OH DEAR GOD i take that back lmao I just had one of the most horrifying nightmares I've ever had 😭

the melatonin hasn't given me any crazy dreams yet. lowkey disappointing

Objects of desire... The Divers 2000 CX-1 Dreamcast + TV combi, with network capabilities and DreamEye digital camera. Co-developed by Sega, CSK, and Fuji, it had a tiny production run, numbering just two hundred. The remote is essential as it's the only way to switch it into DC mode.

my brother and I were talking about roblox in front of my parents and my avatar was brought up, which eventually led to me being forced to try and explain dubstepiroth to my mom, who does not know anything about dubstep or final fantasy

I for one am excited for 70 degree Christmas

one winged angel jersey club remix was maybe not the thing to listen to before trying to go back to sleep

if I had a nickel for every time I took a university class with a scheduled (i.e. in the syllabus) discussion about yaoi, I'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot but etc. etc.

I don't understand the allure of synth v & other hyper-realistic vocal synths. what is even the point if the vocal synths aren't slightly fucked up sounding gay robots :( their inhumanity is what makes them special and, dare I say it, probably what makes them resonate with so many queer & nd ppl....

I found the credits song I made for my ff7 fan visual novel and it features the lyrics "square enix please don't send me a cease and desist / I worked really hard on this game / I'm sorry for being stupid and gay / but the worms have eaten most of my brain" lmao

it's the middle of the night and I just woke up starving for no apparent reason and then ate 4 questionable microwave tacos. maybe I will eat more. what is even going on with me rn am I like severely malnourished or something 😭

WHY can't logic x use vsts. I am done being bound by audio units! All the good weird plugins are vsts!! I want to make music with some bullshit that looks like this!!!

was inspired to make a 2025 version of this, lmao

self portraits in different mediums/styles (the ones where I have longer hair are most recent)

Adam: in the original clip, we can see the crab fly through the air and hit hbox, but its not quite clear how fast it was going. While we certainly can get a ballpark range we won’t be able to be too precise. Jamie: maybe we need to throw some crabs of our own to get data

had a really bizarre and borderline spiritual experience last night after taking one of my unregulated delta 9 hemp concentrate gummies where I felt really warm and happy and then suddenly I just stopped dissociating entirely. everything was suddenly so clear and it was so intense I started crying

feeling very affirmed by the fact that my friend thought I was doing a bit yesterday when I said I was a virgin 😭 (tears in my eyes) maybe I AM cool :')

I realized last night that I've never posted my childhood bedroom on here. It kind of blew up on Pinterest lol, I'm still getting comments to this day even though the post is 4-5 years old 😭

last night I drove four people home from the bar and the heat in my car started making this horrible screeching noise and then stopped working like minutes after we left 💀

I think the part of my brain that handles my sense of identity maybe looks like this area that I call "the ff7 dissociation room" minus the part where there's a beautiful muscular woman trying to piece back together the fragmented pieces of my psyche

I did it! I cleaned my unholy depression bathroom!! there is no longer some sort of deeply distressing chemical reaction happening in every other drawer!!! now I have to finish cleaning my room though. I've been cleaning shit for like 2 days now 👎👎👎 le sigh or whatever

waterfox was super easy to switch to! It's a Firefox fork so you can just log into your Firefox account and have all your bookmarks transfered. still had to reinstall all my extensions though 👎

I still would not call it "clean" but I have cleared a path through my room and gotten rid of the trash and dishes!! yaaaaaay

firefox...why.... :'(

listen there are many ppl I love who try to send me short form video content & I understand their intentions are pure. but I will use any excuse I have to not look at tiktok or instagram. or twitter for that matter. my quality of life has improved drastically since deleting the apps from my phone

storing your art supplies in a sex toy box is a really funny bit until you want to go and draw somewhere that isn't just your house or your friend's house

man we're really all just going through it rn aren't we. I feel like half the people I know are in a pretty dark place & I'm not doing too awesome either tbh. sending lots of love to everyone especially all my fellow trans folk dealing with depression rn 💗

I am experiencing the worst executive dysfunction for seemingly no reason at all. like I actually can't do ANYTHING. every time I try to have a thought it feels like there is a swarm of bees trying to escape from inside my brain 👎👎👎

this is quite possibly the worst video I've ever made. it feels like it's trying to hurt you (huge seizure warning)

Ben just said "if Harry Styles was on my lawn eating my grass, I'd shake my fist at him! I'd tell him to get off my lawn!!!"

I think I just mostly finished a song I was really struggling with revising by violently attacking it with my evil earthbound-inspired wackification beam. sometimes you just have to make the bass really silly

just woke up ♡ happy 3 p.m. morning everyone 🥰

if you know me irl, you may recall my video "Get Raw: The Quest For Art." this is a remaster of that video which has refined editing, extra scenes, and the original ending that I had to cut for time

im making a video

I fear I am addicted to videos. please send me good videos to watch so I can stop watching hours of youtube videos that I dont care about at all 😭

this shirt my cousin made (using my art and caption lmao) when we played jackbox still absolutely kills me

tuxpaint girl sephiroth. she is healing and doing okay and has never burned down anyone's house ♡

I was very stoned last night and this picture I made of my friends' cats lined up with each other felt like the world's most profound discovery

BREAKING NEWS: Gen Z say they want Red 40 BACK on store shelves! No more "hard drives" and "downloads" -- they want the REAL DEAL!!! #physicalmedia

apparently yesterday was the 5 year anniversary of my roommate finding poe in his garage...happy poeniversary everyone....

I think a lot about this review I wrote after I watched ff7 advent children stoned out of my mind

can we maybe skip december just this once. and january and february also if that's not too much to ask

revenge of the sunfish is awesome I can't believe this game is real

I just clicked on a very legitimate-looking link that was supposedly for free vital sounds and was directed to a bizarrely eye-straining Chinese porn website that looked as though it had not been updated since the 90s

Not a single major news outlet has covered this story. There is such a blatant, obvious attempt to suppress any and all news that deals with the actual facts about transgender life and experience. As the government rolls back our rights on an unprecedented scale, we have been left out to dry.

bringing this tweet from my old bullshit account back for today

the other day my housemate asked me "which final fantasy is the one with gackt in it" and I was like. wow. what an awesome sentence

I re-mixed and mastered some of my songs yesterday and they actually sound pretty good mixing-wise as far as I can tell??? there are still a few small changes I need to make but I'm starting to think I'll finish my album within the month

disappointed that game devs are bringing back ps1 and ps2 era graphics without also bringing back fmv cutscenes in wildly different artstyles

ok I think the perspective on his cursed Human Hand is slightly better now #thejoyofcollageart