year

dreamed I went to a high school reunion. everyone was very polite, if a little confused, about the transition thing but did keep calling me Emily??

don't want to work today but at least I look cute

girlfriend is sending me incomprehensible messages about sports. she is so cute 🥰

next up for my Dogs of War are the Marksmen of Miragliano not much going here except a few head/weapon swaps with the empire missile troops as a base. mine are armed with handguns as I needed the crossbows elsewhere, and all have a feather in their caps to show their status as elite marksmen

trying to do some level of makeup everyday for work this week even if it is just eyeliner/eyeshadow

teeny tiny splinter in one of my fingers and nothing I do is getting it to come out 😭

made peri peri chicken and yellow rice for challenge myself cooking night and it is probably the best thing I have cooked all year. ended up with tons of leftover marinade so that is going into a stew or something later in the week

Dogs of War project continues with a rank and a bit of Alcatani Fellows pikemen drilling out the spears to replace them with pikes went much easier than I expected. bodies are mostly Empire men at arms with Victrix minis hoplite heads and shields. Captain is a trimmed down Bretonian kinght on foot

New Day leaving WWE was not news I expected to wake up to. wild!

fog came up so fast while I was in the supermarket I thought I got trapped in silent hill

turns out if you cook scrambled eggs every day for a month straight because you got a bunch of free eggs you start to get pretty good at it

I don't want to be "brave", or "seen", or "valid", I just want to be girl

Super Secret Project Reveal! converting up my childhood dream army, Dogs of War, using currently available GW kits (plus the occasional 3d printed head). first is Braganza's Besiegers. still a few more ranks to build but I think they stack up pretty good to the originals. next up pikemen!

Film you've watched more than six times with gif. hard mode: no star wars, star trek, lotr, dc, marvel, disney, pixar, dreamworks, spielberg, cameron, wachowskis, or ghibli

honestly kinda miss those early months after starting hrt when all the new and interesting changes were happening. now I feel like I am solidly into the slow and steady phase in terms of anything changing

last second meeting invites mean rush job makeup. I need 1-3 business days notice if you want more than eyeliner and lip gloss

wow that was the biggest quake I have felt in years. aftershocks still going too !😰

spinach and ricotta cannelloni and sourdough cheesy garlic bread for challenge myself cooking night this week. another winner despite how stressed several disasters during the process made me feel. going on the repeats list

got tons of compliments on my hair and nails last night so I must be doing something right

is this ott for a boardgames night? probably but I am having fun trying out new tricks

I can hear the demons in my ear trying to get me to start playing FFXIV again

holy smokes this collection ended up being an emotional roller-coaster. poor Babe Bunyan is going to be on my mind for a while, and even thinking of thinking about the Masker is going to make my skin crawl. amazing book!

three weeks since coming out at work and the fact that everyone's reaction so far has been essentially this has been such a pleasant surprise

all models painted and entrenched in their forever shelf. not a bad effort for two and a bit months work

last of the big stuff done. just characters left to paint and then it is time to start Secret Special Project!

finally found where the supermarket was hiding the gochujang paste. Korean BBQ is back on the menu!