Sunflower Girl (2025)

Props to my mom she’s not even phased anymore when I mention thinking about blowing my brains out

If I puke again today I’m gonna scream

I don’t really believe in god anymore but I pray tomorrow is better

Do you have any idea how horrible it is to not even be able to masturbate for YEARS without your brain railgun blasting horrible images into your head to punish you for wanting to feel pleasure?

It really fucking sucks to be told that not only actions but thoughts can be evil and dangerous when you’re someone whose brain constantly fills you with them and you can’t even make art about them so you just have to feel them grow like mold inside your skull

I wish people understood how horrible it is to have a head full of constant repulsive thoughts and images that can only be silenced with drugs or self-harm

I was winding down from depressive suicidal despair tonight and now it’s spiking again over the stupidest reason and I’m trying to keep myself distracted with my girlfriend but I’m just so worried I’ve fucked up horribly and can’t reverse course now and my worst intrusive thoughts are screaming

I’m constantly afraid I’ll wake up one day as my Dad

My therapist I’ve been with for 2 or so years is leaving the practice and I’m really hoping I’ll be able to keep doing telehealth visits with her wherever she ends up cuz ain’t no way I’m starting over and having to talk about my sexual trauma to a new person

Puked this morning

I really wish I could just sleep all tomorrow but I have class work and finals to do

I just want to wake up and all of this goes back to normal

I’m more and more aware that I am very sick and deserve to die

Suicidal ideation is the worst because if you keep it hidden you suffer in silence but if you’re open about it then you have to worry about harming other people or them misinterpreting your desires as some sort of punishment or reaction to something they’ve done.

Sometimes I remember how nice I used to be and wonder what the hell happened

My third album as Aubade, CHATTERBOX, is out now. A cluttered assortment of harsh noise sessions, improvised sound collages, vocal freak outs, and droning ambient passages. Listen here and consider supporting: angelbee.bandcamp.com/album/chatte...

rika-chan sprite redraw... #ひぐらしFA #higurashi

me, @peppersalt.bsky.social and @crappysugarlife.bsky.social made an immersive gallery game where you stroll around the elemental plane of noise and check out angel's art. check out our entry here: pepper-salt.itch.io/angelmuseum

this started out as a redraw of an old bad sketch #handsofthevoid

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I WANT MORE FURRY ART IN MY PORTFOLIO DAMMIT! And soooooo I'm running a limited discount! Offer open 'till Mid-October! #art #artcomms #LFWartist #commissions #albumart #manga #commissionartist #comms #graffiti #digitalart #furry #furryart #anthro #anthropomorphic #furrycomms

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my battery is low and it’s getting dark

so long to everything, i guess. (1/7)

here on the moon #art

Experi-Mint sweaters are arriving today, shipping them out all next week

I really wish I could silence my brain

The more distance I have between me and my read-through of Full Metal Daemon Muramasa, the more I really dislike the philosophical and ethical frameworks it offers, all of which seem to culminate in ideological dead ends that mostly just shrug at the ugliness of the world and draw false comparisons.

Krasznahorkai’s writing simultaneously makes me feel one with the universe and hopelessly alone in a void completely absent of meaning or value.

Genuinely convinced within 50 years people will have literally deified that hack debater, and will canonize him as a reincarnation of Jesus Christ. I wish I was being hyperbolic for a joke but I genuinely cannot help but see it happening in real time.

I don’t know how much longer I can endure all of this, why is the world like this

@mentha.fun Happy birthday, skater girl

I’m so tired of trans women who want us to all without reservation distrust and reject cis people who are attracted to us. I hate this mentality that everyone who loves us, houses us, defends us only does so to satiate a fetish, or to overcompensate for some insecurity re: their own gender/sexuality

I'm incredibly proud of my most recent album, banished sorceress. I feel like I've finally found the raw sound I've been looking for. I also really like how the tapes turned out! Pick up a copy (on digital or tape) here: tshnproductions.bandcamp.com/album/banish... Lucario plushie not included

AT THE GATES' TOMAS LINDBERG Dead At 52 metalinjection.net/this-is-just...

If society punish you for not worshipping evil people, you're living in an evil empire

I seriously think if it wasn’t for my girlfriend, I’d be hanging myself right now given how absolutely vile the world is on every conceivable level right now. The human race is such a pathetic dead end of evolution.

floating around town looking like this

we have a right to be angry lol. we should be able to say fuck that guy

Political violence is abhorrent. I have not celebrated Kirk's death. But Newsom calling for his followers to "continue Charlie Kirk's work," someone who praised stoning gay people as "god's perfect law," who called for men to "take care of" trans people like they did in the 50s and 60s, is not it.

stars shine bright from up here #artypie

Kiryu Coco. #hololive