reeeeeeally hoping i finalize a new place to live soon and i kind of want to tell some roommate stories bc you guys 🥲

little guy got his cone off this morning 🥲🩷 they said the abrasion on his cornea healed up beautifully and we don’t need to put gunk on his eye twice a day anymore

i am just curious if anyone who has spent their whole life feeling like anger is an unsafe emotion (re: dad stuff) has ever gotten to the point of being able to feel safe around someone who is feeling mad (and is not throwing things or yelling or being violent or anything)

oliver’s dad/my ex is going to watch him tonight so i can get a break and go to pole tomorrow morning 🥲🩷🙏🏻🫶🏻 bless

it took 5 days of not being able to go back to my apartment and not being able to leave my dog alone for me to start really feel like im losing it 🥲 this blows

he looks like the Pixar lamp

i started a little GFM and y’all went way above and beyond with it, we reached $870 and the goal was $500 🥲🩷 i upped the goal to $1k so we can cover more of the move, but we have more than enough to cover his vet bills now, thank you all so much 😭 gofund.me/a5358cfae

my roommate’s cat attacked my baby dog :( he was bleeding all over the floor and i almost passed out lmao anyways, he is okay! he has a couple of lacerations above and below his eye and a very surface level abrasion on the cornea and now he has to wear a cone of shame

hey is there anyone who would be willing to pirate barefoot gen (1983) for me tried watching it through streaming and subtitles aren’t available :(

lately im feeling like there is a little child monster inside of me that refuses to go back to the corner or to stay in the shadows & instead of continuing to pretend like she's not there i am trying to integrate her

hie poetry

how to kill yourself but just for a month and then you can come back

$1,000 would *fix me *help me move into a better living situation

wore heels for the first time in the studio the other day someone got them for me off my wish list and i am obsessed :’)

went on a three way date with a girl and my partner and i think next time it might be a threesome or at least a three way makeout 🫠 i love women

i am *better than everyone because i am still giving the tribune money every month even though their articles are free now *too lazy to cancel my subscription (and i am very okay with a non-church-owned newspaper based in utah taking my money!)

feeling like a 900 year old grandma but i finally set up apple pay

can’t stop laughing at this

trying to stretch my groceries until i get paid again lol

pole things today i practiced going into genie into a side climb into figurehead into a figurehead variation where i grab my foot pole is basically a giant humiliation ritual where you try it 99 times before you nail it and this video reflects that (i am still in the humiliation phase)

hehe

hair stylist is doing a pride special with hair tinsel and all proceeds are going to a trans rights organization anyways im gonna have green streaks in my hair for a few weeks

idk if y’all remember when brody got in a car accident and his car was totaled but at the scene the people involved produced proof of insurance to the cops that was invalid (they were not insured) and it really fucked things up for him for months

“you’re so resilient” thanks my mom tells people i have BPD even after my therapist explained to her that i don’t and when i asked her to stop she said no so we haven’t seen each other in years ✨✨ just girly things

talked to ✨ a reporter ✨ who listened to my mormon stories episode and she said something along the lines of “someone must have done something right for you to turn out the way you did”

cool, i got high and now instead of being sober and feeling like life is pointless i am high and feeling like life is pointless

i think adulthood is finally accepting that you have to be your own daddy

the OG backrooms

just learned they made a specific lens just for boots riley for those scenes with lakeith stanfield and im so jealous, i want a company to create a new lens for me

go see it

*my partner who just had an orgasm, showing me a reel about how sexual repression breeds fascism* yeah like, i don’t feel fascist at all right now

crying bc my body does this. that’s me. i am strong and capable and a badass and that’s my body doing things i never thought it could.

posting my linktreeeeeee and making it my pinned post linktr.ee/poetickate

rupaul playing a blonde drag queen named “rachel tension” and wearing a confederate flag in a movie in 1995??? it’s giving erika kirk

Arted with @poetickate.bsky.social yesterday. She's a champ. #photography #model #utah #sonyalpha

pole made my ass fatter

just had an old client reach out asking to hire me for more writing work because they “don’t want [the project] to sound like AI” 🥲 bless

im tired of AI, i just googled the lyrics to “thriller” and google is having a psychotic break about it

do you guys remember when utah senator mike lee asked “is this real” under an AI slop video

guys why am i depressed

i love pole!

*extreme old man temple worker voice* what is that

car was making a new sound today. just a very light tapping that sounded like some debris stuck to the tire or something stopped to get gas and a guy with a huge handlebar mustache (think sam elliott vibes) says “ma’am, did you know you have a flat tire” 🤦🏼‍♀️

entering a new era of hoeing around and i think it’s gonna be my best slutty era yet

do you guys remember all of the insufferable talks we had to sit through about not stealing a newspaper or a can of soda or whatever & the question was always “what’s the price for your integrity” and then decades later the church had to pay $5M in fines for lying to the SEC

crazy that i was slut shamed by my (old, mormon-adjacent despite having left the church) friend group for having sex with 5 people in three months, meanwhile i have had 4 different dicks inside of me in the last week alone and i don’t even bat an eye and nobody fucking cares

mormons are so funny bc they literally think they invented the concept of having a family and being happy and that no one outside of the 24/7 sub/domme dynamic they’re in with jesus has experienced those things

a man im seeing tonight has 6 pictures on his dating profile in 5 of them, he has a full head of thick, curly hair in 1 of them, he is completely bald is he going to be bald when i show up tonight, y/n

when you think about it it’s actually really gross and weird that my entire friend group turned on me for *checks notes* not wanting to be married anymore and wanting to be polyamorous

when you become the little chef in pokopia it’s rattatatouille