im so sorry that this didn't happen. im dealing with a massive heatwave, got a job and am going through one of the darkest times of my life. i keep writing notes and discarding them, writing them again, s*lf h*rming, thinking of ways to end it. im sorry. im so ashamed. im so so sorry

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i'm not ignoring anyone on purpose! i have very little energy and will get back to everyone soon ><

i'm almost ready to come back, almost ready with the chapter... just need more me time

especially after the first swim of the season, the sea was so soft

we made st john's water with rose petals, lavender and rosemary left outside to moonbathe. i was lovely and refreshing

been mia because everything happens so much

sleep the sun away

rainy night

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maybe on shuake meeting day? but thanks to lyrica and sye i found a way out of this

cottontail will definitely update this month 🤍🐇

happy birthday gorochan 🩷🩷🩷

my top search is "meteo roma" that's how bad it is

the thing with cottontail is that i have so many sweet scenes planned out and many more emotionally heavy ones that i want to write and i can't wait for people to read them... but i have to get past this block to write them. the second chapter is always the hardest

thank you for your answers! the decision will have to wait regardless because the heatwave is making it impossible to think and i have to wait for this holiday to pass so i can go to the library and take a good look at it... 🫠

night phone calls... night radio. so romantic. teetering between two dimensions. i want to be connected to you

it's so hard to be a phone call person in this world. i need you now. i love you and i want to tell you and hear from you now. i don't want to wait. i love you now. i want to hear your voice now

this blue moon in sagittarius... i've been in a meditative mood for a few days. rarely felt this calm before. i've seen with clarity what i'm set to do no matter what others might try to put in my mind. i'm feeling carefully hopeful.

ripple on stillwater

can't make polls here but i have an important questions about fics. if a fic starts with a word count of 10k~, and the second chapter is emotionally full but only around 5k, would you rather wait for a longer chapter or consider the chapter ready for publishing?

they loved it 💙🦋

i'm shifting from day to night full time because the heat is so painful i can only be awake at night

custom made for a daydreaming girl

can i just say i dont even want yaoi with that blonde creature

turned in my piece for the collective at 2:30am like a real writer

can someone fall in love with me i want a disaster of a summer

i was woken up so early and couldn't fall asleep and now i'm so sleepy but i still can't sleep

my jun... my flower boy...

jun merch please 🙇🏻‍♀️ don't leave tatsuya all alone

i'm still trying to find my footing in this fandom and i want this to be a place where i feel like im coming home to friends

i would just like to say that any time any of you replies to my posts a flower blooms in my heart

don't let yourself be hurt this time

couldn't go watch a movie because i had an anxiety attack on the way...

an ocean full of love

i was sleepy but the night is so sweet

cleaning my tuner at 6am

these sea salt peach candies have me in a chokehold

i so wish i could sleep but it's too early

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goodnight. goodnight goodnight goodnight. i hope i can sing tomorrow

i have to write my part of the collaborative piece for our writing collective but i shouldn't take too long... the chapter is so long that i could cut it like cake to make it sweet and easy to eat... then just editing... i could make it if my mind decides to collaborate

imagine if i managed to update cottontail for goro's birthday (delusional)

moongazing from my bed

i read dance dance dance over ten years ago. lately, i felt it calling to me and i think something in my gaze will change if i read it again

i could do a psychiatric medication bingo at this point

I'm so happy that I'm here talking with you again. Isn't this jazz club nice?