you ever read smut and have to take a step back to acknowledge the rampant misogyny to yourself, before you can keep reading

i want to treat myself and get a book on pre-order, but i don't like hardbacks 😩

been trying my hand at writing anidala and i keep thinking, if i had been older when the prequels came out, i would've been an anakin fucker. i would've fallen for him so hard, the same way i did kylo

the marvel fandom is such a hellscape, it's always a breath of fresh air when someone's fave is natasha - the one i just came across even ships her with steve. top tier ship, great taste

i'm working on a lot of things, so it won't be soon, but i can't wait for the day i get to post rpf on ao3. no one has subscribed to me for rpf and i think that's funny

i appreciate the warning, but now i'm getting nervous. i don't read on ao3 every day, but what if i suddenly want to, at the exact time it's down??

when someone i'm subscribed to on ao3 started writing stuff i didn't know, i decided to keep the subscription, just in case. for a number of years, i've been deleting the emails, but this morning, i get an email for a new work, in a new fandom, A FANDOM I'M IN. when i tell you i'm euphoric

my favourite part about downloading/updating an app, is turning off every single feature, so i can use it in peace

whyyyyyyyyyyy am i shy online

hux watches so closely, he can tell if kylo's briefs are old or new, depending on how the fabric supports the weight of his balls

i wish there was an easier way to share wips. most days, i don't make much progress, but there's always something i'm happy with, and there's not really a way to share that. you'd have to know what the first version was like or what the wip is actually about. sharing sketches is so straight forward

it's crazy how fast knowledge gets lost. i'm looking for winter boots and reading reviews, complaining that the boots aren't waterproof. 1) they're suede. 2) the description says "impregnate before use". you buy the impregnation spray and make them waterproof yourself?? THEY SELL THE SPRAY TOO

⚠️tw dissociation/ptsd⚠️ A small winterhawk (ft. alpine!) comic inspired by discussion in the hawkeye server about touch starved Bucky, and Clint helping him through ptsd episodes. #fancomic #marvel #buckybarnes #clintbarton #alpinethecat #hawkeye #thewintersoldier #art #winterhawk

pretty sure i've had computer madness since 2003

i'm trapped in this cycle of not sleeping, being exhausted all the time, thinking horrible things about myself, wanting to escape the horrrors by writing, but being to exhausted to think, let alone write

nothing like accidentally reading 72k in one sitting, because you got curious

for a hot second i really thought i could finish that bucktommy in a reasonable amount of time 🥲

it's fascinating how fashion focused we are, yet how far removed most people are from the production of it. sewing your own clothes or at the very least make an outfit for a baby in your life, used to be normal, not even a generation ago, but now, people need exhaustive videos explaining how to tell

i'm not sure aging will go well for me. nearly had a meltdown over the lines on my face

new kylux pwp 🎉 enjoy! archiveofourown.org/works/70484916

i swear, sometimes the hardest part of writing fanfiction, is clicking "post"

so crushing when you find a small shop you love, but the location means you can't afford the vat, fees and shipping. being poor constantly ruins my dreams 😭

now i'm not saying kylux and halloween are connected, but i did just buy halloween stuff and i did begin writing a kylux fic

just had the best idea for kinktober, but my depression won't let me 😭

obv i'm not about to give twitter shit, let alone my ID, but i've tried to click the "verify your age" pop ups for weeks now, out of curiosity and nothing happens. it either takes me to a faq or it opens the app settings on my phone. do they even have the infrastructure to actually do this?

i've binged 4 seasons of star trek: discovery and they are relying way too much on the holo interfaces. there are so many plot points that are solved solely by someone just waving their hands around. surely they have a writer on staff that has more imagination than that

forgot the rush of an active fandom. makes me wanna post every little bucktommy thing i have, just to keep getting interactions

bucktommy wip snippets (there's more on tumblr, that didn't fit here)

i'm writing sunshine and rainbows for the first time and it feels very weird

something a lot of people don't seem to understand, is that writing is the point. it's not about the finished product, it's about the process. i'm always happy when i finish a story, but the second i'm done, i'm picking up another one. this doesn't end for me. i write because i enjoy it.

halloween in august is stressing me out. does it mean i have to get it now, if i wanna buy anything? what will they be selling in october? valentine's stuff?

been reading bucktommy for a couple of days and i keep thinking i want to write some myself, but i can't figure out what. daddy kink is the obvious choice, but it's already very well represented, and i can't think of how i could do it differently or how i could do something unexpected

is the term "lurker" still in use? or is it another old/outdated/livejournal thing?

thinking about the time i was on the waitlist to join the stucky discord server. the wait was like a year or something crazy. when i finally got the invite, i took one look and promptly deleted my discord account discord is not for me

wild how no one understands how debilitating persistent insomnia is, despite every single person on the planet having experienced what it's like to function on little to no sleep

i'm working on (one of) my young kylo/older hux wips. remind me to post screen shots or a preview or something tomorrow

#stony vs #stucky

is no one worried about identity theft anymore??

flaming moe's

writing an f/m thing and i keep wanting to add some period related stuff (not sex) to it, but i get caught up in not wanting readers to think it's a self-insert type thing or like a Statement of some sort. it fits the characters and the story really well, but i don't want it come across as a Thing

i was joking when i said it before, but did they make a rule that smut now has to include "slut" and "breed"? i don't think i've read a fic posted in 2025 that hasn't included both

unfortunately, i think my mental health would be better, if i didn't spend so much time on the internet

kylux flailing awake every morning, because neither of them is used to having someone in their bed. they have to keep their weapons in the next room, to keep from maiming each other

manifesting

accessed tumblr via ethernet for the first time in over a decade. this whole time, i thought tumblr was just a shitty website, but seems like my wi-fi has been the issue all along. everything loaded INSTANTLY. i guess this is why people update their tech setup regularly

on one hand, i can't wait to finish this story and finally share it. on the other hand, writing it has been my main coping mechanism for like two years, and i don't know what i'm supposed to do without it

i've been into clintasha for a long time, but lemme tell you, the intensity with which i'm into them has skyrocketed since i started writing them. they're a side pairing in this wip, but i love them so much, i've given them not one, but two sequels, where they're the main pairing

why do men breathe so aggressively

it's just a pet peeve, but when people put stuff in the summary box, that should go in the author's notes box, i get so irritated. scrolling through personal updates and the names of beta readers and what not, when i'm looking for something to read, is so tedious