if my closest friends could fathom the total extent of self-hatred the internet instilled in me during my formative years, they would not feel comfortable until every person who gleefully helped kneecap the potential of a once bright and curious kid was dead.

strangely I keep feeling like I'm not doing enough, not feeling like I belong, not feeling involved in any communities.... It's been going on for years. can't seem to shake it. Making more art feels like the path forward but it's not enough. I still feel emptiness and sense of yearning regardless.

i'll see you in the next one too, yeah? ☀️

Rest easy @nickthebluecat.bsky.social I will never forget you and your unmatched interests and vibes. I'm happy I got to call you my best friend for 23 of your 27 years. I am so glad I got to give you one last hug and home cooking two weeks ago. Love you and will miss you immensely.

herd

This is so, so well-articulated.

Finally organized all the reference photos I took in Gotland last summer. (PureRef is a freaking gift) Gonna put these to use some time later.

I can't tell if I've evolved or ended up back where I started

Still to this day the greatest fate to befall the gävle goat. I don't think being pecked to smithereens by birds can ever be topped

Using a combination of glitches in Super Mario World, Yoshi can be taken into the final battle, where he can eat Peach upon Bowser's defeat. With Peach gone, the ending will not play, and Mario and Yoshi will simply stare at each other forever.

i love you yoshi...

I made the Audiojungle soundpack for Team Fortress 2. gamebanana.com/wips/90778

apple

Krita has a liquify tool built in? And it's been there for *years*?? AND it's FASTER than the one in photoshop??? brb going to donate more money to Krita lmao

On social anxiety, I keep asking: if my fears are true—that my friends are eager to reject me just for being a bit strange—why would I still hang out with them? Why would I want to be friends with such mean people? It's silly but it helps me remember how nice and forgiving my friends actually are.

Been using blender on a weekly basis since late 2016. It's been a journey with up and downs learning it, but if it didn't exist then I probably would never have gotten into making 3D content and eventually meet my fiancé and so many of my friends. If you play VRChat, you owe A LOT to blender!

Taking a break.

Another step on my quest to make good water #vrchat also dunno what bsky is doing because it made my earlier upload louder than god

Once again making a costume for halloween this year. I'm interested in this...

70s-influenced concepts for a proposed VRC world: "Good Water" (because it has good water)

sketch last year with Eyre and @squidequid.bsky.social I'm sure someone can guess the pose I was inspired by!

him but toy

secret place.

bird grid

Recently I've been making concepts for a really old passion project of mine. It's been helping me relax.

the dichotomy.

a compilation of my Blockland edits for no particular reason

WARNING some kind of idiot has breached containment

2023 bd present for my bf- @grim2o0o.bsky.social

honestly wondering if anyone else feels the same way about this kind of mouth shape that I do

From last December, a lil secret santa thing I did for somebody. Drawpile is weirdly good as a standalone art program.

from August, thing I made in Drawpile. lel.

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