nothing will change the fact that everything sucks, and that nothing will get better nothing will change, and i'll be even more disregarded by people

and for anyone that wanna say otherwise can stop kidding themselves we both know that it isn't true

i don't think anything will change regardless if i'm here or not i'm already disregarded by everyone as is

i don't know i bother anymore there's nothing to look forward to at all

i should just die instead actually

being around other people that aren't my close friends/mutuals makes me so dead inside ngl it's a way to drain most of my energy for how little (or none at all) i value to anyone else now

it's the her ever

The Epic Ness !!

rest in piss

so what's even the point anymore nothing changed, and it never will be thing will just get progressively worse for me and nobody will care at all

i've been through the worst over the span of 3 years man 2023 was the only good year i had in fucking ages because AT LEAST i actually get to hang out with people + i wasn't constantly being lied to (only exception being that HE still won't stop breathing down my neck secretly)

if i were to tell anyone about that, then i'd either be ignored like always, or be considered a burden like everything else i do there's nobody to trust/look up to anymore, and it's making me go insane

the "friends" who had my back for years? abandoned me me being harassed for months + was nearly doxxed? forgotten about the "mutuals" who i use to greatly respect? rarely acknowledge/avoided me the "mutuals" that keep saying that care about you? lying through their damn teeth

i fucking can't i'm about to lose my mind dude everything that I built up for was all for fucking nothing, the more I think about it

and it's not like anyone will see this either! i'll just be overlooked, like a majority of the stuff i do! i'm so happy for being mistreated still!! things really haven't changed, have they?? : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D

i'm so happy knowing so unimportant! like everything i built up for meant absolutely nothing! being taken for granted, being constantly avoided, lied to, etc on a daily basis with only a few at least doing the bare minimum! i'm in so much joy!

i can hardly trust anyone anymore when most of them are nothing but liars! they really just love adding salt to my ever-worsening wound! it's so much fun!

i love this year so much! i love when people don't actually care about me at all! i love being so unimportant! oh how i just enjoy it a whole bunch indeed! :D

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returning for a bit see if anything changed

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[ #art ] on a hunt

where will i be in 4 years

[ #art ] mono

[ #art ] happy 2nd, milly

[ #art ] derpina #ragecomics

[ #art ] the best there is!

idk if this'll get through but just know i still value you as a person you aren't who you think you are, there was NEVER an instance to where i was uncomfortable around i always appreciate seeing you around, and i apologize that you have to feel this way

Birthday artwork drawn for a friend. Trying something new with sketching out my artwork. Coincidentally, their character is eerily similar to an Animated Blockster, but they've never played the game before. #blocksworld #blocksworldgame @blocksworld.bsky.social @formerlyjim.newgrounds.com

happy birthday to me

tomorrow is my day

Update (1/?): @allen-dadud.bsky.social Has given me permission to upload this video of him being saying some disgusting shit in a VC Google drive link to video: drive.google.com/file/d/1Lotd...

(⚠:\\ P*dophilia/Zoo*hilia) ATTENTION ALL DORAEMON FANS!!! Block immediately @/elijahdmgz.bsky.social It has come to light that Elijah has a second account on twitter under the name Stingyursa where he's been posting pedophilic shit towards various Pokémon Characters and Shizuka from Doraemon

i like going to my close friends about my problems and what i'm going through because i know i'm with people who give a shit about me anymore

rip circle hand luke

seeing other's art makes me more ashamed of mine tbh cuz i most of the time suck, and can't draw apparently and would occasionally get good again (with only a 30% chance of me being proud of it)

dm to get the invite to the private server

either i'm too tired or i'm simply getting sick of everyone again maybe both

oh wait! then again that wouldn't matter since there's almost NOBODY TO RELY ON ANYMORE cool

part of me wants me to make a private server with people who i can rely on since there's a ton of bullshit i wanna get across

[ #art ] oldies

what a hilarious joke :D

[ #art ] postcard 🩷

#superpapermario / few other doodads

a part of me wants me to only post my work primarily over at newgrounds/discord not like anyone cares where i am or what i do anywhere else anyways lol