It's Bagel appointment day if anyone wants to drop some vet cost/medical expense cash over at didi.rocks

apparently i only pop into streams to yap about halo lore now i am very sorry. it will happen again

First injection: no pain, no blood, a little sore Second injection: no pain, no blood, not sore, flawless Today's injection: ow ow ow ow ow what the fuck ow oh that's blood huh I have no idea what I did wrong lol owwww

desperately need a d&d beach episode where our elf comes away with a suspiciously faerie-shaped tan line somewhere on her

it/its is not gender It is, however, really hot

Pretty much this exact thing makes up 95% of Vetteia's internal conflict and it's been very interesting to explore, especially because she gets to experience both sides On one hand, she's in love with a couple of elves, so she gets the usual lifespan angst that brings

ugh d&d is cancelled againnn

need a relaxing tea bath that's interrupted at the end by someone sitting down at the table i'm on

Whoops thought too hard about a sad thing and now I can't stop crying Sometimes I miss being able to actually hold back tears because good gods

on a less fun note (or more, depending on your preference) vetteia also got accused of hiding something by the party (she was) which resulted in, from her pov, four very dangerous and upset giants flat out telling her they were not going to let her leave the room. she did not handle this well

my dm mentioned this wizard's bookshelf had a bunch of jars on it and all 5 of my party immediately looked at me also they came up with the idea of vetteia's wives having a bunch of different sized jars for. reasons. and admittedly i am frustrated that they had such a good sizey bdsm idea

trying to phrase things so carefully because mostly i'm just musing. not meaning to yuck anyone's yum. i'm just thinking out loud over here it's like. not being into sports but your friends are watching the game. i'd rather watch something else, but i'm just talking and they're not hurting anyone

i think it's curious that i've never once seen people being freaks about being smaller than, say, borrowers or mousegirls or any other sort of tiny critter. only ever faeries i know that's because faeries are assumed to have magic or be tricky but it just occurred to me and it's. curious. you know

still tiny of course clinging to a doll/faerie/borrower when someone bigger shows up. mine.

being called possessive (positive) to someone else as a warning might have just flipped a switch i didn't know i had

reminder that i do not post pics regularly. i'm not a giantess. sometimes a faerie just likes to tease. don't follow me expecting more of this

had to get dolled up for an event anyways, figured i might put it to another use~ a treat <3

trans women are female

It's frankly criminal how expensive pharmacies makes estradiol injections And it's not even the good ester ughhh

well. guess we're in a robot girl Mood

Hm...thinking of different production models of miniature androids. One is a little older, analogue, needs someone to turn a key. The other is automated, self-powered, tends to run hot. And a collector who can't bring herself to get rid of her first, but now she has another to help wind it up...

A faerie aspiring to mechanization, to cyberization, miniature metal parts to alleviate pain and frustration that magic hasn't been allowed to solve A faerie with dreams of cold iron, not fear of it

Now I know how this looks, a faerie buried in frosting...among berries...being served up at the elf ball... But I am NOT dessert! ...you're, um... you're...smiling awfully wide. What... what are you... oh

admittedly i am both curious and deeply worried about what an yttaeoreth impression might look like

"Oh gosh milves gosh buns gosh milk gosh gosh maids gosh ball joints gosh pretty boys gosh oh gosh mommy gosh gosh goshity gosh big sis gosh demons gosh bulge gosh shrunk in a mall gosh a witch gosh what if doll oh gosh why are all these faeries looking at me like that" Did I get em all?

whoops made a character handle conflict the same way i do (try to run away from it)

i haven't watched tadc, not really my type of media but boy howdy people do not like characters turning out to be trans women huh

somehow i managed to get an endo appointment for monday, so now we get to find out if a) she'll take my concerns about my levels seriously, and b) if i have the willpower to stab myself with a needle once a week because i don't think pills come in more than 2mg and i don't want to take 6 a day

phone call accomplished. person on the other end said they'd check with my endo if there's an earlier availability and get back to me, but currently there doesn't seem to be anything before september review your blood work yourselves girls. don't trust everything to your doc, even the good ones

I really should have been reviewing my own blood tests because apparently my E levels are below even the outdated 100 pg/mL minimum. No wonder I feel like a mess Unfortunately my next endo appointment isn't til November and idk if she'll be free before. Also phone calls to book things suuuuck

faerie tinkering with her doll friend like a mechanic with her robot...

The crittersss

Not buggies! D...despite any logical proofs to the contrary! (featuring @yttaeoreth.bsky.social, of course)

working my way through a blueberry bigger than my head. just getting my whole face in there

Here I thought getting a degree specifically listed in the job requirements of the field I wanted to go into would make me employable, but apparently those jobs disagree Jokes on me I guess

One of our druids got asked if our harengon was his pet and I'm so mad. It should have been meeeee

Super cool that autism/adhd assessments rely on evaluating a childhood I don't remember Sorry my parents were stressed and poor and couldn't get me evaluated when I was 4, doc. I'll make sure to do better next time

why must i only find the urge to write after midnight

You ever, like, know you're pretty alright at the things you do, but never the best? And people reassure you that you *are* good, but just once you'd like to stand out. Fifth place at the Olympics kind of thing, runner up to the runner up, not even worth noting how you juuust missed it

Sometimes the silly, embarrassing thing just makes you happy.

'lesbian bodyguard x equally lesbian charge' is a peak setup no matter how many times it's done

thinking about standing in Her palm

Depression? How about some doll-pressin' instead? ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ

It's so, so, so important to make the doll say gosh

How I want elves to look at me

shrinking in a store changing room, then stuffed into the purse of the next woman to come in.

Please.

Good day to put a doll in a Situation.