UGHHHH MY CAT NEEDS ME AND MY GF NEEDS ME AND MY BESTIE NEEDS ME UGHHH BUT I WANNA DIE GANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I should just kill myself. Like I won't but like.... What if I diddddd Ggghhhg I won't. I won't . But But But But But But What if I did

Today an old friend reached out to me. I re read our texts from a fucking decade ago. Makes me feel old. Reminds me of how long things have been like this for. I wish I were dead

Yeah I'm upset about being a fat fucking pig who can't do anything right but more than anything I just feel broken. I just want things to be normal. But they aren't. I'll never be normal. I hate being haunted by my past, I'm sick of it. I want to die die die die die die die die die die die dijfjfj

Why the fuck didn't my stupid ass parents abort me Stupid fucking idiots Stupid stupid stupid I don't wanna exist I don't wanna exist!!!! I can't die I have people who depend on me I just wanna not exist... PLEASEEE GGHHHHGH

i don’t think i’m gonna ever get older than 15 (i’m almost 22)

Just a reminder, if you do not have your age displayed on your profile anywhere I will not be following you back! I don't wanna be moots with anyone who could potentially be underaged

YALL MY GF WON THE ARGUMENT KILL ME 😭 I didn't wanna make a scene at work so.. I gave in 😔 I only ate about 150 cals tho.. Guess as long as I don't eat anything else today it's fine.. Kms I wanted to fast until tomorrow

Working with my gf is nice but also not nice cus she's pestering me to eat Bitch no I'm at hour 17 in my fast 😭

Another fast bc I've been a piggy Yesterday I ended up eating like 1500 cal and the day before I got up to 1000 TF is wrong w me

Wish I fasted for longer but I don't have it in me.. Ngl for the past week or so I've just been binging or eating normally, not restricting ;w; regained a couple of pounds too.. kms I broke my fast with around 700 calories (barbacoa kids quesadilla and a small amount of sprite)

I keep dying fuck Sorry guys I need to be more active again

Happy new years guys :) Sorry I died, some shit went down. Don't feel like getting into it I ate 500 calories yesterday but today I've had 1k :(

Broke my fast w/ crackers and milk (200 cals) I kinda broke it last night, I ate about 100 cals worth of steak at work bc my shift was awful, I worked 9 hours without a break 😭 I was feeling so bad I needed smth to help me thru, and I mean.. 100 calories isn't much so whatever im not counting it

Why TF did a femdom account follow me?? Is it a bot? 😭 I blocked them This is the first major non edbsky person to attempt to follow me and I don't understand why

I'm gonna fucking kill myself gang We're so fucking understaffed at work today and I'm a closer so I won't be able to leave for like 5 billion years

Another day another fast Last night after I broke my 45 hours fast I kinda got high and binged on 1k calories x_x I should be fine that's still enough for me to lose weight on but it's more than I was intending on eating... Im not eating today tho and tomorrow I'm gonna try to keep it to 700-800 cal

Forgot pic fcuc

Ending my fast a bit early I think I might just do another short fast after what I eat tonight tho

Y'all what does caterpillarsky even mean?? 😭 I always assumed it was a code word similar to like lemonwatersky but I realize now that I have no idea what it actually means.. is it another tag for edbsky? Or is it for sh? #edbsky

Back to my chewing and spitting ways I'm so hungry I only did it with one small piece of meat tho there's no way I absorbed enough of it while it was in my mouth for it to mean anything

I'm so hungry.. feeling faint I'm thinking about ending my fast tonight at 48 hours after I get home.. idk should I??

