“for you, I would” is the universal language because words are hard to say and easy to misinterpret but actions require no vocabulary but the willingness to try. And what’s love if not trying, trying, trying?

only one achievement left for my platinum trophy in viii, and that doesn't include my incoming perfect card collection.

the number of times i cast life on squall only for him to get KO'd immediately after should be studied.

Stars in full bloom 🌙 #art #illustration

lord huron's preview track on their ads already convinced me to pre-order the new album, but i should be rewarded the full track sooner in my humble opinion.

i'll delete this later, but. calling this feeling a lack of motivation while also knowing it's a small stretch of depression is almost easier. i'm having difficulty finding joy in the things that normally bring me that. i need to figure out how to dig my way out of this. something has to change.

Happy Birthday to @manifique.bsky.social‬ !! No, I'm not late, I just had to scan the drawing- Anyway, I hope you like your new glasses, Richter! Courtesy of mister Aster ofc. [ #TalesOfSymphonia #DawnofTheNewWorld #RichterAbend #AsterLaker #Fanart ]

staring down a certain deadline for an upcoming project i haven't even started to assess, and i would sooner jump off a bridge at this point than actually do it.

unrelated to anything, but just a reminder to NEVER let anyone dull your enthusiasm for anything. be loud, be excited, be unhinged. as long as you're being respectful, you're not doing anything wrong. people who try and kill that joy, who make it out to be a bad thing, aren't worth keeping around 💜

One of the most meaningful lessons I’ve learned is how important it is to make others feel important. Not on a surface-level—really notice what you appreciate, show them, and SAY it. We often assume our kind, talented friends already know how amazing they are. But often, they don’t hear it enough.

i have an oddly anxious feeling today, which is. well, odd.

"Your life should not be a museum." "Being alive is as special an occasion as it gets."

so tired, but so tempted to keep playing x-2 when i get home.

getting a phone call that my dog isn't acting right makes me nervous, but also not wanting to jump to conclusions.

It's Aster Laker Time! I missed the boy!! [ #TalesofSymphonia #DawnofTheNewWorld #AsterLaker #Fanart ]

by the way, you're not doing nothing. Slow creative days happen. Rough days happen. Believe me, I get it. But staring at your WIP, visualizing, adding a note for later, hell even just italicizing a single word. that shit counts. it's something. you're making an effort. that's never nothing.

i prefer to not complain about work all that much, but today is the twilight zone of problems.

❛ you got some interesting clouds fucking up your sky tonight.

i've let a few small things add up this week that i should compile into a list and just knock out in one go.

the tragedy of replacing besaid's theme in X-2 with something remarkably not besaid's theme.

missed my window of going back to sleep. three-thirty a.m. start for the day, then.

the genre jump from x to x-2 is insane.

that ten minutes of "will this be the day my mac doesn't turn back on" when i give it a restart.

i cannot seem to get warm today.

they went hard on this one.

having my dog seen by a vet costs more than an out of pocket doctor's visit for myself.

feels like a good omen to walk into work and not be met with country music, but one of my favorite pop evil tracks instead.

still one of my favorite outdoor exhibits to have visited.

my family doing easter a month early (today) is going to put my sense of time further out of perception.

talk about a close call.

i really should get back on board with HSR. i've grown really lax to log in to any of my mobile games except pogo.

this is highway robbery.

how long can i procrastinate working on sunday.

the only reason some protein bars are effective is because you no longer wish to put anything else into your mouth after eating one.

i've come to the segment of my evening where i entertain choices that sound good, but are anything but.

maybe my dark mood is just the product of "one of those days" and it's affecting how i view everything at the moment. i should stop being concerned with it and just sleep it off.

Moon 🌕

the real end game.

the further i get into this x replay, the more i realize that tidus is the "i'm just a girl" meme but he's just a guy.

coffee doesn't fix me, but it certainly tries. valuable morning routine fulfillment goes a long way.

2B #NieR

spending so much time rendering an image that i feel like i need to create its own "safe layer" in case i mess up the image quality on down the editing line.

When did we become so small and so apologetic? Why do we apologize for our humanity? Love what you love, and make no apologies.

haven't had my coffee yet and left my glasses behind. add all of that to my tuesday existential dread.

should be a law against having headlights so bright that i can see into my own future.

that's one thing about the dissidia portrayals of squall that i've always felt compelled to distinctly define and separate—they really take his complexities from original viii and compress him into this very narrow character subsisting on a summary of two traits: lions (pride) and going it alone.

reading this great analysis on squall having a "fearful-avoidant" attachment style. "both desiring and intensely fearing emotional closeness and intimacy. extreme difficulties trusting others. a strong belief that others will hurt them." the storytelling method really shines the light on this, too.

i have never won these blitzball matches in x, but i'm determined to come out as the winner today. find out later how filled with regret i am about my stubborn choices.

the year is 2007 and the world is so vibrant and calm, besaid track playing in the background.