more 🧢👁️ bad sex doodles. a combination of new stuff and old stuff

my foundational 🧢👁️ texts. i giggle every time i look at these

unfortunately eito is too anti-natalist to ascend to milfhood.

Silly eigamus

it's funny because the main depiction of 👁️ (as a sexual deviant) is as a dom but i feel like it's usually subs who push those sexual boundaries/people just generally tend to neglect that subs can also be sexually abusive because of this sub = helpless image in their mind

had an awful day today. asking anhegpt to generate a picture of yugamu and gaku kissing and stuff. will be responding to dms and the like soon though

whenever i see an 006 🌙 drawn super overtly feminine/“milfy” i roll my eyes so hard they go back into my head. not that i have much place to judge, as i do the same with 👁️, but god.

feels to me as if gaku has an excess of libidinal energy, albeit in a primarily negative way... the three-part psyche locked in constant war... his pettiness as a mechanism to preempt blame (ego defense), reflected in his subsequent neurosis as a result of excessive use of the ego defense

i do need to revisit the pleasure principle, i'm operating off fumes essentially when it comes to my memories on that... but i was speaking with my dear mutual and he mentioned how gaku is stun-locked in a three-part war between the id/superego/ego > the things he wants on an instinctual level/his

i think yugamu’s backstory carries the implication that he was the only one modified > his siblings become… mhmm, not active perpetrators, but they either encouraged or at least turned a blind eye to the abuse occurring (perhaps out of fear, pity, etc) but i wonder what it would be like if any of

vaguely turning some sort of 006 concept in my head for them. hm

uke face spectrum

fuck it. we’re doing 🩷👁️ now

body type headcanon talk but i love the image of yugamu being taller but also having a far shorter torso than gaku, so if yugamu wants to grind his butt against gaku's dick he lowkey needs to sit down/squat a little. or gaku has to get on his tippy toes to hump that flat butt

puppy sub top is the number one overused yaoi buzzword lately. unfortunate because i do enjoy submissive tops, but…

i lied i tried doing this and they just became ocs. not unexpected but still

oh i finally remembered i wanted to post my 🧢👁️ omegaverse thoughts here

most mentally molested soldiers of the sdu: - eito - yugamu - ima - darumi

i don’t think i’m informed enough on japanese culture to make any substantial statements on other possible mixed race/ethnicity headcanons, but another reason i enjoy half-korean/zainichi 👁️ is because of the history of sexual violence/comfort women and the allegorical sexual abuse in his background

cult of takumi #拓歪 #sumikage 💊 cw emeto

my favorite headcanon for 👁️🩷💜 in non-sdu aus (or perhaps even in the sdu/as artificial soldiers) is them being half-korean or zainichi koreans

i think both yugamu and gaku acknowledge that love can be “ugly” in some ways, but yugamu’s view of it is something like… imagining oneself dying or being killed and wondering if you were loved enough for your death to become a wound/scar in the hearts of others. gaku’s brand of “ugly love” is far

my yugamu birthday piece was titled “on abjection, on fetishism”… i‘m currently stuck between two titles for the 🧢👁️ comic idea i’ve been spinning in my mind: “on jouissance and extimacy” or “on diagnosing desire”

thinking about the scientists beta testing the revival machine and became a bit delirious

while the "he wants to torture and be tortured" statement is technically correct for yugamu, i don't agree with interpretations of him that place more emphasis on the 'want to torture' aspect of him. in fact, i'd go as far as to say that even making them "equal" doesn't feel quite right—

[covered in blood after work again]

absolutely hate any sort of “american” au for anime characters because they do not even become asian-american they just become completely whitewashed and it’s honestly embarrassing

i just don't care about younger seme/uke trope discussion because as long as it's executed well, i won't care... that being said, both 🐈‍⬛🐇 and 🐀🦎 are younger uke pairs to me, which is important...! it's important.

last repost 🥲 so stunning...

end 041 - we all will be happy together

cot & castration anxiety... i'll lay down some initial thoughts first. a not that i absolutely have to revisit said's orientalism, but my preliminary thoughts are based on that source. - war itself as something with masculine connotations, particularly how the west is depicted as enlightened and

🌊&🧢 are fixed semes for me (and they're vaguely similar types of straight-ish/nonke seme to me) i think 🌊 manages to be a little more dignified despite his inexperience. 🧢 is like. okay. you have to let the 5'2.9" guy hump your butt uselessly sometimes and that's okay.

the trc definitely doesn’t have space for lawns, which means no lawn sprinklers (i don’t think japan even uses lawn sprinklers like the ones in the u.s.) but i want to see gaku and takumi running around getting sprayed with water. my self-indulgent fantasy for the night.

on that note, it’s fun how both 👁️🍭 have abusive patriarchs in their families but the way they wield their abuse is very different and it shows in how 👁️ is a pragmatic utilitarian, mirroring his father modifying him to make him a better assassin, while 🍭 acts out in a way that she likely wouldn’t be

👁️🩷💜 is fun to me because it’s all about recreating or breaking free of incestuous dynamics

friend wrote the phrase "pain refuses ambiguity" irt some yugamu meta and it was just so good... i've been thinking about it a lot for 🧢👁️... pain is a sign of being alive... when something hurts, it becomes undeniable, it does not need to pass through flawed human interpretation/abstraction,

don't agree with depictions of 👁️ that consider him truly liberated in terms of gender/sexuality. i see this in all ship spaces for him so it's not a targeted statement and more of a general observation, but because he is openly flamboyant and queer, people equate this with truly being comfortable in

i think the closest to my envisioned 👁️ body type in my mind palace is rui of ❌❤️... long limbs, hypermobile/flexible, broad shoulders...

they're making 🐇 into a suburban almond mom in lululemon shorts on the other blue app. fascinating. did we not learn from the pavitr spiderverse debacle a while back or what.

[crawling in on all fours covered in blood after work] [gakuseethe expression on my face]

a crucial part of the 🧢👁️ dynamic is 👁️’s very obvious daddy issues, so i struggle to imagine aus where 👁️ is the older one. it kind of kills the appeal…

i don’t like the dick size = boob size equivalence in genderbends, but i suppose it rings true for me in that i don’t think eito is particularly well-endowed and i think a female eito has an average to small chest.

[covered in blood]

i really don't enjoy depictions of takumi that lean heavily into his passivity because i think it's meaningful that he represents both stagnation and the future in equal parts. everything from post-r0 onward only happens because of a very active agency-informed choice. which is why torture takumi

[crawling on all fours after my shift] ga... gakugamu...

was thinking about how transphobic parents are often incestuous in how they stake claim over their trans children's bodies in a sexual way that robs them of autonomy and immediately thought of 👁️ and the allegorical incestuous csa in his backstory and how he is frequently headcanoned as trans

as much as i do enjoy t4t pairs, i struggle to see 🧢👁️ as such... hmm

i've also been spinning the idea of 👁️'s parents potentially performing nullification/procedures of a similar vein on him to assert control over him... deeming sexual desire to be a distraction, especially for their problem child. i do think this does make headcanoning him as transgender in any way

potentially sensitive subject matter that i'm not quite sure how to tag, but i really don't see gaku as the type of guy that would seek out sexual services. i think he's trying it once, getting really fucking scared after the initial excitement, and then understanding on an unconscious level that