I'm losing my mind. I swear I heard April's meow 😭😭😭 I miss you April

Hint: I will be doing something old sometime in August whenever I get my sight back 😉😉😉

In case anyone was wondering how our week back from vacation went: 1- #2 and I had hfm from last day 2- #1 caught it Sunday 3- #1 was up for 2 days 4- my only pair of glasses are gone so I only have my sunglasses to see until 8/12 when my new glasses come in (my eyes and astigmatism got worse too)

How is it I've gone a decade in the childcare field before I had kids and never got hfmd and on this vacation BabyToast and I get it on our last day 🙃🙃🙃

Very sad today is our last beach day and vacation day. But we had a fantastic vacation. I even got my beach nap cuddles from the BabyToast (who is not a baby anymore but I still haven't come up with new toast names for them) @ryetoast.bsky.social

I got my first curly cut right before we started moving and never had the time to actually style my hair because we'll, we were moving. Tried to style my hair for the first time today and it looks so much better than before I had a curly cut. It really does make a difference lol

Getting some writing done on vacation! Enjoying the cool morning breeze and some music. As well as all the hugs the boys decide to come give me.

I got my memorial ring for April back 😭😭😭 I miss my sweet babygirl so much.

Where is everyone going to sell their handmade things over Etsy? Icymi: etsy is allowing people to sell concentration camp merch and blocking users who report sellers. So now I'm looking elsewhere because I was planning to reopen to merch come August instead of just offering my tarot readings.

Taking the day off setting up the new place and working on some details for one of the stories I'm writing. (we don't have anyone to watch the kiddos and Rye needs to get some yt work done so it's a much needed day of 'rest').

Cool cool cool. Hoping my kids will get to keep their medicaid 😭😭😭

Sometime in August check out my shop. I should be offering more than just tarot readings again soon!

Heat + depression + antidepressant + dysautonomia = bad times Stay hydrated and stay cool folks!

Shout out to everyone able to go out and protest today! Thank you for playing a big part in this. Especially for those of us who can't participate today! #nokings

If there isn't, there should be a monitor that shows your sodium levels instead of glucose levels for those that are potsie or have similar dysautonomia issues. Because my symptoms are so much worse and I believe it to be because my sodium is so low but I literally can't tell how low and I'm just

I'm so excited to fully announce, HAM! (Heroes and Misfortunes) A pre-recorded and edited liveplay DND campaign DM'ed by yours truly and played by @danseibert.bsky.social @davidbaron.lol @pastraspec.bsky.social and @mamatoast.bsky.social ! Episode one launched RIGHT NOW so go get in there! #dnd

ToddlerToast got to watch his friends from his class graduate today. He's in an inclusive program that helps with his social development (as well as speech) and he won the fabulous friend award. ToddlerToast and BabyToast need new names. ToddlerToast isn't a toddler anymore and BabyToast is now 2.

I got my hopes up too high for my boys' party coming up soon. So now I need to reset them lower and hope they love it anyway. And try my best not to be too upset about it.

Maaaan my chronic fatigue has been brutal this past week. I can barely get anything done because after 15 minutes I get so dizzy and exhausted I feel like I'm going to pass out ☠️☠️☠️

I am EXHAUSTED

Around this time 2 years ago I was admitted for induction with BabyToast for pre-eclampsia. I was constantly being monitored for it for almost 3 whole months before I finally tested positive for it. Any soon to be mama's out there, listen to your body! If you don't feel right, advocate for yourself!

Not me being over emotional that today is the last day BabyToast is 1 😭😭😭 my sweet lil monster baby is 2 tomorrow and I'm not ready

I love my gift from my boys 😭😭😭 shout out to @ryetoast.bsky.social for helping them make it 🖤🖤🖤

If you look carefully you will find me and @ryetoast.bsky.social 🤣🤣🤣 (I obviously stole this off their fb page)

I may or may not have rolled both ankles. And we did have to leave like 2 songs early because I was going to pass out. I think this was adtr concert 7?

I'M SO READY! 🖤🖤🖤 @ryetoast.bsky.social

On our way! @ryetoast.bsky.social (and yes my car clock is 1hr behind bc I REFUSE to change it with daylights savings time)

I'm so excited for tomorrow night!

Trying to brainstorm ideas on securing an ac in here. Growing up I used to sleep on my sister's bedroom floor or my parents bedroom floor. Obviously that's not an option with the ToastTots. We have a standing portable one. We just need to seal and secure the window. Somehow.

Doing lots of work today

I will never be able to express how much I love my boys 🥰🥰🥰 they are just the cutest sweetest kiddos

The house we live in doesn't have central ac. It is also stucco. So it releases heat inside the house as the outside air cools at night. In the last 30 minutes I almost blacked out 2x (5x so far) This summer is going to be HELL. The high today was only apparently only 84 but my car clocked 87.

I'm contemplating using this platform as like a book review platform as well (since I don't tiktok or insta) as the usual ToastLife shenanigans, maybe eventually go back to posting my daily tarot(but I've been so busy and unmotivated lol) Maybe one day I'll go back to streaming with Rye too

trueblacktarot.com/merch I NEED THIS DECK

I accidently let my tarot readings expire on etsy, but now that things have settled in the chaos of the Toast Household, they're back up for sale!

Torturing myself watching my snapchat memories 😭😭😭 this was 5 years ago

Oh boy this summer is going to be great /sarcasm This is my heart rate laying down and it only got to like 80 degrees today (my room is hot at night bc 1. no ac and 2. the house is stucco so it releases heat inside when the outside cools) #dysautonomia

My life has been this vibe for the last two weeks. "Good morning. The sun is shining, the tank is clean, and we are getting out of - *in quiet horror* the tank is clean. THE TANK IS CLEEEEAAAAAN"

With everything going on I never shared that I finally finished April's shadow box.

BabyToast got a different antibiotic this afternoon and is starting to feel better! Still cranky and extra tired, but a little less those. Bedtime cuddles after a tubby sure did cheer him up some.

So I am a cloth diaper mama at heart and it kills me that I can't full time cloth diaper rn. HOWEVER ToddlerToast is not re-potty training how I would have liked so I'm converting my cloth diapers into pull ups to put over his underwear so he still feels wet when there's accidents

Give me strength. BabyToast has been sick for a week and STILL is sick and I am burnt out from my lil velcro baby who is 10x worse when sick.

Daily sensory deprivation time. Where I lay in a dark room with a fan on to block out most of the noise in the house. Most times it turns into me napping lol

BabyToast has learned that I keep things in my bra - especially when I don't have pockets. He has since started putting things in my bra (or trying to). Currently his cup is now in my shirt.

Pulled out my cloth diapers in an attempt to re-potty train ToddlerToast. Since he's allergic to pull ups and diapers that aren't target brand (and target hasn't had their brand pull ups since Sept) I'm hoping my cloth diapers make him feel wet enough to entice him back to the potty

Quality cuddles and quiet time.

So I finally am starting to design those cheapie plastic wine glasses for @ryetoast.bsky.social merch. As for font, would you guys like it to be the same font used in the thumbnails or an almost cursive font?

Casey's food got delivered today (he has ibs so he has a perscription food) and my heart broke all over knowing April won't be bullying him out of his food and I can probably change how often his food is delivered now. That was the only time she's ever go against Casey was for his food. 😭😭😭

I love having the vasovagal variant of pots /sarcasm