ok

(╥﹏╥) feel a bit better after the minor panic attack but it's just constant pain to the point of nausea and losing an alarming amount of blood yet still i feel like im being hyperbolic and wasting everyone's time, it is so hard to ask for help praying the receptionist doesn't laugh at me tomorrow

blood curse is real fuckin impolite this month god everything hurts

feel much better now thank you, let's try our best in 2026. ill start off by letting myself get kidnapped by more moths

wanted to make a big thank post for the ny but the collosal wave of depression got to me. i hate that i struggled to think about the good things that happened this year. my brain defaulting to this just highlights what kind of awful person i am maybe ill let it all out here n try to be done with it

whatever.

lets hope this year is the one i learn to give less of a fuck

two months for an outfit im cooked

going to have a lil drink today (it has been okayed)

ouch !!!!

im such a miserable lil shit lmao

ah 🥲 i feel so ugrateful but i asked people not to get me anything because its been hard and not only did they get me things but things i cant use

could do with a level 123 hype train after thia christmas

i want to draw :(

its been quite rough already and its only been a day seems like my mother is back drinking again despite my warnings when she had cancer and as always when my step dad eventually gives up, ill probably have to pick up the pieces alcohol is a vile thing

id like to be a stay at home wife

the stress is making me a bit sicky haha

lowkey want a steam deck

me when i have sex at the burning the heretic festival

this year i have learned a lot it wasnt the nicest year sadly i seem to have come to terms just how much ive been taken advantage of by friends and strangers alike im happy to have made some new friends that have kind of shown me how it should be just some depression hours

fuck im tired

oh my god my tl is full of streamer award shit bro who fucking cares i really dont know why people are giving it the time of day when it's clear no one cares about vtubers

sobs

went to the ospital again and now im super tired they are actually vampires i think

i got to lock in this month so maybe we can end this mess of a year on a positive note

i just want a safe space where i can be comfortable

i want to draw but im so sick lmao

some horrid demons today lads

im so fking boned

mrrr reaching out is hard

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

_(´ཀ`」 ∠) _

anyone want to adopt me into a new family

this is quite possibly the most stupidest shit ever

you all deserve better

well it's bittersweet to hear that i do infact have some issues but it's nice in a way that i have reasons for things i get to trial some more medications and hope my organs dont explode :D

🖤

ive gotten more desperate and extestensial to the point where i actually forced an affirmation unprompted ive gone through nothing but shit after shit through my time on this grim planet and i'm finally settling with the idea that maybe its okay for me to have some down time without feeling guilty

havent slept, going to try to take a medicated nap and wake up in time for stream wish me luck

laid down and died for a bit i dont know where i am but its freezing

what if i killed hel and made her into a krow-st

im sorry

im so sad hahaha