i'd actually be unstoppable with a steam deck i fear !! they are too expensive for me but omg i'd love to play some of my fav steam games handheld! esp. in bed hehe 🤭

writing out my packing list etc. is actually helping regulate me SO much for my trip !! still anxious bc travelling with ✨dissociation✨ is a journey but feeling the confidence grow! + i get to see my absolute bestie @cosylinde.bsky.social !!

i fear im the only one who not only doesn't like wicked but finds it unbearable??

incredibly excited to announce that i've been shortlisted for 7 categories for the @thedc3.bsky.social disabled creator awards! 🥹 thank you so much to all who nominated me! any votes appreciated so much! voting ends 30th nov! forms.gle/6R3k9XEu26tY... organised by @hummingmints.bsky.social

today could have ended in a bit of a meltdown but it did not !! kept my brain busy with gaming, friends + crafts 🫶🏻 feeling a lot more confident in my ability to breathe, process + accept the situation for what it is! + learning ways to help regulate myself ❤️‍🩹

happy timezones! spent the day playing peak w/ @cosylinde.bsky.social + @tomahoop.bsky.social ! ⛰️🚩

incredibly proud of myself for doing lots of palia plot decorating this evening! made a lil chill garden hang out/bar area + a barn! 🍹🌾 #palia @playpalia.com

tysm for the lovely palia stream~! we had a nice relaxing time doing some weeklies + yapping at the maji market! big thanks for the raids, re-subbies, bitties + a hype train! y'all are the kindest souls 🥹😭

we woke up mega anxious >:( but we still gonna have fun in palia! come hang out? 👉🏻👈🏻🥹 ⤷ twitch.tv/flynntheseal

super excited to announce that i'll be participating in #jinglejam this year !! ✨ last year i was unfortunately too unwell to join in on the fundraising but this year i'm going to be able to! we'll be fundraising for CALM 1st - 14th december! @jinglejam.co.uk

casually woke up insanely panicky 🤪 i think hormone fluctuations are deffo causing this in a biiiiiig way

i think I have PMDD and i think its reached a point where i need to ask for help 😔 i dont feel like myself and every month the symptoms intensify im scared of being ignored though

made a new bluesky account for completely unfiltered yaps, vents etc. just a place for me to offload all the big thoughts + express myself separate to here <3 @flynnsthoughts.bsky.social

back from spending time with my friend! ✨ had a very nice time mooching around shops, having good food + hanging out! now we back to the grind 😤 no streamies today cos i'm too tired but hopefully tomorrow! + omg next week i'm off to the netherlands?? i'm legit such a brave traveller girly? 🌷

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bl**d test results are back! everything looking okay + vitamin D levels are creeping up but i have suspicious levels of inflammation in my body 🥹 they're not sure what it could be but likely a lurking underlying condition ~ eek??

nearly time for my bl**d test! nerves have very much kicked in! also chugging water on an empty stomach is actually not fun it makes me so nauseous? wish me luck 🫶🏻

going to be pretty inactive most of this week bc a friend is coming to stay !! so do me a solid + keep visiting my shop's website! 🫶🏻🦭 i rely 100% on myself to drive traffic to my shop so pls just spend a few seconds clicking the link + helping me out a bit! 🔗: sillyseal.co.uk #smallbusiness

another bl**d test tomorrow to try to determine ✨what the fuck is wrong with my body✨ scared but also just want answers !!

was researching if private adhd medication titration was possible...yes it is but it is ASTRONOMICALLY expensive omg ;w; the place that diagnosed me told me to not expect medication "any time soon" 🤡 why does everything cost so much?! i just wanna live not just survive!

happy timezones! my brain is scrambled af atm and i just can't settle on anything for more than like 2 minutes at a time 😅 have gotten out a tyranid mini to maybe at least base coat today but we'll see! my friend is coming tomorrow + i'm so excited to finally have THINGS TO DO! 🥳

genuinely so proud of myself for not getting frustrated + giving up! i'm loving how my garden, bathroom + bedroom are looking!

what do y'all look for in a good discord server? mine isn't very active which is fine but i'd like to make it more of a place people feel inclined to be active if that makes sense? i try my best w/ movie nights, question of the days etc. + chatting but looking for other [low spoon] suggestions!

barely slept so got up at like 1pm 🥱 was very much needed though! always struggle to know how to fill my time on weekends but i think i'll try finish my halloween-y warhammer mini + maybe start on a tyranid one if my focus allows it 🎨🖌️ any plans for today friends?

