almost done with my outline for the gothic horror thing i've been hyperfixating on. i'm like 95% done, except i haven't been able to decide on the ending... 🫠 i've gotta think on it more

work was back-to-back busy and stressful the past few weeks and now i'm suddenly caught up and i'm just like okay. what do i do now, LOL

the outline for that erotic gothic horror thing i've been brainstorming is coming along a little bit too easily 💦 i might actually have a full outline before writing for once

anyway, too much thinking. time to wash clothes for work and write something nasty before bed 😇

outline is... actually going okay, LOL. i organized all the scenes into a more cohesive plot (yay), but now i'm realizing i need to write a lot more to reach the conclusion (boo). my brain is a little mushy.

i picked up the hands of the emperor by victoria goddard and i'm liking it so far! i thought it was romance at first, but i'm pretty sure it isn't, LOL. this is the second time i've done this and they've been both 700+ pages but the story is good so we persevere

first devlog done! 🥳 now i have to actually work on stuff www.tumblr.com/birdybonestu... #vndev #blgame

i'm working on a devlog and tumblr ate my edits TWICE i'm so mad 😭 taking a bath to reconsider my life choices

idk how it's possible but i completely caught up with real life work in four days 💦 gonna actually get to leave work early... time to celebrate with milk tea

i've been toying with an idea for a horror novella... still working through story development in my down time but i'm getting pretty into it which ofc means that i won't actually write the damn thing for another five years but it's fun to think about :)

Then what the fuck is the point of you

finally remembered to charge my laptop and actually did some writing last night, we are sooo back

i've been ranting and raving about these ghost white lizards i've been finding the past few months and everyone thought i was insane but i finally caught one in daylight 👊 I'M NOT CRAZY (they're mediterranean house geckos)

i'm also reading through the original draft for like a maggot in your belly (when i was writing it as a novel) and it is soooo rough but still very cute, haha excerpt i thought was funny of florence eating an icecream sundae as miserably as possible and ollie just watching like 👁👄👁

soooo sleepy, but i wanna work on stuff when i get home 💦 might leave on time and just go to my job over the weekene a little to make up for it... i've got so much stuff i need to work on but i at least wanna do a little editing today for kinktober. i have like 2 and a half things pretty much done

i've grown really fond of natasha pulley's books in the past year. in concept, they veer little bit too soft for my usual taste, but in reality, there's just something about the weird little old men she writes that really sets my neurons off

doing a re-read (re-listen??) of the half life of valery k as my work audiobook and oughhh it's still so good 🥺 valery you sickly, delicate little bird-boned man

Lucifer's Garden digital is now 10USD off! 💋 Use the code TENOFF until November 1st at midnight, purchase it here: nightmarelandpress.com/products/luc... #lucifersgardencomic

YIPPEE my nightmare is over, our cadcam software is working again!!! 🎉 not yippee: i'm gonna have to stay late all this week to catch up 🥲

euhhh time to go to work and see what fresh hell awaits me 😭

😪 eughhhhh... work... i stayed up too late last night and now i'm being punished for my sins

okay, out of the live2d mines and back to the writing mines for me ⛏️

some quick n' dirty rigging to feel out the hair physics🤔i need to add some delays to some parts so it's less uniform but i want kind of a choppy animated look instead of super smooth

doing some meshing for live2d between working on jam project and i just finished florence's hair and omg, my hands hurt i really wanted to preserve the heavy shadows/lineart with minimal distortion so the mesh is more detailed than usual. future me will appreciate it but current me is dead 🫠

i keep looking at my new vtuber design like ... how can you be so cute ...

made the deadly mistake of buying garlic texas toast to serve with lasagna for dinner with the intention of saving most of it for later. i have now eaten an entire box of frozen toast.

