Tonight's gonna be awesome!

Just because I don't like attention to myself does not mean I want to be ignored, or forgotten, or taken for granted. Also: -Having to beg for the bare minimum is not okay. -Treating someone like a pet or sideshow is not okay. Everything has consequences, seen or unseen.

People that believe in ghosts might see one at this event.

How do robots deal with/heal broken hearts?

Diesen Beitrag von John Oliver sollten so viele Menschen wie möglich sehen: www.youtube.com/watch?v=flSS...

Mood

Another wasted week, another wasted weekend. I feel a hard limit coming up.

Been suffering from very unpleasant foot pain for weeks now and it does not seem to let up. Starts mild in the morning and hurts like hell later. Doctor says I need patience. Usually that is fine with me, but I feel absolutely useless and down right now. So...sorry in advance for my moods.

One of these Sundays when you can't wait until it's bedtime so that terrible weekend is finally over...

Deutsch sein. Kein Arschloch sein. Wissen, was war. Wissen, was nie mehr werden soll. Nicht AfD wählen. Kein Arschloch sein. Deutsch sein.

Recently been feeling a lot more like myself again. I think I'm finally through this depressive phase that started in October. Just gotta get through the always terrible V-Day week, and I should be good to go. Oh, and according to a fortune cookie, I am to meet a stranger!

Just watched "The Coffee Table". Good movie, I'm starting to appreciate spanish movies more and more. But serious warning: don't watch it if you easily get empathic with movie characters, it will wreck you. www.imdb.com/title/tt2187...

Things I want in 2025: - Become a better person - Lose weight - No alcohol all year - Find a good new job I haven't had anything to drink so far, so that is going.

27 years later and I still dream of school sometimes...

2024 had some nice moments, but overall it was pretty bad for me. Not that I expect magic to happen only because the number changes, but gods - next year needs to be better. And so do I, so I will start with myself. Music: www.youtube.com/watch?v=hA_M...

Gonna get some rest today. Song for the day, one that reminds me that there's always a little light of hope left, even after everything seems to have ended or came crashing down. www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNBN...

A passage from the Tao that’s frequently worth revisiting.

Going back to bed early this morning helped, not feeling sick anymore. I hope it stays that way. Anyways, new song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGME...

Feeling slightly sick. Really don't want to be sick again...

Until the end of the year I want to post some of my favourite songs here. Songs that I can't usually play at VRC events. Songs that make me feel the feels. Like this one: cold, but dreamy. Telling me that things are bad but I am still me, so there is hope. www.youtube.com/watch?v=NsqU...

Just found this while cleaning up some old folders on my pc. Still hits home, maybe more than ever.

Last pizza before the Christmas feast and the strict diet that will follow after.

Now that I am fully recovered, it is time for the inevitable christmas gift shopping, which will commence tomorrow morning and includes a long walk and as little contact with people as possible. Also need food and beverages for the days and a couple of beers for hanging out with a friend on Sunday.

I made turkey wings for my mom today. The wings turned out really well. I'm not a good cook, but a few things I get just right.

Had hopes I would feel better by now, but the last two days I've been getting worse again. Would be nice if I could at least sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time... *sigh* Really need to work on my health if a mere cold (tests negative for other) gets me like that.

After being quite sick for 3 days, I was finally feeling good enough again to go outside, buy food and meds. Feels good. Small steps though. Tomorrow I'll try a longer walk.

Might just be the fever ❤️ www.asofterworld.com

I feel like I have recently dropped the ball on becoming a better person. I will try harder.

Going to spend some time with my sister today rather than djing early and being in zombie mode all day. Some things are more important. Speaking of my lil' sis, please do check out her Insta page, she is really cool and would love some international visitors. Thanks! www.instagram.com/tackle_uschi/

"I wonder where I'll find myself once the tears have run dry and I can see clearly again."

Thought for the week. asofterworld.com

My nap turned into a 7 hour sleep. Didn't know I was this tired until I just let go, no alarm set. I feel a little better now, but I also realized that I have more recovery to do. The past months have been physically and emotionally draining. Hope you all had a relaxing Sunday as well.

Thought for the weekend. www.asofterworld.com

I've decided to make this site my personal place and keep the VR DJing and gaming on the other site. This place feels nicer and the block here is still a block, so I'll be posting things I like, things I think, and things that matter to me here. Lewd stuff gets blocked.

I love autumn. But some of the hardest times in my life happened in autumn, so these memories come back and I go through depression. Like I have the past few weeks. I am struggling, but I am fighting. Please forgive me if I am a little unfiltered or negative right now. Better times are ahead.

Movie suggestion (if you can stomach body horror movies): The Substance Probably my movie of the year, if not more. Watching it, I learned that it is better to age gracefully than to force the past back into the present. Oh, and uh...eat anything before watching. 😅 www.imdb.com/title/tt1752...

Übrigens... Heute beginnt die Asexual Awareness Week (Ace Week). Für mich Anlass darauf hinzuweisen, dass wir existieren. Das asexuelle Spektrum steht gleichberechtigt mit anderen (allo-)sexuellen Lebensweisen. Und gehört somit unter den LGBTQIA+ Schirm. (Bild: Netzfund)

Hallo Himmel! Zur Begrüßung etwas Musik: www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mzE...