I should rewatch Neon Genesis Evangelion. How much more fucked up can my brain get at this point?

It amuses me sm that M@GA and religious people are upset by the orange buffoon portraying himself as Jesus. It was never a matter of “would he ever do that?” It was always a matter of “when” and “why’d it take him so long when he gets away with everything”

I’m feeling somewhat better but the fever’s back and I’m confused by what’s happened to my body

Eating fruit seems to be helping a bit. Watermelon, cantaloupe, and honeydew <3

What the hell kinda bug is this, iOS? Weirdo

Called out of work today because I can barely leave my bed, which is TRUE … but a day off is a day off 😏

This is why I don’t tell my mom anything bc she starts sending me shit like this and will spend all day trying to diagnose me

My body temp is normal, so why am I wearing layers and rocking back and forth? 🤨

Woke up @ 4am with body aches and chills, aka one of the best ways to start the day

I ate more than I needed to tonight and all I wanna do is pvke 🥀

I wish happiness was a constant state of being

I’m starting to feel the kind of depressive episode where I’m chill about it because it’s unavoidable but it’s also temporary

It was a blind box item and I got the exact one I wanted 🩵🏳️‍⚧️

Thank you all for being my moots but more importantly thank you for just existing. Continue being you in a world filled with hate and ignorance 💕

I ate this tiny cup of ice cream but I don’t think I needed to so why did I eat it :/

TMI but my therapist says I might have vaginismus based on symptoms I’ve been experiencing with applying the gel treatment and I’m floored cuz WHY am I hearing about this NOW

Therapy was emotionally draining so… there goes the last bit of normalcy I had to get thru today <\3

I donated some unused/new journals and office supplies at my workplace last week, and I was surprised by how many people emailed to thank me. I didn’t do it for the praise though. I literally have too much stuff and didn’t want to waste it.

I miss Bad Bunny February 💔🇵🇷

Hey so, for those of you who don’t have adhd or who aren’t taking adhd meds rn, what do you do to manage your executive functioning issues and maintain focus/energy? I need all the help I can get so ty in advance if you have any suggestions 💜

How am I hot and freezing at the same time? Fuck ass weather

I’m gonna try something new with my therapist and see if making a list of fictional characters and songs to give to her will help explain the kind of shit I’m going through rn but can’t say out loud bc OCD x trauma. I hope she says yes.

Idk if I’m mentally strong enough to watch Euphoria S3 this early in the day but I might try

Lost 2 lbs since 3 days ago. Not binging, drinking less, and using ouid like once every other week does have its perks 😎

None of my alarms went off this morning. Thank god I don’t have anything important until late this afternoon but what the hell 😔

Rewatching that one American Dad episode to get triggered… iykyk

Not to be a pessimist, but April might not be my month. I feel like I burned through all my good fortune for the last 2 weeks and I have no one to blame but myself.

Here I was thinking what can I use my free time for. Then I remembered poetry exists and how much I love reading it but can barely find the time for it. So now I’m reading and collecting words/lines that inspire me so I can hopefully get back into writing new poems soon.

I fear my new hyperfixation is this work project which sounds good in theory but I still want to have fun and use my free time for literally anything non-work related. Idk what I’m doing anymore 🥴

This is sm tastier than I expected. 10/10 and 32g of protein 💕

Got my car washed and a pb protein yogurt bowl for breakfast. Happy Sunday y’all ☀️

I feel like something’s missing from my life and idk what it is exactly. At the end of every day I feel empty and unsatisfied. Like what is there to live for if I have no passion for anything?

Done with working, so now what? Work can’t be my entire life but it feels good to get things done.

Aside from family and moneh bs, I hope everyone’s having a good Saturday so far. I’m gonna try but the plan so far is: work today, errands/leisure time tomorrow, then rest/so whatever on Monday (day off)

I don’t have it in me to get a second job. Maybe something online or DoorDash which I despise enough already

Leave it up to my mom to return from her trip and already I hate being alive. She’s not even the problem. I just enjoy having time for myself and no one else.

I lost 5.2 lbs since last Thursday. Now if I can keep this up until summer, I’ll be unstoppable 💪🏼

For accountability purposes, I have to weight myself tomorrow before I have any water or food. I’ll even set a reminder. No more avoidance.

I make mistakes but I never made a “voted for Tr*mp 3 times” mistake

I like be idea of having an apartment, but I hate the idea of having roommates. Look at me stressing about something that won’t happen for another 1-2 years.

Can’t tell if I’m sleepy in a drowsy/time for bed sort of way or sleepy in a “my body can’t function bc my brain’s under maintenance and in sleep mode” kind of way

I like sleeping for the unconscious effect, but the dreams ruin the vibe

What if I keep working forever and then I just die because I won’t have energy to do anything else

She’s coming home a day early *sigh* after 12 hours of driving too. That’s crazy.

One more hour of work and then I have to make the most out of my last night before my mom and family drain my time and energy again

When people reach out to see how I’m doing and I have to hold myself back from being too enthusiastic or overly excited because wdym people think about ME at all. I thought I was invisible this whole time?!

Why am I nervous when nothing wrong is happening? Maybe it’s anticipation I’m experiencing, but for what?

I recognize most of these animals, but I’m guessing that’s a hippo on the far left, no?

Today’s my last day of freedom until my mom comes back from FL and smothers me again. She does so lovingly but I like being alone so much I might have to move further away.

It’s too cold to leave my bed but it’ll be high 80s/90°F all next week so I’m enjoying it while it lasts