Still alive.

Being a young dude was wanting to hit all those Eminem bars because I wanted to be real good at something Being an older dude is wanting to hit these Aesop Rock bars because I want to be real weird at something Steps forward.

I’m still not an author, I’m not published nor professional. I’m barely a writer, I’m still figuring out how to tell the story coherently. But I am absolutely a storyteller, and that’s my favorite part anyway. I’m pretty damn pleased with my place in the creative spheres.

Taking my goofy mercenaries out of an existing world and just doing my own thing was a scary idea. It’s nice to have the framework of an established setting. But now I can put what I want to in the story and it’s always canon. I can add silly shit that doesn’t fit in a serious setting. Kinda dope.

I’ve got almost 20 thousand words into this story I’ve been writing. A good bit of it is world building stuff in the background, but it’s the most words I’ve ever put into one of my silly ideas and it makes me happy. Sometimes the little things feel pretty big.

TODAY from 4pm GMT come join us as we raise funds for the great Mashy Move. Join the community in stopping me from completing #DonkeyKongCountry #DKC www.twitch.tv/mashashy I'm only dropping donation links in chat to keep the game fair. #twitchstreamer #goodcause #communitysupport

I would like to invite you all to my Donkey Kong Country challenge. Donate to stop me from completing Donkey Kong by spinning the wheel of pain and having to sing, dance and KO DK for your pleasure, this Sunday at 4pm GMT on Twitch

Been blogging again. gbodack.blogspot.com/2025/11/lead...

Kinda obsessed with Neve because my wife bears a resemblance. This is beautiful.

So I have come to the conclusion that if you are here it must be because you think I am a fuckin delight, and I’m going to act as if this is the case until explicitly told otherwise. I am so exhausted over being insecure and of course I can’t just wave it away but I’m gonna stubbornly try.

I fall off of showing up and sharing things because I often feel like I’m shouting into an empty canyon. I don’t have a lot to say these days. But I’m still real glad to be here. Just a proof of life, I suppose.

Rust Belt ronin except not anywhere near that Flannel samurai? Maybe somehow closer

I have been all struggle, no brakes for a long time. I found the brakes. It’s kinda comforting.

Remembering who the fuck I am is tiring. Good, damn good. But tiring. Dobro spi, prijatelji.

Music is gonna be something I don’t let go of so easily in the future. Found some things I’ve been missing.

Working on some music again. All day I’ve been at it and it feels really damn nice

Ris basically taught me how to DM alongside @harlen.bsky.social so I kinda have to say this is a fantastic opportunity for anyone who wants to learn some things.

-Az- Rest isn’t always easy. Sometimes because we are troubled. Sometimes because we are envigorated. Good or bad reason, still gotta rest. Dobro spi, prijatelji.

I’m entering my wizard years. I had pondered if they would be Shire years, but these are still “the times we’re in,” so they won’t be cozy yet. HOWEVER, I do accept that I am an indecipherable paradox of conflicting forces, and that there is peace in embracing my chaos. Ergo, wizard years.

I have rediscovered my love for the piano, and I am absolutely planning on making it as many people’s problem as I can.

Fuck if this ain’t personally relevant to me in this exact moment

I have been trying to sprinkle little Azrael thoughts as the closest thing I’ll do to dressing up for Halloween. But tonight I guess I have Greg thoughts to speak. Don’t get used to it, I’m still gonna forget I use social media for weeks at a time, but fuck it I’m just in bed getting sleepy why not

I’ve been coming out of a bit of a fog, and feeling the feelings a little more and harder. But I’m better able to recognize them now. And that makes them easier to talk about safely instead of being a cunt about them.

I don’t have too many days where I just want to sorta disappear. Okay I do, but usually they’re from anxiety. Tonight, I just want to like fade into the ethereal plane temporarily and find things I can almost grasp mentally but am just out of reach of. It ain’t a bad feeling. Just searching again

-Az- Mother of Motes Lead me to be a light shining in the darkness Grant me Your strength to protect Your compassion to shield And Your reverence to honor the fallen Both those I cannot save And those I must lay to rest May Your grace be revealed through my hand #DnD

Just realized that when I re-classed my monk Vash into a bard I accidentally now am playing Jason Mendoza. - is an entertainer - pretended to be a monk - complete idiot - also, crimes

You ever want to have something to say, because you like to contribute, but have nothing to say and so you just feel miserable about it? Or is that weird?

