god dammit i was doing so well too

christ... win brought a whole box of my shit up to my room (even though i'm not moving out?? just LEAVE IT???) And i completely forgot how tf to make a bow i've been making for literal days on end

al woke up from a dead sleep and goes "no no no it's fine, it's fine don't worry" so i'm like "what?" and he goes "yknow, the bears. The ones down there" so i ask him "where? like downstairs?" and he waves his hand dismissively and goes "no, down there nowhere."

cool. so. sleep meds (ambien), melatonin, MORE melatonin, 1mg of xanax, and like a million weed pen hits and im still wide fuckin awake

"headache" ....right.

literally cannot wait for al to come to bed so i can curl up on his chest and sleep

...holy shit, i think im in subdrop.

always with the SHITTIEST TIMING

things that make me borderline homicidal that are 100% avoidable: leaving cabinet doors open and the pantry open

cmon ed get your fuckin' head together

i'm lowkey having a flare day and i hate it

i'm in agony god dammit

always so content and ready to cuddle and eat as soon as he's done fucking the soul right out my pussy

i spent all day with him and the 2 hours he was gone i spent moping cause i missed him

new rule: al has to get off first because if he makes me get off, i'm too sleepy after

just sent al an excerpt of the most filthy porn scene i've ever written

al bought cat lollipops for all the cats i'm —

introduce yourself with 5 concerts you've seen! - My Chemical Romance (x4!) - New Found Glory - TWRP - Green Day - Protomen

i bet he'd happily watch roman holiday and breakfast at tiffany's and charade with me

my brother sat there and watched die hard with me and even laughed out loud at some of it and didn't once put it down or state his dislike of that kind of movie. wild

today is a struggle man

i'd love one day without a kick between the eyes please

where is my brotherrrr

why tf am i about to have a panic attack

i feel so sick

win's dog barks and scared the shit outta al, and it stopped his hiccups in their tracks

my brother's cat loves him so much it's actually sickeningly cute

trying to shake this weird mood and it's not happening

this is turning into a flare day rapidly

my shoulders hurt so bad that it's making me grind my teeth ughhhhHHHhhh

too many typos in last tweet. I know if should reciprocate but al fucked me into soft and sleepy mode and I can barely keep my eyes open

things not on my bingo card for 2025: my ex from 15 years ago apologizing to me of his own volition for being a tool

meant to do like half a dozen things and wound up paralyzed in a spiral

i'm... kinda excited for decorating for christmas? it's been a few years since i've felt this way

#FMA Elric Brothers❤️

gotta get my blood pressure done for my intake appt but i've been so stressed out and low on sleep and not eating well so im worried it'll be fucked no matter what

i am unbearably nauseous

almost crashed tf out at 430 am because i couldn't find my vape

al is such a shit, dissing on white bread like some rich asshole, you know and i know we're both fuckin broke shut up 😂

imagine pissing my brother off before he's had coffee

he's just sitting here letting me watch my comfort videos without complaining once

just watched al crash out trying to figure out the gas pump, and i told him "we're in jersey" and he was like "yeah" FORGETTING AFTER LIVING HERE FOR 8 YEARA THAT THEY PUMP IT FOR YOU

just.. why did you have to do this to me though????

absolutely fucked that i'm destroyed and she's laughing and in great spirits and trying to hang out with me like we didn't just end a 5 year relationship

i wish i could just be an asshole about this. i wish i could defend myself more. i wish i could be more selfish. i wish this wasn't so complicated. i wish i didn't care. i wish i cared more. i wish i could take back a lot of things. i wish i said more when i had the chance about what was on my mind.

i almost wish i'd hit the pavement just to focus on actual pain and not this

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