Being single handedly patroned by older lesbians in Olympia

Get better at giving up early and 10 other tricks for better mental health

Family stress coming out of my ears

Getting older means that you can cry to your mom a lot more

Never underestimate the incredible power of keeping it pushing

Daily challenge: TRY NOT TO CRY IN DISPATCH

My body betrays me every day

I love to remove myself from a situation

Getting asked how I’m doing and going “I’ll snap out of it soon”

Me doing risk assessment: what if everything bad happens all at once and we all die

A better world is possible but you mostly have to build it for yourself

I want to be held every day

Sometimes you just have to bookmark something for later and go “I cannot continue to care about this right now” and keep it pushing

Oh, to give care and receive the same treatment back. What a dream

You better learn to scrape yourself off of the pavement faster

I love to remove myself from a situation

Something about repeatedly pushing your physical limits and being able to adapt makes emotional distress feel less consuming

Being back on a construction site has me more bitter about pnw social mires than ever lol

Today the journeyman that hates everybody said I was doing good :)

WE'RE TRYING OUR HARDEST TO SAVE EVERYONE AND WE RAN OUT OF TIME TO HELP YOU. WE REALLY DO LOVE YOU, SO MUCH. WE'RE SO SORRY THAT OUR HEARTS NEVER REACHED YOU.

I LOVE YOU AND IT ISN'T YOUR FAULT THAT NOTHING BROKE YOUR FALL. BUILD SOMETHING FOR THE NEXT VISITOR. TAKE THE TIME TO DO IT WELL. WHEN WE DIE WE COME BACK AS OUR OWN VICTIMS. GO EASY ON US. WE LOVE YOU.

Mood for the night

Got to hang my first beam today :)

You're right. I do radiate confidence just to make you sad. You got me. I'm going to steal your wife and turn the world against you. That's my plan. You figured me out. The clues were all there. The brushed teeth. The combed hair. The minding my own business. It was all about you

Do you ever get such sweetness and care that it makes you bitter about the scraps you’ve accepted from others

Fucked up that I keep finding edible mushrooms in places where nobody should ever consume mushrooms. Why did I find the most beautiful cluster of meadow mushrooms by an apartments French drain. Probably single-handedly nourished by piss

sausage gravy and also apologies from those who have wronged me would hit the fucking spot rn

In love

Mood for the night

Went out to a jobsite and got dapped up by the 80% of divorcees for being divorced

Went to a union meeting and heard “we cornered the governor in a room and forced him to give us answers about this major infrastructure project. we then received two cease and desist letters from lawyers, which is both how we know we’re on the right track and when things start to get fun”

Nothing less attractive than someone that’s a sore loser about getting dumped

Bad sign for the state of things when the therapists I keep doing consults with also sound like they want to kill themselves

Women want to cuff me so bad

Crazy bitch therapy mantra: just because you feel strongly about it does not mean that your reaction is proportionate

I love and hate other Ironworkers

I need to go to the mountains and not talk to anyone for like a month

Why is everyone getting into baseball this year. What did I miss

Sometimes you just have to go “nobody gives a fuck” and force yourself to move on

I am so much stronger than I used to be. Feels like my body has been torn apart and rebuilt anew

we fight in shapes

Offloading my addictive tendencies onto getting shredded and making new soups

Celebrating my divorce and name change with a Coke Zero and a nice meal

Sober October except it’s for the rest of the year

Everything feels so temporary

I think being handed the apprenticeship wage and benefits sheet on my eval day and being told “welcome to a better life, you worked hard for it” altered my brain chemistry

Hot take but I don’t think discussing fascism like this is useful actually

hey sorry you just got a little uhh *reaches over and changes you* ok all good now 👍

banger posts tonight. unfortunately they are trapped within a witch’s Grief Seed and no one can read them