Using my cats as fatspo because they’re begging for food even tho they don’t get fed for another hr

No monster today sadly :( I'm a broke bitch

Random rant before I clock in I feel so insecure about my high starting weight. I've struggled with food basically my whole life, and it feels like I'm always either over eating or starving myself to make up for it. Honestly I'm tired of it but idk how to be normal #edbsky #lemonwatersky #edtwt

Was thinking about ending my fast early today but after weighing myself?? Nah man I'm on a roll I am not eating I am not eating

Weighed myself before I left for work and YESS NUMBER FINALLY WENT DOWN GUYS I don wanna sayyy the number because it's way too high and disgusting but once I've lost 10 lbs from my starting weight I'll probably be comfortable enough to start talking about specifics It'll help with motivation

Weighed myself last week. Weight was too high. Weighed myself again just now because I'm feining for food rn and I havent really lost much weight at all. .. well I guess it was the motivation I needed to not eat

#caterpillarsky #lemonwatersky #edsky #edbsky #shedbsky

Why the fuck hasn't someone killed our shitty ass president yet. I mean, really, why the fuck hasn't someone killed him yet. I'm not saying I am, or that I plan to (I am not committing any cwimes I pwomise 🥺) But someone fucking needs to.

Getting extremely hangry Thinking about all the fucked up shit going on current day in America and it makes me wanna blow my brains out

Tbh when I got home I found myself tryna think of literally any excuse to go get something to eat I'm so hungry 😭 I didn't tho Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel better

This prolly tmi but that monster I drank is destroying my insides bro Straight acid coming out the other end 😭

Ugh. Impulsively ate a piece of carne meat at work . I spit it out tho

Im NOT gonna eat (monsters don't count 👅 only one a day tho) until Sunday, and when I do eat on Sunday my calorie limit is gonna be 600 The day after my cal limit will be 700, then tuesday-thursday my cal limit will be 1200 to throw off suspicion from gf

Another day another monster

Starting another fast... How long should it be? Should it be another 65 hr one or should it be shorter? I'm worried I won't have the willpower for another fast like that but at the same time.. Ive been such a pig

Would anyone here be interested in joining an 18+ discord server for people here? I don't have one but I've ran one before, and it sounds like a fun way to keep me motivated #edbsky #edsky #lemonwatersky

Imma be so real with you all.. these holidays have fucked me sideways into next week. I saw family, it was extremely stressful cus my abusive piece of shit dad was there, and I binged a bunch. Really awful. Hopefully I'll get my shit together and keep it together this time

Part of me wants to fast today to make up for last night but it's gonna be hard to do that once I'm home. I'm gonna try to make it less than 1000 tho Girlfriend cannot find out I don't want her tryna force me to eat cus eventually she will :')

Sorry I died a bit guys I've been visiting family n friends Will be heading home later today Ngl I got super high last night and ate wayyyyyy too much food. It had to be like.. at least 1700, maybe even 1800 I didn't keep track of exactly how much I ate 😭 I'm gonna do better today

I've reached my final form guys I'm officially restrict brain again Y'all don't understand.. last time I fully relapsed like this was in 2022..... This is crazy.. I've TRIED SO MANY TIMES IT NEVER WORKED finally... FINALLY!!!¡!!!!

Oh my god guys maybe I CAN eating disorder correctly... I was originally gonna like. Like. Not care as much about calories when I'm not working cus it's more convenient plus don't want gf finding out but.. but now that my work week is over . I kinda don't want to? I'm kinda scared? Yes... FINALLY

Oh my god guys my stomach is so fucking confused right now I'm high as balls and I'm getting the munchies, but I'm full, but my body is like "ohmygos food... Haven't seen any of that in so long...more... Oh my god it's not just monster energy drink MORE SUSTENANCE" so I feel hungry AND full.

Auughhhh.... Guys this tea is sooooo gooodd...... Who made this shit I need to kiss them on the lips for making this aushhhhhuhh my god it's so low calorie ...... It says 0 but Iknthags a lie it's just so little that they don't have to say it Like it says it has less than a gram of sugar but not 0

Fuckkk guys I'm so dumb I can't eating disorder right 😩 I wasn't getting full fast bc my tummy is just so small and petite and cute . I t was because... I forgot... TO CALCULATE THE BUTTER I PUT IN THE NOODLES.. I got the sauce n stuff but .. bro how do I forget that Y'all don't make food while high

What the fuck I'm not even finished with my noodles yet and I feel full ... I didn't even get that much FUCCKKK I FORGOT TO WEIGHT MYSELF BEFORE I ATE FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK I WANTED TO SEE HOW MUCH I LOST FROM THAT FAST AND NOW THAT IVE EATEN IT WONT BE ACCURATE FUCK FUCKFUCKCKXK . it's fine.