Y: i need to make a Phone Call but i don't Want To 😔

🏹 had a brief nice mood boost and burst of energy after getting home from my walk but now it has collapsed into anxiety and aaaaaaaaaaaaa time to crash a little bit for a sec i think

🏹 successfully picked up my prescriptions and walked the whole way back! rumors of my demise were greatly exaggerated!

🌃 finally put my bedding in the wash like i've been meaning to do for Too Long™

🌃 good news: i didn't fall asleep until after 11 and didn't wake up until after 6 - we might be close to fixing our sleep schedule! bad news: sooo sleepy:(

🐌 realized it's probably been like 15 years since i've been in a hot tub it's not really important but. it's strange to realize the things we've missed out on. because of transphobia, because of mental illness, because of anxiety, because of x y z thing

🐌 feeling weird and isolated for unknown reasons i should maybe get out and stop isolating i def will tomorrow night but uh. maybe i should've tonight.

🪗 dark souls 2 is on sale 👀 but i must remain strong and act responsibly

🪗 a calzone would go hard rn

🪗 took a nap !

🏹 therapy was a lot today. we're doing the work. but doing the work is hard and draining

🛸 messed up sleep schedule (early sleep early wake variant) 😔

📡 reminder that this is our personal nsfw/mental health/OSDD alt! if you follow this you will see us talking about kinky sex and emotional breakdowns and all 14 alters and counting. if you don't wanna see that, please unfollow us! 💜

🏠 time to join a zoom meeting 🙃

📡 hard sensitive vulnerable day

🪗 reading the new chapter of wyffh pulled me to the front then made me sob like seven times and now i feel all fragile and sad and reflecting on what our early transition looked like and all the people who let teenage luna down

🐶 there are too many cool things and too many cool people and it's so hard to force myself to Actually Rest

how about walkable free-use urbanism

🐶 wait today is 3 months since we realized we're plural wtf how has it already been 3 months

🐶 oops maybe probably definitely pushed ourselves too hard this weekend

🐶 it has been a difficult 3 months and we have done a lot of great things and made a lot of progress in that time and we should be proud of ourselves but also it's hard not to feel isolated and broken and hopeless sometimes but we're trying !!!

🐶 i gotta do my injection tonight still oops

🐶 friends 🥰

🐶 i need a haircut

🐶 i think i might have a couple drinks tonight 👀

✉️ should prob find a way to get out and burn off some of this energy tbh feels like i'm just stewing in it all

✉️ angry angry angry don't really know how to process it all or work through it just pissed off

🛸 aaaaaaaaaaa what the frick

🍂 *balkanizes you*

✉️ good news: after getting a ridiculous amount of sleep, i no longer feel like my brain is a bunch of metaphorical glass shards cutting holes in the metaphorical trash bag that's attempting to contain them

system feeling like a Muppet Man youtu.be/0bPjUz9X8I8

going to fully turn off my phone and watch glass onion and eat and rest

my gf @slippstreamm.bsky.social trying to help me take care of myself: if i pay for you to get doordash would that be a gift you'd be fine taking? me, unsure who's fronting, checking in with my system: it's a hung jury Soph: all of them? 🥺

🏠 brain is not very functional today

🐶 intrusive thoughts 😬🙃

📡 brain weird but doing ok and feeling nice sometimes !

🐌 okay tomorrow i need to order a grocery delivery and pick up my meds and fill out a challenge and a code of conduct report about last week. please yell at us if we try to do anything else that's likely to cost us even more energy. the only other things we're allowed to do must be fun and restful

🐌 panic attack time

🏹 aaaaaaaa

🕰️ feeling the relentless and overwhelming sense of dread particularly intensely this morning

🛸 new alter map! this is how we're understanding our OSDD system at the moment, with our fifteen alters

🐶 the nice thing about plurality is i can get a team together for a heist without having to leave my room the mastermind 🏠 the young upstart 🛸 the old tired one coming back for one last job 🌃 the hot lady 🐙 the muscle ✉️ the autistic-coded one who's more competent than anyone else 📡 the dog 🐶

🐶 so sleepy and cozy and mind all melty goodnight bluesky sweet dreams

nervous system? so, they’re plural but they’re shy?

🕰️ fuck i'm so drained i feel hollow Mabel was just exhausted but i feel. um. not sure the words for it but. not good

🐌 i am so incredibly mentally exhausted

🐶 one cool thing about being plural is having so much in common with some of my favorite fictional characters who are also systems. moon knight, the guy from fight club, voltron, the catholic god, agnes nitt from discworld - there's so many great examples

🐶 less than 5 hours of sleep 🙃😴🙃

🐶 i am a lil very burnt out and have just been lying on the couch scrolling on my phone for a couple hours therapy tomorrow is gonna be very important and helpful i think

🐶 i wanna go on a road trip!!!!!