Filled with anxiety about a job offer being rescinded. I hope they like me. Everyone be so niceys 😬

Shapes Slowly I've been becoming more open online about having Dissociative Identity Disorder. I drew this at a moment of feeling very isolated and incapable of fitting the shapes others expected of me. Back then I felt like it was something no one would ever understand.

Discovered universal paperclips. There goes a whole day of productivity lol

Fucked up brewing some of my expensive oolong. Alas! Take away my good at making tea card 😔

I feel like every time I try to regularly be on bluesky and try to interact with people I get anxious lol. Such is life.

Gonna change my bio to just say 25+ or something I forgot how annoying it is to change it every time birthday

went on record for the first three episodes that pluribus was fun but just ok going on record after episodes four and five saying that at this point its genuinely good

For the last few years I’ve been trying hard to read a book a month and it looks like I might get 15 books finished before the end of the year :) maybe I’ll talk about my favs out of the ones I read

Old women yuri help me get accepted to an MFA program 🙏

Taking a freaking chill out day because I’ve been stressed how’s everyone doinggggg

The dissociative disorder tendency to become really depersonalized when you listen to a recording of yourself. Also probably the dysphoria

Housing chips and salsa in the Safeway parking lot

oh yeah have people been leaving bluesky because of the shit moderation or is there just like no other place to go. I really only saw a vague mention of it while I was not checking social media

my sister & her boyfriend keep being like ohh wow you know so many Japanese recipes and it’s like yeah I guess but these recipes equate to “the Japanese mom I hung out with a lot put a bunch of stuff in a pot and served it to us” which I think is what a lot of recipes are tbh

I want whatever gender cis men who tune pianos have

yes im procrastinating writing again why do you ask

AND ANOTHER THING. when you write your poem or book or story or whatever only half of the thing has been created. The other half is created by the reader/audience engaging with the work and making their own meaning out of it

this is by no means a novel idea but i really adore simplistic prose styles and just... saying things. "The room was empty." "Some days I don't miss my family." Sometimes the most meaning is derived from the most simplistic statements. Aaaand post

and some days i don't miss my family / and some days i do / sometimes i think i'd feel better if i tried harder / most days i know it's not true

It’s mushishi Monday Wednesday

falls down and an anime ghost comes out of my mouth. i finished the new first draft of my portfolio piece

Eek! On the third chapter and ordinary people is way too relatable 😬 we’ll see if I can get through it without it triggering a dissociative episode lol

Day 10 at normal pace approximate word count: 16,500 Day 10 actual word count: 17,300

yes im procrastinating writing again

i got a little fidget toy thats a little plushie with beans in it and its a thylacine (awesome) and the person i bought it from said they'd been naming that round of plushies after soups and i was like oh ok so its name is now panera creamy chicken and wild rice soup

everyone keeps freaking reminding me my birthday is soon i literally keep FORGETTING

Hachimitsu lemon you will always be famous

I think the lineup of my OCs names lately is very funny. Gabriel, Phineas, Matthew, Jude… there might be a theme here (intentional)

my spinach and artichoke dip alter when the spinach and artichoke dip comes out:

If you put spinach and artichoke dip in front of me I go into a fugue state and eat the whole thing no matter the size of the package

I need to make more SYSTEM FRIENDS!!!!!! [my psychic blast shatters all the windows in my vicinity]

a drive with the boyfriend

Maybe I should make an oc tag for myself and for others lmfao

gababriel

“this is supposed to be a scorpoan but y the artost ever saw a scorpi ok n” — Karl Marx

Had a strawberry matcha for the first time. My verdict: it’s good. It doesn’t taste like matcha though just strawberry

Somehow found a pencil I’ve been torn up about losing for a month in the pocket of the jacket I use every day and check often. How it eluded me for a month we’ll never know

Acorn hat [ #art #oc #watercolor ]

oh ya im on a new book now :) im reading ordinary people by judith guest

dunno why it didnt occur to me that being visibly gay/gnc attracts other trans ppl to me like moths lol

The “just moved from Japan” thing is a real conversation starter. Just chatted with a random lady because she was like I’m going to Tokyo soon and I was like woah cool :) I’ve been there!!

gabriel molecule

and yes i AM procrastinating writing my words for today thanks for asking

everyone ignore the fact that im trying to post the same art over and over. shad can u send me the version u made for me as a png or something

oh i forgot i can like post art on this platform. would ppl care abt that lol

[thinkgs about gabe] [gets rly emotional] author's note: gabe is my new tabletop oc

my copyright free november writing challenge update is that apparently i can write 1.7k words in an hour and im not really sure when that happened

oh yeah i also did a lung function test (for my asthma) and they were like wow... your lungs are so good. you have 140% capacity. and i was like *is* that a good thing...? and they were like well. it could mean you have air trapped in your lungs. and i was like ok yeah that sounds correct

little cafe in the middle of the city save me. save me little cafe in the middle of the city

Everyone look my horse