considering commissioning porn drawn entirely on a stone tablet just to feel something

cried a little bit. i really feel crushed

i think my cpu is busted. combined with my rapidly failing phone i'm extremely close to bursting into tears. i'm sorry for being so pathetic

think my cpu is broken or something jdk i just want this to be over lol

doing surgery but we don't have any isopropyl so i kinda have to wait to finish. puppy needs pc

i actually dunno if my body can handle the rest of my work week i feel like jelly today 🥲

creating my all female raid group plus one grungler we can all make fun of

i unfortunately do want to try the D-sides in celeste so maybe my pc being out of commission is a good thing

doing tusk act 4 shit to her penis

my love life is a lot like lost media

having to do all the water by myself today completely exhausted me and i still have 3 more days of work before a break. sob sob

one of the worst things about everything needing to be a side job instead of a hobby for me is all those xiv animation mods that you have to pay real money to access. look man i get you put a lotta effort into these but i am not shelling out a subs worth of money for all that

enough time has passed. let sega make another conso-*thinks about what sega has been doing recently* let them make another console in 5 years

looking up details for a vocalist in a song i've been looping cause she seemed familiar and god damn it.

playing farewell is hating it half the time you're stuck in a room and then when you clear it you go "you know actually that was good"

don't feel good at all tonight

gang i really need a new phone. discord doesn't appear on my apps list anymore but when i go to the play store it's there with only the Uninstall button (of which pressing does nothing)

>return to ffxi campaign >giant catgirl with a mace asks me to go to a warzone to deliver supplies >asks for my name afterwards >uses it to force sign a contract binding me to her for life >constantly verbally abuses me and tells me i'm stuck with her forever >go home >log into ffxi

can't sleep so maybe i'll just pull an all nighter before my busiest work night that'll make me pass out mid shift

who the hell is this beautiful white haired woman

me and my friends would've killed bubsy with hammers i tell you what

can someone knock me out with a comically large hammer i want to sleep

one of my favorite copy-paste comments on YouTube still has to be "bro its ____ you don't have to go so hard" because it both implies that a composer doesn't want a good as fuck song on their resume, and that they won't get beat to death by the director if they get the vibes on a song wrong

"let's remaster one of the greatest as-is mecha anime of the 20th century" your hearts will be weighed against a feather and i promise you the result will not be pretty

hmmm yeah i actually don't think i loved most of the new album. tis a shame

new periphery album doesn't even have a song above 5 minutes. how can i scare my friends at karaoke blowing out my lungs now

the unfortunate thing about me leaning more back into robot girl aesthetics recently is now i have to make bad bits centered around it, such as showing exposed wires and pretending it's sexual content

day 39

why is there a ffxiv knockoff arlo

where the FUCK am i

still embarrassed over playing the beginning of skies of arcadia with friends and they had to discover both how i play rpgs (running around inspecting everything) and all the fringe and minute details i fixate on to be like "wow that's so cool"

"cw incest depending on whether or not you think return of the jedi is canon"

fundamentally i understand why they make sure you can unlock every job in arr zones after the whole fiasco with needing ishgard unlocked for the lv30 sillies, but at the same time it feels kinda lame

did the upload of new sadomasochism get taken down on yt? sad sad jasmy

my pc having issues was an act by the universe to stop me from becoming the 4826th female celeste streamer

the fabled cockie hit the recommendeds

ok

this new random stuttering my pc does is pissing me off man it makes everything just annoying enough it kills my motivation. i think it's most likely GPU age given this is a hand me down all the way back from 2018 (in which it was already used since 2013) and man do i not wanna buy a new one

gonna find a sugar mommy to buy me new computer parts

it must be so heart-breaking to make all this cool artwork for a game, and then they slap some dabadee-dabadi mfs on the cover because it's 2005 and the last thing anyone wants to do is look like a japanimation.

i just realized i haven't updated my graphics drivers in potentially months so i'll try that and see if it fixes my issues. tehe

my phone is also breaking more and more repeatedly so i'm feeling like my technology is rapidly declining and there's not much i can do about that. yay!

ok i'm getting weird stutters and freezes in xenogears too so i'm hoping it's just something weird rn and not my pc actually actively dying :/

well anyways new month new 12x12

i wanna drink but it's so late. hmph