today is the two year anniversary of The Incident and i’m a mess

two days till the two year anniversary of The Incident, the event that completely shattered all aspects of my life 💔

My Thanksgiving wish for you is that your life becomes a little less interesting, at least for a while. ❤️

if only you guys knew what happened today lmao all shall be revealed in my memoir!

this time of year again 🙃

just too much going on. it’s like i’ve been hyperventilating for a week straight

these past ten days have just been absolute hell, compounded by the fact that the Incident anniversary is in six days literally fuck november

i went out to dinner with this guy and this is what he texted me immediately after … whatever happened to “nice to meet you”

guess who had to go back to urgent care today!

ignore the wrinkled skirt - i’m finally healed enough to start going to parties again!

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gonna go meditate for a bit brb

my birthday is on sun and i'm dreading it so bad. that was the day we found out i still had sepsis. one of my worst days in the hospital - i was so excited about getting a special breakfast for my bday and the nurse said i need emergency surgery and literally took the fork out of my mouth lmaoooo

last night, my mom and i ran into each other in the kitchen at 3am and realized we were both so stressed that we made a pizza right then and there 😭

this makes me really happy to read! i still have my moments but think i am feeling more optimistic in general since The Dates have passed 🥹💓

so tempted to cancel EMDR in a couple hours but i'm gonna try to tough it out!!!

high-key dreading 4pm PT bc that's around the time It Happened

okay sorry in advance - i just need to skeet through it today new goal is to move back to my apartment sometime late next week but also trying to not rush myself 😵‍💫

i feel bad for my parents bc it's been a week since i let them open the blinds lol

🙏🏼 just need to get through today 🙏🏼

ordered froyo for lunch

john cusack unfollowed me here & i'm just telling myself it's bc he couldn't handle me talking about The Incident anymore & it made him sad :(

turns out this time period is more triggering to me than the actual anniversary (11/26) was. whenever i tell someone about The Incident, i always say it happened "the Sunday after Thanksgiving" so the vibes here are a little 😵‍💫

first time speaking to a reporter for a story since The Incident!!!

so weird. why does today feel more like The Incident than the actual anniversary of The Incident did???

today marks the one year anniversary of The Incident, where doctors said i only have a 50% chance of surviving emergency surgery it also marks the two month anniversary of me getting transported to ER via ambulance for ANOTHER surgery now i have a clean bill of health & bad news for my haters:

tomorrow is The Anniversary

ended up having to cancel EMDR yesterday bc my body has been freaking out (insomnia, nonstop high heart rate) when i texted my therapist to let her know, she said "this is what i meant when i told u it's going to get worse before it gets better" 😵‍💫 starting to calm down now though thankfully 🙏🏼

slowly getting back to normal. i spoke to a reporter for the first time since The Incident!!! it's for a story on bluesky and idk if anything i said made sense but we'll see~

got a kind message from someone today who also almost died from sepsis. they said that EMDR did wonders for them 🤞🏼

created this account bc someone referred to me as "the EMDR lady" lmaooo

i've had five High Heart Rate notifications since my EMDR appt a few hours ago - does that mean it's working lol

i am soliciting advice!!! you all have been so helpful navigating this. if you have any helpful tips, like the one below, please shoot them my way! 🫶🏼

I will dig out my "Good Vibes and Hot Guys for Jenn" Prayer candle and light it tonight.

something i wrote about The Incident on my private account that i wanted to share here with the anniversary of The Incident coming up on the 26th, these flashbacks won't stop coming lol 😵‍💫

i have my second EMDR session tomorrow - so nervous! i'm still in the intake process, which means i have to talk about everything from The Incident that i've been trying to ignore. can we just skip to the healing part already 😵‍💫

still suffering from severe PTSD from The Incident. a few people have recommended that i try EMDR. anyone have experience with this, specifically for PTSD? 🙏🏼

big day today! officially cleared to remove my surgical binder and EXERCISE 💓

healing is not linear healing is not linear healing is not linear healing is not linear healing is not linear

happy surgery day 2 me 🥳

hi friends - i needed to raise the fundraiser goal so i can get a MUCH-needed surgery later this month. please consider reposting or donating, if you can. thank you ❤️ www.gofundme.com/f/help-jenn-...

i'm still recovering from a medical emergency that almost killed me (a few times!) and left me with more than $30k in medical debt 🫠 finally created a gofundme - if you'd like to help out, please consider donating or sharing. thank you so much 🫶🏼

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just googled myself to find an article and “jenn takahashi illness” was the first suggestion lolllllll i promise i’ll tell when i’m ready but i can say i’m on the (very) long road to recovery! 🙏🏼

still struggling to articulate this but the outpouring of love truly helped heal me. my parents would read me ur comments under my health updates while i was in the ICU & i can’t thank u all enough for lifting my spirits in a v dire situation to everyone who reached out - thank you & i love you ❤️

oh my GOD why did no one take my phone from me?!

appreciate you for checking in! still have a long road to recovery but i’ll share more soon all i can say is this has been a big wakeup call. PLEASE listen to your body and go to the doctor when something feels off. had i not gone to the ER exactly when i did, i would’ve died. love you all, be safe

one good thing about all this is i came up with a new pickup line: damn boy, are you a hospital ward bc ICU 👀

it’s only been a a couple weeks since the doctors said there was only a 50% chance of me making it through my first emergency surgery fast forward to two days ago, my mom woke up and said “merry christmas jenn - what a blessing it is to be able to say that” 🥲🙏🏼❤️