was asked about whether i'd be having a bday section on my throne this year so i thought i'd make one! NO obligation to send anything! will likely also have a kudoboard/similar for ppl to send msgs if they would like! ♡ gifts will be opened on stream ♡ throne.com/flynntheseal... @throne.com

so close ;w; but at least i got the mummy outfit! 🫶🏻

as y'all can probably gather, my brain is mean to me A LOT ;w; and i know that sometimes it probably seems like all i do is feel sad or vent ~ (true at times) but it is not ALL of me. y'all have shown me such love in both the good + bad times. it means a lot to know every part of me is accepted ❤️‍🩹

it's raining on our town's firework display !! karma !! fireworks are evil !! our kitties are petrified 🥹

🔴 LIVE NOW Today we're playing a new game called ILA: A Frosty Glide. We're a witch in training looking for our beloved lost cat Coco in a magical world. We were kindly gifted a key of the game through Lurkit by @magicrainstudios.bsky.social and I'm very excited to play! ↪️ twitch.tv/cosylinde

feeling incredibly insecure about my streams atm friends so pls bear with !! my brain is convincing me that i should quit + i'll never "make it" and achieve my dreams/goals ;w; i feel desperately bad i'm not in more of ur streams i know im not a good supporter :'( i try my best but it's not enough

ty for the support today on stream ! forgot to take any screenshots cos im silly 🤭 but i started to build a lil cottage! on the days where i just feel like i'm never gonna "make it" y'all are there to pick me up + tell the mean brain goblins to go away! 🫶🏻 ilysm

🌼 cozy new minecraft world 🌼 live now ⇢ twitch.tv/flynntheseal (pls come or this image will haunt u forever)

decided to stream today! feeling eepy as per but less so than usual which is good! we'll be starting a brand new mc world w/ the lovely mizuno's 16 craft pack ~ one of my all time favs! ♡ hope to see y'all there! 🥹

thinking of starting a new mizunos world in minecraft 👀 forgot how pretty the textures are 😭

made SO much progress this evening in my stardew save! ✅ harvey is now my bf !! ✅ i have a cute new horse named chai ✅ i finished a few bundles 🗑️ I GOT THE TRASH CAN HAT !!

made my first ever commission on the clock app !!! weeee !! i'm so happy + a lil shocked tbh! it'll be a while before a payout but this is a step in the right direction! if you wanna have a lil look: www.tiktok.com/@flynntheseal (showcase only available on mobile app)

making an income from streaming has been hard for the past ~year and i mostly don't make my payouts anymore so if you'd like to help me support myself then i'd appreciate it so so much! 🦭 i don't advertise my kofi much but if you'd like to help you can do here: ko-fi.com/flynntheseal... 🫶🏻 #promosk

painting a miniature winter village ❄️⛄ really fighting against my adhd urge to just rot on tiktok 🤭

the reality of having your own website and not etsy etc. is that if you don't post about your website no one will visit it ;w; i've been feeling not great the past few days so haven't posted here. pls help me out by visiting the website! 🫶🏻 i'm really struggling ❤️‍🩹 sillyseal.co.uk #smallbusiness

no stream today bc frankly i simply do not feel like it 🤷🏻‍♀️ it do be like that sometimes!

how do ppl have energy to like do things everyday? like...how? oh to be an energy-filled neurotypical! happy timezones friends! any plans for today? 🍂

very much enjoyed spending the evening w/ my pals playing the new peak update !! good job @aggrocrabgames.bsky.social it is so much fun! 🌲🧟‍♀️🕸️ @tomahoop.bsky.social @cosylinde.bsky.social @kilarakaito.bsky.social

tysm for the support today! we managed over 2 hours so i'm pretty proud of myself hehe! 🫶🏻 tysm for the raids, re-subbies + follows!

🍂 did someone say fall fantasyyyyy? 🍂 me: 1 fatigue 0 come hang out! ⤷ twitch.tv/flynntheseal

happy timezones! collapsed into bed last night and it didn't quite take me as long to pass out so that's a small win but i feel exhausted still 🤭 going to stream today even if i'm a lil quiet cos i wanna check out the new palia update so bad !!! + i miss y'all ;w; will be live ~1pm but we'll see

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it's nearly been 21 weeks since i started my wait for high intensity therapy ;w; i was told it would take MAX 16 weeks bc i was already in the system from low intensity. i know ppl wait A LOT longer but i wish you didn't get promised something :( im hanging on by a thread 😣😔

never been closer to bursting into tears over sheer exhaustion 😔 this is no way to live !!

happy timezones friends! i am absolutely exhausted 😴 the last few days have been really rough w/ terrible fatigue + my adhd symptoms have been really intense and i cannot focus on anything at all ;w; i don't think i can stream today i'd planned to but my i cant get my brain to settle 🥹

today has been a semi-relentless battering from my terrible fatigue (+ a lil bit of our ol' friend depression too)! hoping that i'll feel better tmoro + able/motivated to stream 🫶🏻 also praying to the cycle gods for this luteal phase to be OVER thank you 🙏🏻