-Az- My brother was a mean, ornery little weasel. But I always held out the hope he’d grow into the potential he had for greatness. I could have snapped him in half when I caught him with my fiancée, but I chose to walk away instead, in the hope that once I’d left he’d let go of his spite.

-Az- Ellie taught me long ago to embrace the hope within my soul. It’s what makes me so dangerous. I still have hope for the world, long after the darkness has swallowed up everything beautiful and free.

- Az - I woke up 250 years after I died. I found myself impaled to a pillar in the Shadowfell a few months later. I’ve already found myself, in a very literal sense, mon petit lutin. But I’m still looking for a lot of the pieces. If you’ve got questions, so do I, but go ahead. #DnD #RP #Halloween

New character art by @critsvakarian.bsky.social and I am in love with the way she just reached into my head and pulled Azrael out of my mind's eye.

I guess I'll be Az for Halloween. He's a great guy despite being my dumbest DnD character. He's just slow to absorb, otherwise insightful, and has charisma out the celestial ass. Kinda a self insert I suppose LMAO. Especially all the traumas.

Them: "Say the weird thing, Greg. Just say it." Me:

I know the feed works different here and my late night ramblings may never cross many eyes. I will consider them fun little Bodack breadcrumbs, I don’t have anything of value to say, I’m just farting around and vibing.

I was gonna do a Halloween in character thing but I only got to the name change. But I realize Indy Duquesne is a huge self insert so I guess I’m already in character.

I’ve been scarce. I’ve had to figure me out, and I’ve been living life. I wanna shout about the amazing times I’ve had but I don’t have the energy if I’m being honest. But I wanna let yinz know the ride has been rocky but it’s been a beautiful disaster and I am finding myself out here.

I have created a therapist OC for all my traumatized characters and I’m going to use her to talk myself out of character regret when I feel like one is “not working” Sometimes we take our mind goblins and put them on little treadmills to tell stories instead of tormenting us

I’ve just realized I’ve been sick for like a week so I guess I’m gonna rest about it now

This might work. Ignore the title, I sing as my DnD characters to avoid responsibility for butchering music drive.google.com/file/d/13QKO...

I did a cover of “Fade Into You” by Mazzy Star before I had coffee today. It’s weird when I get the music bug up my ass. I’d share but don’t know how to put an MP3 on Bsky.

RTs very appreciated, nobody got hurt but its a little shaky over here. Any assistance is greatly appreciated but I also understand that we're "in it" as a planet, so I understand if you're unable to assist right now <3 and idk how to bypass the deadname lol <3 www.gofundme.com/f/support-ce...

Cedar is good people. Help if you can, boost the signal either way 💙🤘💙

I really do believe the awful things I think and sometimes say about myself at times. The people in my life are so stubborn about refusing to allow this from me, and it has really saved my life. Not in the sense of me needing it to continue. But in the sense of me being able to be a better me.

Tonight is a night of big feelings. They’re all good ones, which is somewhat odd but not disappointing. That’s all. Good night.

Please consider The Light of Miera for your next read x

Fuck, I miss being in Canada tonight.

Fuck it we're doing some Veilguard Live in like idk 10 minutes or something, I'm making coffee. Killian seduces his way through Thedas, day 2 www.twitch.tv/bodack_horse...

I'm losing my mind just by virtue of living in the US in 2025. That's it, that's the entire post.

Does anyone on here I know have an Xfinity/Comcast login? Might need to see if I can just temporarily borrow one to connect to my router hotspot until I can switch my service around.

Well, my service is suspended and the cost to turn back on went up to $325. I’ll be scarce because I have no way to afford that, not in a million years. It anyone can spare some #mutualaid I’d be appreciative of anything that may come my way