duuuude, i wish my work would chill, why can't we just have a normal month 😭 we lost another international package and i'm having to rush like 10 implant remakes, wahhhhhhh

i got the first wip back for my new vtuber model design (slash company mascot) and they are so cute... !!! will wait to share when the design is finalized but i'm 🥺🥺🥺

i rewatched lotr this weekend with my friends and duuuude, i cannot believe teenage me didn't realize how much my type grima wormtongue is 😭 a conniving, cowardly little freak... he's perfect...

told myself i was only gonna write like 1k per promp but i am physically incapable of writing anything short 💀 gonna try finishing it tonight while i am possessed by the spirits and edit it at some point this week

might try doing some kinktober prompts this year if work doesn't blow up in my face. i am currently working on my "be cringe be free" era so it seems like a good opportunity 🙂‍↕️ it'll all be OCs so nobody will read it but it will be fun. i've just gotta figure out who to dust off for these prompts

i was possessed by the spirit of a 2000s wattpad author and write like 5k of a supernatural romance over the weekend, what the hell not sure if i'm gonna stick with it but any writing is good writing i guess LOL

the slippery slope continues to get more slippy...

You might see several artists mad about the bluesky policy update banning non-con, even artists who do not make that kind of material, and wonder why it's such a problem. If that's you, here is a quick breakdown: 🧵

lots of stuff coming together for my smaller project, i'm so exciteddd. i have to make myself focus on my gamejam this month but next month, i'm locking tf in !!!

“Crawl your way out” 🩸⚡️ Self portrait number 7 in my annual series! I’ve been making these yearly portraits ever since I realised I was trans in 2018. I started 2024 with huge amounts of fear and self doubt and slowly learned that I deserve to be kind to myself (thanks, therapy). #art #selfPortrait

🐠 Meet 'yourself'... the titular Player Character!🐠 Plucked from life on the high seas, you've been dragged down into the depths. Persecuted by a foreboding 'god', you'll need every ally to find your way home! 🐠Customize your name & play as a gender neutral MC 🐠 #vndev #gamedev

i burnt the shit out of both my hands giving my grandma soup 🥲 tried to write a little and i couldn't even manage self-indulgent smut of my OCs... my life is a misery....

a book i was looking forward to comes out tomorrow, ahhh. i'm very excited (you weren't meant to be human by andrew joseph white) it ticks all two of my boxes (✔️gay ✔️horror) so i'm hella pumped

doctor kept me on the phone needing tech support so now i have to stay late to do the work i needed to do before eod BOOOO (yay money 🥲)

first jam week over!!! we finished the outline, got character concept/sprites started, started ui mock-ups and programming tests... my primary goal this week will be to create more concept for artists, finish ui mock-ups and start script and more importantly, give these dang guys names!!

slowly realizing i actually need to start learning c# again... born to write css, cursed to learn goddamn programming 🥲

The time has nearly arrived for #erohorrorvnjam to begin! Seasoned game devs and first time game makers alike! I'll be selecting 3 of my favorite games from the jam, and awarding $200 to each team, so give it a shot folks! You might just be a winner! gamejams.vnfreaks.com/erohorror2025/

i did get this funny picture of whiteboy, though. what is he looking at... [pic of tarantula]

all my spiders are too fat to have a meal 😔 maybe next week

i need to do spider husbandry things tmrw... check on the babies and what not. they came out of their molts a couple weeks back so i might be able to finally feed some of them!?

did my exactly one productive thing today (sent an email) time to slack off 😎

🩸To Kill Eros BL Visual Novel💘 Sharing a peek of the extra/gallery section for the demo! The demo isn't available yet, but it's in the final stages of editing before I submit it for #YaoiJam2025! 🫡 🎮: dokirakii.itch.io/to-kill-eros... #indiegame | #visualnovel | #vndev | #ToKillErosVN

i think my grandma gave me her hospital funk 🙄 the absolute fucking gall. after i bought her SO many milkshakes after her surgery

i love filling my baby tarantula's water dish because i never knew if the little dude is gonna think i'm a mealworm or not. the amount of times he's grabbed my fingers thinking i'm food is crazy. and then he looks at me like I'M the problem