I'm a smarmy girl, in a Barbie world Life is spastic, it's quite drastic You can brush my hair, or fight a polar bear

Playing Mars Volta on the waffle house jukebox just to feel something

I dont see a future. Between everything happening in the world and my own personal failings. I just dont see a way

#reneegood #iceshooting #faciststate

madge

"Generic Candy Bar" recut poorsband.bandcamp.com

Happy crambles

Also ive currently been awake roughly 26/27 hours, and im not sure when ill get to sleep again

So the last 3 months have been me largely trying to repay debts to folks that helped me through my unemployment back in the late summer, im so close to being caught up, but im going to need any magical creatures to do your thing, lend me your powers, to help me stay strong and get there.

Can I just sleep til friday?

I don't value cover bands in a similar way that I don't value AI "art"

#instrumental #looppedal #lofi #guitar ##instrumental

#instrumental #looppedal #lofi #guitar

Im so sick and tired of playing the social media game. I've been consistently putting content in tiktok this last year, but its either not getting seen, or its not what people want to stay for and I have no idea which it is

It has occurred to me that ive largely walled myself off from human interaction the last couple of years and im not sure what to do about it.

These Trapt video scripting sessions have led me to dark places

For anyone that cares ive been sober for about 3 and a half weeks, and even though ive been tempted all weekend, i haven't caved. And believe me, life has really been testing me the last 3 days.

My next non-existent band name: Rather Rotund "Hello everyone im rather rotund, and we are Rather Rotund"

Well, I got down on my knees (got down on my knees) And I pretend to pray (I pretend to pray) You know the preacher is so bold (preacher is so bold) He knows I am quite gay (knows am quite gay) California Semen (California Semen) -the Daddies and the Baddies

So, I've been writing and revising a script i meant to start almost 2 years ago, for the last 3 hours, and im afraid to stop lest I lose my momentum

"Its okay to leave a hotdog in a car" -John Q Beatle

I know no one cares, but I attended my first AA meeting today

I will say this: In the wake of all the footage and photos out of Gaza, it's important to remember not all israeli citizens support the ongoing genocide of the Palestinian people. Jewish people, let alone israeli people, are not a monolith. Many are just as ashamed as us US citizens are of our gov't

hope

Feeling terribly uninspired, but wanting to work on some music :/

The rapture happened. Looks like no one is worthy, eh?

I swear, the Hard Times never misses

Sorry. Turns out, nobody's as psychotic and violent as our own people.

Charlie's quest to say the N word publicly has failed

All jokes aside, when you advocate for a more violent world, you shouldn't be surprised when you find yourself in a more violent world.

Seriously though, everybody was expecting the announcement that Trump had died, then Charlie Kirks neck fucking explodes, that's nuts!

Let's be honest though. Im sure he'd gladly stand for Americans rights to bear arms if he was still here right? He wouldn't have changed his tune if he'd have survived right? Surely he wouldn't be a hypocrite or anything. Here's to you Chuck, I know you're looking up at us from hell.

I want out of this place. I'm tired of struggling, I'm tired of being 50 miles from civilization, and I'm tired of not being able to be myself. I'm sick of not only this country, but this fucking bullshit ass state! I cannot keep doing this!

Looks like im in the market for a car, which i really cant afford right now :/

A song i wrote from 2016. I haven't played it pretty much at all since then until today

I have addiction problems. So when I was prescribed various medicines to help with the kidney stone, I turned down the Hydrocodone, in favor of the bare minimum. My mom got pissed because she wanted to have it on hand if she needed it.

I mistakenly put myself in the category of people I had assumed were my equals when they were obviously superior.

Car is in the shop. Stones in the kidney. Morphine in the ghost.