i eated it idk if it was 165 tho bc i dont have a food thermometer

in iogw the white heritages are actually the hardest for me lool like im not sure how to approach jen's Italian heritage but i have an Italian moot im supposed to talk to more about that. and see i could just. make her white half (she's biracial) just plain whiteness n no one would care. BUT I CARE!

the thing is you can't actually write "colorblind" because no one is actually colorblind. you make a meaningless sockpuppet with a white hand in it at best and something racist at worst.

I know white writers probably feel like they can't meaningfully address race. But this is why you're supposed to have nonwhite friends. I mean - the races in iogw, obviously im not all of them lol, but they're all based on friends I've had and I'm writing from that experience.

writing again... the yj fandom being racist made me want to run back to my safe space. blessing in disguise lol.

she gets to be happy though, act 2 is where her life is the happiest. probably why i like living there the most. ironically, despite that she is happiest then, she doesn't think that she is.

i mean, the title is the title for a reason. "it gets better" is what they tell you over and over. it's a carrot on a stick to make you keep playing the game.

just hormonally emotional but suddenly feeling anguished over jen why did i create such a miserable person lmao. but the saddest part is that ppl like this actually exist... some don't want to accept that they do. you want to think there is always a happy ending to work towards. reality is darker.

thinking about the jen who lives past young adulthood makes me sad honestly killing her is a mercy lol. she just kind of gets abused even more. like i think shes suffered enough.

been hand flapping too hard lately my wrists hurt

imagining if i put my credits in my bio Dead Studio | Dead Studio | Dead Studio | Brand no one cares about | Dead Studio

oh ok this was also just PMDD good to know im not that silly lol

i will succeed because i am a pervert 🥳🫡

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When furries talk about the Harkness Test it’s like oh so you’re sapiosexual?

you can't? i have lost the desire to play

the iogw website is actually mostly done i just wanted to have a lot of bonus content/secrets to find

back of the canvas

i miss jen. even before my lottie phase shes was distant. idk ive been in a strange headspace the past month or two.

one day i will have someone to wrap me in a blanky and put me on the couch when i get too mad about online

its so serious. i didnt eat today because i was too irritated about people mischaracterizing my fav.

fastforward to now i dont remember what i did today or yesterday my life is a blur u_u used all my RAM too early

i should make comics of all my childhood memories. ive always been afraid of forgetting them since im, apparently, not supposed to be able to remember a lot of them in the first place.

feeling lucky?

its da besties MAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!! #ocs #sambianca #lesbian

"that the universe isn't locally real proves we're in a simulation!" or it proves that, you know, we're all one. like mystics have been saying since the dawn of humanity.

i hate that everyone uses the xitter FYP & interacts with posts out of order. like ppl will regularly like stuff i said 3 days ago ok we're past that now. on its own not bad but that its delayed/no one sees when you initially post just feels off like no one is engaging with you in the actual moment.

i think getting a ship obsession is less brain damaging than a character obsession. a character obsession ruins your life.

its rly so hard for me to stay in a particular frame of mind which is why i doubt if i actually have a sense of continuity like maybe my sense of continuity is just an illusion lol. like there actually isn't continuity im just looking at smudged notes written on my wrist to create the illusion of it

3 months ago

"i didnt understad" listen i havent been sleeping

another yj comic rough, lottielee this time. only sharing these bc idk if i'll ever actually draw them orz

i think the main thing i want from my life is to love my art. it might take my whole life to accomplish this.

however my past selfs aims have become very ill defined and difficult to understand. what was i doing again

wdym ive made 1k posts on here already

serious question do you eat the "bad parts" of apples? the little dents and discoloration? idk if thats normal or if its just an ocd habit my mother passed down to me lol. feel like i usually see ppl just eat pieces of fruit without inspecting them unless there's an obvious degradation.

Jen is an open book but her texts are indecipherable

lrt thats how those things feel to me so i always have to tip a little otherwise they will think i hate them

tipping

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there will be no therapy speak sessions in iogw characters will just say poetically sad things and suffer

we used to log on and everyone would be like OMG HAAAYYYY *glomps* XD and youd be like LOOK AT THE SMEXY WOLVES I JUST DREW x3 and ur friends would go OMG SO HAWT!!!!! i miss it. im not innocent tho i should be more interactive too.

everything just feels fake these days i feel like ppl dont even rly post online like they used to? i miss seeing moots talk about their ocs or whatever they're into. feels like theres fewer people doing that recently, what's the deal? i feel like i only see it from ppl with large followings

i should probably tag my work more but idk what to tag it with, #ocart? who looks in that tag anyway lol

whats the best book to read to recover my degraded grammar

they legitimately do get mistaken for an unhealthy teenage boy which is very disappointing for the groomers offering a place to crash

when ur a homeless teenager at 32

my beautiful boywife sorry that ive been cheating on you with a very tall woman