Meyer lemon and cream yogurt with cherry brown sugar granola.. to top of the night as well

Ending the night with: Meatballs

So many mothers days ago i got my ex a pink pearl baby apple tree. Instead of listening to the gardeners advice of keeping it in the box it grew from to keep it small, she planted it in some shitty toxic soil in our back patio. It never bloomed or grew an apple.

Tonight's movie: The Witch

After a mid afternoon nap, some dinner and the delivery of a nice little gift package from @libbym-785.bsky.social I'm feeling much better. 😊

I am insignificant. I could die today and know one would care because they loved me. They would only care because it would make their lives more difficult. And those that never really cared would forget me.

I have always had this weird feeling that i missed 10 years of my life. Like I'm actually 53 instead of 43. As if my mind was erased and i started over. I had that feeling since i was an early teen. It intensified in my early 20s, when i started losing my hair and going grey. Something was lost.

My dream last night was about trying to get sleep, but my cousins and their friends kept entering my room and talking as if i wasn't there, waking me up every time. I would tell them to please leave. And go back to sleep. Happened several times in the dream.

Honestly rate yourself Looks: 3/10 Creativity: 5/10 Humor: 7/10 Mental Health: 1/10 Empathy: 9/10 Patience: 9/10 Social Skills: 3/10 Memory: 5/10

Late night PB&J...mmmm....🤤

Do any of you gals cycle progesteroni to mimic the menstrual cycle? Like i just heard on a podcast that it's better for boob growth than just taking it every day which makes your body just get used to it.

The first three episodes of X-Men 97 season 2 were really good. I want to see more X-Force... I dig the new intro for X-Force. Yeah!!

Yo!! X-Force 97! Ha! So here for this.

I'm about to fall asleep after eating some lunch and drinking my cold brew coffee. Caffeine is my new sleep-aid.

Today is so quiet compared to yesterday. It's nice.

I'm 4 years old today. 4 years of HRT. 4 years of being my true self. I hope I can continue to grow into Nikki fully. I still really need to get my ears pierced, start back up my request for electrolysis and orchi.

Tonight's movie shall be: The Lost Boys I got to get myself back to the Santa Cruz Beach boardwalk one of these days.

Don't forget to take your meds. Pop that progesteroni in yah body. Whichever method works for you. Don't forget to fill up your weekly pill box. It's important that you keep track. Thank you, that was my important message for the night.

Died at world 5-4 decided to not continue. So onto Super Mario Bros 2!

Late night Mario is how I used to play video games when I was young. It was always a hot summer night, me and my brother would play in a small room on the side of the house with the door open. You would just see dark outside. And we'd play Mario 1, Mario 2, Donkey Kong, Donkey Kong Jr.

You got to love all the dipshits setting off fireworks tonight last night this week. Hope they get caught. When there's a zero tolerance policy and it's illegal in our county due to fire safety. Maybe some idiots will blow their hand off.

Who wants to play some Simpsons arcade with me on my SNES classic?

Anyways, I hope you all have a great fucking 4th of July. I see no reason to celebrate America as a Christian Nation. Maybe next year will be better? I doubt they'll stop genocide, wars, religious persecution. Denial of science. Attacking people on streets for no reason other than their skin color.

Don't push your religion onto others. The kiddo and I found this in their backpack while we were cleaning it out for summer camp. Um hello! Their ex boyfriend slipped this in as a suprise. No longer their boyfriend because he tried to touch them inappropriately. They have sworn off boys for now.

Breakfast has been served. Lunch has been served. T-minus 4 hours until Dinner is served. Now is the time for the kiddo to hang out with their friend and burn some energy. Now is the time for me to watch a couple episodes of Sliders.

Patches changed and pills taken. Showered and dressed to stay home with the kiddo. I have no idea if their mother is picking them up. Because that was not communicated ever. Who has a problem communicating? That's right, she does. Anyways it's about time to text her to ask if or when she is coming.

I hope everyone has a good weekend. Be it celebrating 4th of July. Setting off fireworks and barbecuing or hanging out with friends and chosen family or staying home and being pissed at fireworks. Either way, I hope you all can have a relaxing or good or fun weekend.

Sliders tonight! youtu.be/yRDtScRnk2c?...

Well... The kiddo is back for the night after a brief stay with my ex their mother. I guess her time with her kid is better spent doing adult things like hanging out with friends and drinking. So I have some unexpected extra time with my kiddo before they go to camp. Oh well, her loss.

Dinner shall be pancakes and eggs. Lots of maple syrup. Too bad the kiddo is gone... Wait more for me! 🥞🍳

Images worky? Today's fit for just going out to the Walmart neighborhood market. Gots to get bread, milk, snacks... U know essentials.

I want to eat food so instead I just got a glass of water

It took me till now to shave..... 915pm. I finally couldn't stand the grey hairs on my under chin and neck poking me.

Lets see how many red hots i can suck on before my tongue gives out. I have 2 boxes.

Not enough people like this so it'll be up through the end of today and then it's taken down. Unless you can give me a reason to keep it up.

Blah blah blah.. another night twirling my hair all over my head, watching movies and making sure the kiddo goes to bed. Actually they came into my room to fall asleep tonight. 😞😣

Anyways... Tonights Movie: Clockwatchers

I'm dead inside. Cuz im the sucka!

Took an everything shower, new patches applied. Progesteroni and other pills taken. Put the box fan in the window to pump cold air in. I'm ready to just watch some next generation.

Check in at work in person. Picked up my other prescriptions now making hot dogs.

Like Aca-scuse me? Aca-Akward...🫠. Les-be honest here, I think it might be time to do a rewatch of Pitch Perfect later today.

Now that pride month is basically over. I got to say that this year's pride has been the most alone i have ever felt. After having such good feelings from previous pride events and then this year's pride where no one i knew showed up. Just me and the kiddo and a whole bunch of strangers.

Tonight's movie: The Changeling (1980)

This evening the Kiddo got to go to the local park with their friend to meet up with 2 more friends. No adults. They were told to keep in contact and they did. This was the first time. I was super nervous. As time passes I'm going to have to get used to them being a responsible little person.

Oh gosh....my kids friend saw their friends and now there are 4 kiddos sitting in a circle chatting in front of my door..... Please don't ask to come in. My place is a mess...😣.

Once again letting the dead milkmen remind " there are others, and then there is myself"

I was in the middle of getting dressed and forgot, because i checked 1 thing on my phone. So 30 minutes later I'm sitting on my bed, socks, shorts and bra and it finally dawned on me. So obviously i took the time to take a pic.

Fuck! Freaking firework that sound like a fucking bomb just went off. Oh I can't wait till July 4th is over and done. It's just going to get worse throughout the week.