Did not talk myself into an anxiety spiral and gave my cats their flea meds

Need to deep clean my Fitbit in hopes I can wear it again :/ my phone at least tracks my steps when it's dead but I miss the sleep tracking

Feeling some sort of way when both ppl in my house are on a call with friends and I am sitting alone in my kitchen torturing myself with the big light on

Just discovered I haven't been under 190 since Sept 2023 I've been losing the same 5-15 lbs for 2 ish years

Anyone else always accidentally say things that hurts ur partners feelings 🫪🔫

Yesterday went fine!! X is all moved in! The cats are all as chill as they can be! I am however mildly triggered immediately bc they asked to borrow a tank top and I thought I grabbed a specific one and it ended up being a different one and oh!! Boy!!! Did I not need to see that

My hands aren't working very well today :/

Need to force myself to look in the mirror again

Had to replace the batteries in my scale and did a test with some 5 lbs weights Individually the 5 lbs reads as 7.4 With both it reads 12.6 ??????

Every time I see a photo of A****a G****e's chest I cringe in horror and jealousy

My AC sucks so bad dude I don't wanna have to rinse off before bed every night ugh

I wish I had more to say other than I feel like shit physically and mentally

Pissed off I was finally gonna order my clear phone case after literal months and just remembered its p***e week or whatever fuck me dude I just want my correct case

Sucks that my main friend is the one I'm stressed about and stuff so I can't even complain properly to anyone besides my husband and I'm tired of bothering him with it

Everything kind of sucks and I need to get my shit together but I don't want to

Keep smelling bad/sour smells and I can't figure it out

Accidentally found edtwt on my main from some random ass post and resisting the urge the remake an ed acct just to be triggered

??? The battery is stuck inside my vibrator ??? I ????? What ???

If I don't end up skinny out of this I might have to consider kms

X keeps twting abt losing weight more weight after they move as if they haven't been stick thin for so long recently oh man this is gonna be a nightmare mentally can't wait!

I've been thinking abt sh for months now what I wouldn't give just to see if it feels the same

I just need to get up and do things but why do that when I can doom scroll and get off until I don't have any thoughts ever again

Gave my cats their flea meds time to watch them like a hawk even tho they were fine last time and I did a better job of putting it on this time

Going to actually log food this weekend damnit

Important

Just realized I have 3 weeks 😬

NOW if I can make it thru the weekend without spiking back above 200 that would be SO cool I've literally been yoyoing between 198 and 203 since MARCH

Period started but my weight still dropped a win is a win

Body icky today

Plan before X moves in - partial deep clean, mainly the rooms and common area - start meditating more and doing yoga again - practice shielding my energy and getting comfortable going in and out of that state - salting the door ways - make sure I spend time outside, preferably barefoot

Feeling more sane today, my cats AND body let me sleep thru the night

I should do another liquid fast soon

My app says period is soon :/

ED Abt to go brr y'all I have less than a month until Thing and then X will be staying with us and they're a huge trigger that's safely been across the fucking country for years and won't be anymore

Also my boobs hurt

Sometimes I feel like ***** bc my cat is very clearly bored and it's always when I finally decide to lay down and let myself rest like please give me 20 minutes to not feel like I'm wasting away

Also keep losing and gaining the same 5-7 lbs and I'm gonna lose it (mentally) before I ever actually lose this weight

It's fine it'll be fine it's fine

Can't stop thinking about how this might ruin everything

How do I turn my brain off now and forever

Feeling awful but I have so many things to do

Just gonna condition myself to run off of toast and caffeine again this is all stupid I can't be miserable AND fat that's not fair

Not managing my ADHD at all lately I want someone to put me out of my misery

Having big feelings about medical stuff bc I was raised to just kind of wait out all of my issues but my husband wasn't and he's always going to doctors for what I would consider little things. And like that's fine I don't care I'm glad you want to make sure you're okay, I just have a hard time

Feeling creaturesque

Forgot I started a load of laundry last night oops

I miss the weird structure of college so bad :( I wasn't forced to be "on" for 8 hours at a time the max was like 4 or 5 maybe? It also made starving myself easier but who's keeping track (me ! It's definitely me 😬) it's literally been 6 years ugh get over it

im so fat and it’s hot. this has to be motivation

Want to wear my tracker but my skin is not having it ugh

Y.weoght went up this weekend way more than I was expecting it to 🫪