Some of ya'll may not like to hear it or believe it... But start of a new hormone cycle hit this month with all the not so fun symptoms... Fucking hell mate!! If ya need me ill be curled up in the fetal position... 😖😖😖

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Fuck i feel so angsty & pissed off at everything today... I really am going thru fucking puberty again 😫

Warning back to back snow storms coming the last 2 weekends of February... Maybe ill just plan on not going so others at least can enjoy the events... 😅

Its ironic on the same day Phil saw his shadow, i saw mine and retreated hard If every time i try to put myself out into the world in small ways i pamic amd retreat like the stupid ground hog... How the fuck do i keep going?

In my head...my face card perpetually declines 🙁

I think im just gonna lean in & settle into the androgynous "dad" & "husband" Everytime i step out trying to just be a woman i feel my anxiety skyrocket & my dysphoria ramps up to 100 Everything that gives me dysphoria just heightens to levels that make me feel uncomfortable 😮‍💨

😳😳😳 Okay okay... Its been 2 weeks since my 5th laser session... And ya'll... Its starting to work!!!!!! Im seeing bald patches starting where there is no growth!!! Mainly on my upper lip... But omg i see it!!! 😭😭😭😭 Im so freaking happy right now!!!!!

a part of me yearns for a freedom my life may never get to experience... 😮‍💨

what 18 months of injecting Estrogen directly into the blood stream does to a mother fucker...

18 months on injections... Just kicked my 6th vial!!

Some self-care to feel human again after being sick for a week & then running into depression... Feels good!! 😁

Like bro i used to be so fucking positive & optimistic... Like in the deepest years of my dude repression (age 17 - 27) I was always the silver lining type. Always smiling, laughing, enjoying everything... I found joy in just about every situation... Then it changed -->

Today is one of those "crushing weight of depression" days... Good thing i have no meetings all day cuz i just wanna rot... Bad thing is i have like 4 projects im behind on and today was the perfect day to catch up... Fuck my mental health 😮‍💨

Im happy enough. Why cant i be content instead of this existential lonliness 😮‍💨

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Cozy girl vibes after 2.5 hours of shoveling with the kids... Probs hafta go out to do it again tomorrow 😮‍💨

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Ya know what, I hope there is a heaven & hell So these fake ass pretend "christians" can burn in hell for eternity for this shit!!!

Fr fr, switching to a 5 day shot instead of 7 has been an absolute game changer for my mental stability My depression part of my cycle is sooo much less intense!! Like it used to be 7-10 days of a complete train wreck Now its like 1 - 2 here & there Its amazing!!! 🥰

Getting over a nasty head cold and I was pretty much useless at work this week... So my self-esteem right now has tanked... And of course im in my depression phase of my cycle... Fuck me 😮‍💨

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Ever look around & think "ive got a pretty solid life around me right now" And then think "but i dont feel like lifing anymore." ? Just me? Ok 😮‍💨

The tphobes on here tryna hate on me here got nothing on the self-loathing my brain does... Today's self hate: Boobs are too wide set so look weird in normal bras, so sports bras & full coverage bralettes only And the constant struggle with my facial hair makes me hate my face

Shit... Im about to have 3 nickels!! Planned in going to a Trans Social event locally on Sunday... 12" - 15" of Snow Sunday into Monday... Are you kidding me?!? 😭 I just wanna make friends!!! 😭😭😭

So despite the snow... I was able to get out to KoP and meet with a close friend We had brunch... She then asked me "what do you wanna do" gave me some options... Then said "you think on it while i use the restroom" One of the options was getting actually fitted for a bra -->

If I had a nickle for everytime a snow storm cancelled or nearly cancelled a meet up with other trans ppl... I'd have 2 Nickles, which is not alot but ita crazy that its happened twice (in the last month) 😭😭😭

Istg the fucking weather is t-phobic at this point... Weve had 2 decent snow storms this winter... Both the Sunday im supposed to meetup with ppl from a discord group... Son of a bitch

My go to is "Its Fine"

Omg... I forgot the most important one... I dont own a Blahaj!!! 😭 Im a damn fraud!!! 😭😭😭

Shit... I guess im just an ally to the Trans Community... Im not into Star Trek, i never played Celeste and i didnt get into MtG... So Im just a c*s woman... Damn... I wanted to be Trans soooo bad too...

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So pretty sure my "dude mode" is cooked from the neck down... ☠️☠️☠️

Soooo there is supposed to be a Ring of Fire solar eclipse on the same day of the Chinese New Year?? What kinda cosmic bullshit is about to happen?!?? Like this aint some cosmic coincidence... Like some shits about to go down right??

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I've... Been unintentionally off my antidepressant for a week (or is it 2 now? 🤔)... And uh... Guess thats a bad thing... Cuz im starting to feel that despair creep in... And my pms week doesnt start until next Friday 😬

Using 5 different Exfoliating treatments on my face... Call that the erosion FFS Just gonna very slowly grind my face down 😆

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Alright ya'll 5th laser session today I'm really hoping for some results to start showing this time I feel like around chin & neck is so freaking frustrating. The dark shadow returns within a day of shaving Im also getting these awful red bumps on my chin Its sucks so bad 😫

*wants to start making friends in person* Me: hmm what do i have in common w/ ppl? *Is an almost 39 yr old later in life trans woman living in farmland PA who is married w/ 2 early teen active kids & has a love/k*ll me relationship with Philly sports* Me: never mind

I really need to find a new passion/interest that isnt just Philly Sports. Cuz once they break my heart & disappoint me... There isnt anything to redirect my energy towards... Its just wait for the next season to start