is it pee? am i just a bit moist? is it regular discharge? is it from healing tissue? is it part of the betadine douche i have to do three fucking times a day until im leaving amber colored footprints on every bathmat in my room? who knows!!

they call me mrs icefanny the way i be uuhh yeah icing my fanny i guess

i have experienced so many varieties of discharge in the last 12 days it's like a whole new frontier of experiences

Which one would you prefer as a print? 🤔 I kinda like both, I feel like the red one might be too intense but then again is the light one just boring? 😭 HELP ME!! #art #furry

Sketch of another reference in making for the comic ------ #innomine #furryart #sketch

you know the concentration of euros, aussies, and *groan* british people here is really high because they've got me back to saying "mum" and "fanny" seamlessly, im even starting to think in celsius and measure in centimeters. horrible.

wings zabb, icepack on me fanny, pineapple juice, derry girls, it's like vacation. just that i shove a hard acrylic rod in myself every 6-8 hours 🥰

The good doctor's assistant has been known to knock over a flask or two to get his attention. After all, he's said to be quite tied to his work. 💦🪢 For DrGravitas, thank you again! <3

still can't have horny thoughts so view so my nsfw retweets as coming from a place of deep zen and inner peace

Hey, you, you're finally awake - #darkart #digitalart #illustration #horrorart

More progress. Looking forward to making her hair piece~ ·· ─ ·✶· ─ · · ✄ #fursuit #furryart #fursuitmaker

definitely reaching a phase of healing where I Can See The Vision. now if only swelling and bruising and such didn't take another 5.5mos to resolve 😭

*clawing face off* only 42 more days of dilating three times a day it's fine im fine

i've had several conversations recounted to me that i don't remember because of [hospital drugs] and the best one is that apparently i was bitching how people described their day 1 looks at their genitalia as "elven" and "divine feminine" by saying mine instead looks "like a punched ham"

95% of the people i meet here coming to this clinic for the surgery or to support people getting the surgery are the most excellent awesome kind people but the other 5% is uhhhhhhh

getting jealous of my bff here because the nurses have called her result "pretty" more than once now but all i get is "very good, yes" after the ol "spread em" and flashlight check we all get each morning

our hotel is going hardcore on decorating for chinese new year, in the span of two hours they've somehow covered the entire lobby in more red paper lanterns than ive ever seen before

derry girls has to be one of the sitcoms of all time for all time

i wake up. i drink coffee. i dilate. i go to breakfast then i rest for a few hours. i dilate. i rest again. i eat a meal. i dilate. i sleep. i wake. i drink coffee. i di-

Saw them at their nastiest

okay waking up at 6am to fit in my first morning dilation at 8am (gotta let meds and coffee kick in), all so I have time then for my 2pm, followed by my 8pm, is starting to kick my ass a bit mentally already😭

well, things already look good enough to tease oakley with so that's feeling pretty good for only being two weeks out 🥰

the three arrows of dilation: daily, duty, do it

it is unreal to get brief sensory glimpses of what my body can now provide me from my new anatomy but also being entirely forbidden from chasing that rabbit. like i feel like im being vastly crude for a woman on main but jesus CHRIST, here i lay again clenching my thighs and applying an icepack

cool fox 🦊🍒🏍

Has anyone dealt with requesting accommodation from Japan Airlines/JAL before? I'll be needing wheelchair transport between gates (I can walk, but not airport terminal distances) - but even more ideally I'll want to find a private room with bed and shower for a quick dilation. Is that even possible?

i am always very cautious about benzos but i still got Pavlov'd into being ready for my super sleep at 9pm when the nice wonderful nurse made her rounds to deliver that sweet klonopin

we keep on grinding (just don't ask where)

im recovering faster and better than i expected, my results are better than i had let myself hope on all metrics, but also im becoming more aware of how much work lies ahead of me every day. there's a lurking titan on the horizon

see: Annapurna Interactive www.pcgamer.com/gaming-indus...

one of the things that makes this hotel 1000% more tolerable and nice to be in is the room service menu, i just ordered massaman curry that's among the best thai curries ive ever had. yesterday i got a club sandwich and it was easily top 5 of those!! thank god for this kitchen

the journey is getting harder lol... i'm still doing quite well, but now that i'm moving and doing things stuff looks uhhh... less great. and i'm so tired all the time. dilation is an exhausting experience but im just taking it step by step. and at some point i won't have to do it at all!

nurse complimented my pee btw 👍 you could say im a pro pisser

dude i feel so good in my body now. i didn't have the painful dysphoria some women do around their genitalia pre-op, just a nagging sense it wasn't ideal. but dilating today and seeing myself nude out of the shower is like the biggest hit of dopamine in the world.

DON'T BE DUMB

did my first dilation successfully, packing all removed, i just need to conquer this final pee and I can be discharged from hospital in a few hours 🎉

if you want proof of telegram stickers and the like as an ultimate communication medium, i made good friends with a nurse here (one who taught me Thai every day), and we added each other on Line which is like Thai WhatsApp ( EVERYONE is on it). I am going to learn Thai script and be pen pals w her🥺

there's a nurse here with little kids who's been around helping me a lot, and who ive joked back and forth with, and she's taught me one new Thai word or phrase every time I see her and I am going to cry so much saying goodbye to her in a few hours 😭

still thinking about Thai KFC. wingz zabb was a transformative experience. the Thai can never be said to be afraid of flavor and i love them for it

this is for me except i'm all parts of this one at once

a condition my surgeon ground into my skull repeatedly is that I am not allowed any sexual or libidinous thoughts for two months, as the tissue he moves and preserves to emulate the erectile element of the clitoral bulb can pop stitches. this makes going online a game of fast scrolling

after 5 days of morphine brainfog finally restarting my vyvanse is hitting like straight up amphetamines. i'm on some limitless shit right now.

worst things about my hospital stay: - the dreadful, abysmal, and horrifying hospital "food" - no pooping for seven days - never enough coldpacks - an AC system that sometimes decides you should experience true cold at 4am

Your ride's here! 🐕

for any other trans mutuals interested in major surgery like bottom surgery and similar, i have created a telegram group where i will be posting some photos of my results as they heal and change: if you are interested in that, message me here or on telegram

also if i have to eat hospital food one more time im going to absolutely fucking lose it man

day 5! one more full day to go... i got to walk to my first shower today, which made me feel like an unsteady wobbly foal. also my cooch is just open to the air, only occasionally smothered in ice packs so that's been... interesting

made this my phone background because bumblebee hemlock makes everything better :))

i get to shower and wash my hair for the first time in six days today!! yippee!