Finished my ADHD test. Was it supposed to hurt? Because I felt horrible afterwards lol.

Finally getting tested for ADHD. I really feel like I have some kind of focus thing going. But whether or not it's that, or even if it's treatable, I feel would be worlds better for me in the grand scheme of things.

My sister and I don't always see eye to eye and I don't think I get along with her all that much, but she came home from work sobbing and now I've unlocked the "vengeful sibling" perk. People like to call my sister Wednesday. This bitch might learn that I make Wednesday look like a fucking saint.

Falling asleep to positive affirmations and feeling really good and thinking, "wait, this shit is actually working this time? Cool!" This new "I can actually focus on things" me is pretty neat. I rock!

I don't know how to approach my neighbors upstairs about their kids being so noisy. Like I get they're kids, but why should I have to suffer for their lack of discipline? Even my therapist could hear them during my phone session. Every time I try to approach them, they throw me off with something.

So I find it so strange how much I'm aware of how much I'm not aware when I'm high. Like I joke how dense I am from time to time but it's pretty sad tbh. I feel like I'm missing out on so much by being so spacey and it's kind of ironic being high of all things changes that.

So I had a weird dream my dad had another child I didn't know about around my age. She was pretty much like what I always wanted to be myself I think. Or at least something I might have wanted to have. My siblings and I aren't super close so it could be a combo of that.

Darn my post about being toasted was one off from being my 420th post here and I'm sad. Lol

Help I'm just toasted enough that I typed "grass station" instead of "gas station" and I can't stop giggling.

Took a huge step today. Hopefully one that helps me in the right direction.

Oh yeah ya girl got her physical done. Guess who's the healthiest I've been in like 5 years?

Feeling oddly good this morning. Not perfect but it's a start.

Ever heard of No Nut November? Well now it's No Nuts November where I go the whole month without eating any nuts... Or well any food really. It's the cool new trend the government thinks we should participate in.

If being a billionaire is so cool then why do all the current billionaires suck so much?

Well I guess they shut off our Internet until I can pay the bill.

I didn't want to say anything but as of November I'll be one of the many who are without food assistance. I'm barely able to make it with them so I really feel nervous going into November. I'll try to make due with what I can but I'll post my ko-fi just in case. Thanks. ko-fi.com/kamietwiligh...

I have an increasing urge to blast this as loud as I possibly can and leave the house so it can drive my neighbors absolutely insane. www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYIw...

Happy Halloween everyone! Well almost. But I did finish my SFM project. The Terrible Sitcom Halloween Special. The Scout takes his kids out Trick or Treating and they get a pretty surprise. youtu.be/-6tqxoQKs1A

Family above me claims their baby snores. I'm sorry but if that is coming from your baby you might need to call an exorcist.

I'm gonna do it! I'm gonna no-hit this run! IT'S HAPPENING!!! *Gets hit by the last attack* Dammit!

Now that I own my own purse I can accurately shout "that's my purse, I don't know you!"

Well no outfits really, but I did find a nice purse for $5. No more carrying my stuff in my hands next Offkai lol.

Hopefully I can find some sweet deals at the big tag sale tomorrow. Momma needs a nice new outfit or 12.

I hate how weed makes me so clairvoyant. Like is this how it feels to not have severe ADHD brain scramble? I had an actual calm, clear debate and might actually have gotten my sister to understand why I disagree with her views, enough for her to possibly change.

I had a friend that said to watch cartoons while listening to rap music so that it looks like the cartoons are rapping. Like wtf lol? Ps They do look like they're rapping. xD

Ever just like so sleepy that when you're asleep but have to get up that you just start worrying reality is just a dream and you're actually going to the bathroom in bed right now?

I wouldn't say I stole this, just borrowed the idea lol. Right? R-right? Anyway... I'll answer as many as I can. Can we get to 37? :D

Having a panic attack and on hold with the doctor's office to get help and holy crap the audio is unbalanced AF. Like probably to keep you from falling asleep waiting but damn. Most tone-deaf, uneven volume garbage ever.

So my Halloween SFM so far. Made some decent progress today. Hopefully I can finish it in two weeks.

Freaky ghost bed!

I think if I ever acquired the funds to, I'd want to open up a barcade. Have arcade cabinets, bar food and drinks, and a dance floor for raves and stuff. Kind of a club for gamers and the like. I'd call it the Twilight Void.

I'm back and I have to make sure everyone knows...

So since reality hit me pretty hard last night, I'm not 100% sure I'll be able to finish that video I had in the works in time for Halloween. I might go radio silent for a while. Be good while I'm gone and keep having hope okay.

Well I learned one thing last night. I feel like a fucking ghost. And I have a lot of demons to fight.

I've ascended. or something. So many notes in music. Like wow, I haven't even heard them and I have. What?

Saw they cut down the bushes that the cats lived in. Now there are just cats all over their lawn. Like bitch you took our home. I love kitties. :3

Went for a walk to clear my head and now I'm stoned. I need to do it more often. Which one you ask? Yes.

I'm genuinely concerned about my current health being affected by this location. I was legitimately shaking from stress today.

Join a VC to hang with people and my neighbors decide to once again leafblow their lawn... (Leaves haven't even started falling yet) And the other neighbors start launching firecrackers... And if that wasn't enough the young children upstairs get home and start running around. I'm beyond done.

Thanks to movies like Who Framed Roger Rabbit?, The Addams Family and its sequel (Values). As a kid I strongly believed Christopher Lloyd was a demonic gremlin of sorts. xD

Wait... I might not suck at rhythm games??? I can potentially be that insanely good ddr person at the random mall arcade of legend?!

How to give an entire Fandom feels on the 3rd of October.

If you see this, post a goth (or punk) girl 💜 Art by @starlightnoelle.bsky.social

Had someone start chatting with me in stream that started to sound like a damn job interview. Turns out they were a "we help streamers grow" company. Like sorry but I'm not interested in that. Don't pop into someone's stream and start with that shit. Kills the vibes so bad.

Gonna do a late night stream of more Megabonk. Now until I get tired. twitch.tv/kamietwilight

Sheesh my poor ass could already barely afford gamepass as it was. My use of it just doesn't justify that anymore.

Might possibly stream some more tonight at like 10 or 11pm. I got an appointment tomorrow during my usual time I'm thinking about streaming so maybe more Megabonk or possibly start Dead Rising Remastered. Might not be TJ but I'll give it a shot.

Stream done. Thanks for hanging out. We got some unlocks! Tune in for more streams as October rolls on. I have a few zombie games in my backlogs. I want to keep things going as best I can. I raided into @remyslimedragon.bsky.social

Everything seems to be running smoothly enough. So we are go to Megabonk in less than an hour. Let's bonk it up. How many words can I replace with bonk, chat? It's my affiliate anniversary! www.twitch.tv/kamietwilight