ocd will make you think things like “I am not allowed to miss people or call people my friends, because that’s manipulative. and I would be a bad person for that. so I shan’t” and actually believe it’s rational

loach?

loach?

I really gotta start x files…

ppl so often talk about concepts of romantic pining like its this dainty, purely sweet experience and I never knew what to make of it. yearning kinda feels like this to me

forgot I have partial face reveal sitting in my drafts

im back to running around trying to get everything sorted before the surgery date. so many emails, calls, and meetings back to back. so many ppl late for meetings, not listening to me, or are taking their sweet time. i am gods favorite errand boy in the same way a guard dog has a favorite mailman

do NOT drink the tron water, man….what the fuck is going on

tron sonas we out here eating bits

oh…dorg

thought about scarecrow and mrs king to something stupid and started thrashing against my confines. best indicator for if a pairings going to get to me

having a prolonged concussion is so fun. there’s a spot on the back on the back of my head where, if it’s touched any amount, i get dizzy and spaced out for the entire day. ouggghhhggg

still adjusting to how different my body looks compared to last year. joy [:

fuuuuck can’t let depression slow my productivity…get my pussy up….get my money up…

trying to eyeball poses a bit more. good lerd

fuuuuuck where am I

she let me hit because of my thin veneer of aloofness masking a desperate loneliness and the way my thighs look in booty shorts

(fists balled so tightly) i fucking love making playlists

I forget my art magma is still fully accessible online until a random person scares the fuck out of me lmaoo

letting it be my personality for the day

big day for autism and gender

holy shit just got the opportunity to maybe get something sorted out…up in the air rn but it’s a chance. you know it’s dire when the first good news in weeks makes me so overwhelmed, i feel nauseous

POST BRO

it’s a living

tron sona for the express purpose of hanging out with a bit

neurodivergent cycle of getting really excited by a topic then spending the next 24 hours thinking “i need to tone it down”

fuuuuuck where am I

bruv facial blindness is such a life ruiner. woman recognized me at the store and i was trying really hard not to show i had no clue who she was. took me hours of intense thinking but it finally hit me. she was my case manager for over a year. good christ

[nudity/implied] testing waters again (guy who is scared) I’m scared

what’s the consensus on tracing photos of ppl for posing w drawings? is that considered too reliant or is it a fuck if we ball attitude?

// personal feel a bit like a dog chasing its tail the way I’m still trying to negotiate w the hospital about getting the surgery asap…Idk I’m too stubborn, I feel like I need to absolutely exhaust every option before I can accept I wasted both my and other people’s time

fuck dude I miss him (bruce boxleitner)

wip fuuuuuck we push through

I dunnoooo

wip fuuuuuck we push through

too concussed to hold my pen well enough to draw for long fuuuuuuuck

Leon Kennedy doesn’t have much personal appeal to me, appearance wise. but I am inclined towards the idea of him making a stupid one liner and everyone in the room looking at him in disgust

mexican food will heal you

damn bruv this sucks

oughhhhhghhhhhhh

characters from show

oughhhhhghhhhhhh

I need to re-experience watching When Harry Met Sally in theaters…it’s that kind of mood today

so much media about longing and pining has me acting like a rabid animal in a cage. release me

the amount of gender envy I’m getting from 80s men lately got me exercising/ weightlifting again lol. idk how I always I forget exercise feels great physically and mentally

still thinking about separate ways in context to tron and flynn……..fuck everything