im in a safe space for now. its temporary & im still looking for housing. im still starting with nothing. today i was able to get gizmo food & litterbox, got some storage bins + vacuum seal storage, & food for myself. thank you so much everyone. im getting closer and closer to being completely free

at a safe house now. he showed up once at my bffs moms place and i had to leave. he called everyone i know a ton. im getting more things squared away. very excited about the future but still horrifically sickeningly scared. but i persist

im a disabled trans hermit with a cat fleeing a decade of domestic violence and abuse. i already was non functional from cptsd & i need help clawing my way to independence + freedom. staying is not an option. my only window out is today ca$happ $dogawful chime $dogawful www.paypal.me/assthony

i think its time to start phase one !

hehehe

guess whos obscenely oc brained again (*´∀`)♪

the last thing everyone heard from me before i passed out on the living room floor in a human dog bed with tomodachi life on the screen so that dinky music was on repeat all night

bro the stone cold hollow stomach sickening sadness is affecting me

containment

happy 420

Let's all go to Paradise [ #wolfsrain #fanart #anime #artsky #wolf ]

modest mouse voice. freeze your blood and then stab it into me

werewolf leonnnnnn

The Dream is Calling, 2026

something got into the pig pen

bsky allow locked accs already so i can post my video rants. actively choking coughing laughing at how im a ventriloquist dummy. ppl have been dealing with THIS??? WHEN I SPEAK???

disability review time always makes me anxious fearful that im gonna get rug pulled.... <-- guy that is genuinely inept at human situations & all of it been documented since teens. guy that can barely count cant speak right words fast & throws up when angry/sad/scared & pisses ppl off continuously

went to goth night at a music bar and i should have taken a hundred more pictures it was so good

ive been obsessively agonizingly slowly playing through darkwood. its made it into top 10 antoine game list

Glitched

all nighter against my will. washing machine dumping water even when unplugged. water shutoff is connected to all 3 houses on the property & i dont have access bcus its in a different yard(neighbors hate me fsr even tho we've never talked??) so i have to set it to spin cycle to drain every hour.

that residents evils victor guy. hits the spot 👌

lemon loaf cake, homemade pasta, chicken parmesan and tomato sauce and more cheese

i keep blipping out of existence !

day drinking and poker at the dive bar with my bro. life is good

parts work not so good when. youre jyst a big fat guy whos being abused still like a useless incompetent 5yr old.

Good morning

da ozzys tho

wauggghhhh really really uhhhhh in the fuck of it. literally cant do anything at all lately no cooking no drawing no gaming no reading. freeze state from hell

i love substance abuse <3

FINALLY HAVE TESTOSTERONE PRESCRIPTION BACK!!!! here is me in the bar bathroom after knocking a painted wooden apple box off the wall in the pinball room.

genuinely feel like this is appendicitis that is getting worse

new flash sheet for work. its been foggy in town #tattooart #silenthill

big shnoozin

Espeon 🔮

walky pink shark

some vent-y emo art related things that felt good to make

do any of my friends that i disappeared to wanna add me back on disc. i can send gizmo pictures and my food documentation and sometimes i like to do calls (´_ゝ`)

ohhhhh i am. fucking livid. im about to be in a rage. i feel so fucking sick and i want to scream and break shit. how am i supposed to handle this bullshit

🟡

actually hilarious to watch him anytime anyone picks up on His Vibes and how much they pivot to/entertain my presence + brush him off. its only happened a few times in public but seeing him squirm trying to rationalize or darvo. he knows full well

"the checkout guy asked if u want your drink out but just shoved mine in the bag" bru your vibes were so fucking rancid (walking away from me talking, huffs sighs & sarcasm "well u shoulda told me!!" after he put in the wrong #. and i had) that he was making pointed eye contact with me abt it LEL

ow ow ow stuck in panic attacks ptsd freeze and my brain screaming "i cant do this i cant handle this" while im. just laying in bed still. im so hungry and tired. i gotta try n get groceries today and i neeeeed to draw i want to so badddd

im going to inch towards the things i want. sliver by sliver mote by mote. i'll get there. i have to

Creativity / Fear

like yea things are "alright" and "can be so good" & im trying my damndest to go back to normal/better but fuck. everything is stained haunted. this house my stuff. theres still a giant hole in the bedroom door from the last time no attempt at covering it up or patching it. i feel like im spinning

no more doom and gloom this is the view i want and need (´▽｀)

things to do for myself: •make lists all the lists. the reminders, the end goal plans, how to get to who i wanna be •eat what i want to eat and eat as much of anything as i want. i dont have to save it or hide it •i dont have to ask or build a case. i can just want and say and tell and do.

grant me the strength to make phone calls, go get blood work done, and get my hrt prescription back PLEAASE (my menstrual cycle is back AND im in a nerve pain flare up)(i am so fuckign hungry)