people are being too nice to me today, if i hadn't have suffered with the spyro game id probably have had to kill something

thought i got lucky this month but no its just late fuck you

i crave affirmation, praise and attention but i hate being in the spotlight and my immediate reaction is to be violent and dismissive when i recieve any

i just got caught completely off guard by a reel i seen

im going to have to practice speed running my candle runs so i can impress people during the thon B)

i started feeling incredibly guilty about the thon because i didnt like the idea of stretch goals since i had no idea where to put that kind of money into for the channel if it ever got hit but i think ive decided that if something like that happens, maybe i can have a go at the project after all

whats even the point anymore

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just seen someone put tuna into a pot noodle im ending it all

been nearly 4 months since the start of my outfit commission. 4 months!!!

i want to give hel a big chunky collar

i want to draw but when i do im not ever happy even when i spend hours on it because my skills wont match what im picturing in my brain but i cant improve if i dont finish the fucking thing REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

internet has been out for 3 hours now wahoo

i dont want to do anything today. im in such a fuckass grumpy mood, to the point im scared im going to upset some people but when i even take one day off, i feel like a disappointment. taking two off when i can probably just push through it makes me feel even worse

i feel like poop from a butt

ow

im gonan throw up

god im so sad lmao

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6 FUCKIN TS IN THE GROUP OH NO i think ill kill myself wtfym you pull this after having 3 events at the same time

took up sky photography c':

valentines day and didnt wake up next to prometheus just put me down at this point

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im dying

a steam deck would ruin me but its so tempting

how are people affording kamo models, can i work at your job pls

died after stream and now i cant get back to sleep what have i done

someone gave me a heart for one of my performances sobs

if you dress like this hmu (please dont)

crine

think i will have to go to the doctors about this actually but i really dont want to 😒

ive been playing a lot with people i met through the sky discord recently, helping them out with things. here i was helping out with the assembly treehouse and it deadass just looks like i have a child

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pox upon whoever invented the uterus

learned fly me to the moon and went to go see if i could get the sax im going to fucking kill myself what do you mean its 125 candles (150 cause i have to ge tthe fucking spells)

i was getting such funny sot and cat memes and now my feed is ovulating

today is a new day

god i needed that

thank you to the ones who don't fake friendships with me i have just been super emotional lately so it's been hard to focus on the positives, im sorry

was trying to record some of the music that i was learning and this person popped up and nearly spent 10 candles to unlock the chat just to tell me they liked my outfit 🥹 thankfully i have a seat prop so i gave them a friendcode and then they wanted to take some pictures together im sobbing

im too mentally ill to be putting up with even a fraction of the vtuber community, some of yous really fucking suck lmao this doesn't only include the obvious big wigs and grifters that are on topic, some of it hits closer to home and that just made me pretty sad haha

ive been sat here for like 4 hours trying to draw shit and its not coming out how i want im going to bite an opened tuna can

im so fkin spoiled

fuck me they released a nitro bundle i actually like

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voiceemeter only took 3 hours to set up

on god this is me