Thank god for computer. Reassuring stuff

aini spoilers 2zuki

i don't need you to be with me (just try to remember what you see in me)

answering questions i asked people to send because i am bored. you can send questions in on straw page rysdt.straw.page and i will forget to put them here. spoilers (for the game and my fic i guess)

i don't know. 99% chance i've made this tweet before because this website sucks shoe polish but i like making stuff about. people twisting themselves into knots to convince themselves they're responsible for their own abuse and that what was done to them was consensual --

they should make a site that is good. for trans women and artists and all trans people but especially trans women. is anyone working on this. no? okay. awesome.

oh okay,. cool. cool. awesome. great. cool. good. love that. awesome. thanks bluesky. (starts coughing up blood (in a way that doesn't glorify harm or dangerous stunts))

my aitsf fic is done archiveofourown.org/works/519182... you should read it. 3k word post-annihilation saito/ryuki smut fic with an additional 60k words of ???. fingers are put in eyesockets. i use every POV __ person tag. mizuki is there. aiba is also there. it's a good time.

( aitsf spoilers + nsfkd spoilers ) i hope this reaches you

well that's probably fine. you know me i love not glorifying harm. and my opinion on the things still hard banned are that they're illegal where i live and i love following the laws of my beautiful country

Murdering! [INCREDIBLY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER]

"panta you should be posting on bluesky the day before twitter and not the other way around" maybe bluesky should try being a good website. change starts with you

hundred line spoilers (route 0), eitaku very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files

rysdt.straw.page finally bothered to put a link to this site on my strawpage (loud sigh)

( hundred line ) the majority of humanity is completely rotten! the smell is terrible, so let's throw them all away

( aitsf spoilers ) i have one contractual obligation and it's may tenth

minor aini spoilers

( aitsf spoilers , saito/ryuki ) bauny.

hold on. hold on.

today's thing i'm thinking about wrt 18-yo post anni zuki: 'arresting' (kidnapping) ryuki after killing saito (the police couldn't catch them for 6 years she's not handing him over to those chucklefucks) and psyncing with him to make sure he's Guilty Enough about everything. you know.

Yuri

Read My Fic I Updated My Fic. Read it. archiveofourown.org/works/519182...

had a girl moment last night

the reason i call myself 'uncontested #1 ryusaito guy' is not because of the amount i've drawn them (that's purely a matter of NEEThood) but because it's my number one S-Tier across the board, it's never been a "oh i don't *ship* it but" thing for me i knew day one this would ruin me and i was right

( aitsf spoilers ) this wasn't for april fools but i did just remember it because it's the same category of image as the last one

( aitsf spoilers ) and here's my 2024 april fools post also

( genderbend , aitsf spoilers ) 2023 april fools bit, for most of these the only characters changed are these two and the aiballs because it's infinitely funnier

should i just repost my april fools stuff from the last couple years here. probably

(written description of vomiting) sick in bed doing what i always do when i'm sick in bed.! fwhbhhjh

i have blocked a lot of people so when i go on twitter the things i see that make me mad are people QRTing that "the funniest tiktoks are the ones they don't let you save" tweet that they were QRTing with unfunny videos of people's personal problems with just regular joke tiktoks they Can download

yay i love poasting :^) aitsf spoilers i guess there's not enough context for this to mean anything without it

it's birthday... (in my timezone) ................. !

by the wayies i have one of these things rysdt.straw.page i just haven't posted a link to it here because i will instantly forget i posted it anywhere other than twitter. but i can put that on you the audience. If you're not following me on twitter and send in a question tell me or i will forget. th

Mizuki

the reason to get better at art is not to hide the fact it's yours -- to turn it into a locked room mystery with no suspects -- every painting is inexorably a self portrait. the reason to get better at art is to have more room with which to express yourself

finished a third nitro+chiral game so i'm officially allowed to have opinions about slow damage and dramatical murder on social media. shockingly: i was right about everything before

i'm doing such a good job not drawing. it's been an entire week maybe. i'm being so brave.

logging into bluesky after a 2 day trip: wow! can't wait to see all five posts i missed!

i think ryuki should get [POST REDACTED FOR VIOLATING BLUESKY TERMS OF SERVICE] and then [POST REDACTED FOR VIOLATING BLUESKY TERMS OF SERVICE]

my brain is like yansim code where it has to run through every task in order saying "not that one not that one not that one That one" before it can do anything and i have like 2 mbs of ram. i am sssssssuffering

i wanna draw so bad........ sob sob............... sob sob sob......... i can't write for shit.......... euuueueuuuuuuuueuueueu

i think the worst thing people say is "you're your own worst critic because you can see all the flaws in your work!" because every time i heard it i went "that's horseshit my art is good and if i see flaws there are flaws and i need to fix them" and honestly i was right

my unofficial week long break may be an official month long break

"you have to make bad art before you can make good art" you have to make bad art before during and after making good art. mediocrity is the enemy of greatness bad art and good art are making out sloppy style and moaning

1 thing about me i'm always doing boring practice shit. 2 thing about me i love mizuki date

also! played a cute little game called saihate station that just came out on steam (i think it's been out elsewhere for a while and this is a release with a bunch of translations?) it's free and i thought it was really sweet :^)